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"I'm not a serial killer"
Is what a serial killed would say
It's definitely new book jitters
But then here you have it a new chapter.
Hope you enjoy.
It's a long one so grab a snack.
Playlist of the chapter: Sweet but she's Psycho by Ava max
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I wanna let go of the past and live in the present
but I hold on to so much memories
the fear of letting go hurts me slowly
But the pain of holding on makes it easy.
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Well! that was werid?
"What do you mean apology not accepted?" I sighed looking back at him, his hazel eyes seemed to darken with deceit, this boy was definitely no good, but what can I say curiosity killed the cat, now when I look at the cloud of ego surrounding him.
He wasn't looking so hot after all, I glared at him, pressing my lips into a thin line, he was enjoying this I could tell, he made a slight chuckle, I continued to hold the glare but it was hard as I was fighting a smile.
"You've made so many eye rolls lately I'm shocked your eyes hasn't rolled to the back of your head " His shoulders sagged as he adjusted his facemask, his hair was different from the normal ones I see on boys around.
Studying his features, his hair was curly, it had a few actually draping on his face, either his hair care routine was out of this world or he wasn't fully Nigerian. The outline of his skin was a dark chocolate colour.
His ear was slightly pointed, he had a visible earring piercing, looking downwards there wasn't really a lot on his face to see, I add on a blue Louis Vuitton round neck polo, his outfit was extremely baggy and I could visibly see a his huge shoulders, I should definitely stop now looking downwards he was also carrying his blue outfit with a ripped black jean, with a ✨✨✨✨
I'm little bit of a sneaker freak, and those kicks are freaking expensive, "Are you done checking me out now" I snapped out of my ADHD break "In my defense I wasn't staring at you or checking you out I was checking you outfit out, Okay that definitely sounded weird" I continued repeating 'outfit out' in my head so his voice snapped me back to reality once more.
"That's definitely a lie, but I'll let it slide" I squinted my eyes giving him a questioning look, all this socializing was getting boring and I have a few more seasons of Teen Wolf to binge watch all over him the beginning for the 8th time.
"What do you want and why are you talking to me" I was seething in discomfort. His eyes won't stop raking my body, He was definitely returning the favor of me checking him out and I felt uncomfortable under his eyes.
"Eyes are up here hun" I plastered a fake smile on my face It was pretty obvious even through face macks so I was sure he couldn't miss it, He scoffed, his eyebrows pulling together into a crease as the other one made a sharp arc"
"Well, you just broke my rib cage and ruined my afternoon, made me uncomfortable by checking me out, so you have to make it up to me and also don't fake a smile" I scoffed raising an eyebrow, who the hell is this boy and why is he still talking to me, I was itching to walk away.
Eying him with my nose flaring up, I stepped out of the sun back into the shade of the building "I" I scoffed gesturing towards my body, "broke your" I pointed at him wagging my finger at him, "Ribcage"
"Who would believe that story of ?" I threw my hand up in the hair, this boy is teasing me on my last nerve, I just want ice cream, really is that too much to ask.
I mean it's true, you can barely walk without breaking your own rib.
I grimace pushing my thoughts to the back of my head, my subconscious was back to mocking me. "Well my ribs hurt so, you'll have to make it up to me"
This boy is giving me a migraine,
"How?" I raised an eyebrow, trying So hard not to eye roll,
"Spend an hour of the day with me" I choked on air as he said that. " Wait, sorry but the hell? I don't know you , for all I know you could be a psychopath or a serial killer, waiting to add me to the top of your list"
It was his turn to choke, or chuckle I can't tell I was too busy glaring and trying not to laugh."some girls should really stop watching serial killer documentaries, or more crime movies" he said through short laughter.
"Yeah so we can be an easy prey" folding my arms across my chest, I stood my ground, the movies are highly enlightening and good for the entertainment of the mass, the thrill to find the killer.
"And The fuck! No I am not a serial killer" I laughed the sacarsm was hard to miss, "Something a serial killer would say, and them boom you are skinning me alive or whatever you want to do to my body and I never get to have my ice cream again because that's literally all I want to do right now"
"Wow"
"I made you speechless right?"
"You have to be the weirdest I have seen so far" he says to mostly him self than to me, looking back at me, I felt short as good gaze was completely covering my body, "okay fine" He stopped rubbing his forehead,
You aren't the only one getting a migraine I was too.
I thought eying him, "We would go to an open place filled with at least 9 people"
I smirked playing with him was starting to be fun.
"And all nine of them are your partners, which you have carefully placed all around the park, all nice ways to lure a girl to thinking it's are safe"
Telling from the look on his eyes he jaw just dropped, I couldn't help but giggle, the surge excitement I'm feeling right now was a little weird but I liked it.
"Unbelievable, literally unbelievable" he leaned against the wall, his ripped arms building under the construction.
"Fine you seem fun, but I still don't trust you, Soo I pick how you spent the rest of your afternoon and the places we go"
I can't believe I gave into this, picking at the sand still under my fingers.
He Finally relaxed, "Fine let's go with that" I nodded walking past him.
"I need to tell my family I didn't run off with a boy I met in a day, or get kidnapped by an dealer who wants to" "please don't say it" he interrupted me, I scoffed at the questioning eyes he gave.
He nodded walking behind me, I spotted my step mom looking around she was definitely searching for me already, Anu saw me first, dropping her ice cream spoon on seeing me approach the table, her smiled widening.
My step mum raised an eyebrow at the boy behind me, and my step dad went straight into ultra protecting mode. I could tell by the glare, as his eyes did a full one over.
I stoped at the table, "Uhmm, Sorry i came back a little late, I met someone I pointed towards him, "Good afternoon" he greeted with a curt nod, "I want to go down to a the beach scene, I wanna take pictures for Instagram" I said in a low voice, he stopped few inches from the table.
"Keep your phone on and I don't like that boy" my step dad didn't say no eve if his glare was directed towards him. He wouldn't want to argue with his wife, because it was all shocking that I want to actually talk to real life people.
"Wow, you are actually changing" the tease in my step mum's voice was evident. I scoffed, "I'll take my ice cream along and my meat pie, and I'll eat the rest later at home"
"You are coming back soon right?" Anu's pout was killing me, she didn't want me to go. " Yes love, I'll be back soon I promise"
She nodded and went back to her ice cream, I turned back at Mr hazel eye of, he was glaring at me I could tell.
Walking way past him holding my snacks in my hand, he followed behind, I could tell cause he was still staring.
"Doesn't he get tired" Walking out the sun was high up in the sky, I had to use my sun glasses.
I turned back waiting for him to catch up, He finally did standing next to me.
Damn! He is tall. He makes me feel short
My thoughts were caught short by his slight coughing,
"Can you stop staring, like it's really akward" I turned towards him.
"I wasn't staring" That was a lie,
"Where do we go first?"
I sighed...
"I wanna go close to the water, and take pictures,and you aren't gonna be in them"
"Well that sounds fair, but then you did say you were picking so what choice do I have, I could be a serial killer"
I nudged his elbow, he struggled to gain compusture, " Don't do that"
"Wait are you actually whining" He glared.
" Are your eyes contact lenses or natural?" I asked even if it was odd, I was gonna die of curiosity if I didn't.
"Sorry I asked, but I had to, I was dying of curiosity" He scoffed but had a smile on his face, I hope it was a smile.
"Well you have been staring at me, and also you you nearly knocked your self out from staring, I caught you"?
I squinted my eyes towards him, " You are liking this aren't you?" I spotted a spot with a shed over it.
"We could sit there" I pointed towards some empty seat with a few people around it, the view was facing the sea and it had a really beautiful sun angle,
"I guess you stare at everything that catches your attention?" he snapped me out of my admiration of the 2Pm sun, "Yup"
I turned back glaring at him, Walking way ahead of me and taking a seat at one if the open air tables, I sat next to him placing my ice cream on the seat next to me.
Pulling out my iphone, "I'll be back in a few minutes" I got up to take a picture of the sun. I take pictures of nature, its a werid sensation but nature calms me.
After a few pictures, I finally found the one. Walking back to him, "My eyes are natural I got them from my mum, that's all the information you are getting".
I scoffed sitting next to him, pulling the lid of my ice cream, " Awwn it's melting" I frowned as the ice cream was half way melted.
"you have a sweet tooth, you are whining over a tub of ice cream" Grabbing my spoon, I wagged it towards him.
"Do not talk trash about my ice cream, it the only reason I agreed to leaving the house in the first place"
"Woah, okay fine, I was just saying" He raised his hands up accepting mock defeat. "Good" I huffed going back to my ice cream.
Taking a sip,
The flavor melting on my tongue, was bliss.
"Wow your are literally falling in love with a tub of ice cream, you are so far the weirdest I have seen" He broke me out if my day dream again.
"Well.... No words" I sighed.
"And I won't be offering you my ice cream because I don't share" It was his turn to laugh.
Can everything about this boy not be perfect, the laughter's was still monotone but yet calming,
He laugh was mesmerizing, It was about to be one of my most favorite sound to here, the slight tilt of his forehead to the back as the sun hits the tight angle in his face.
WOAH HOLD UP!.
Am I simping?.
His laughter died in his throat. He noticed I was staring, my eyes darted some where else, as I suddenly became Soo engrossed in the sun, and the birds flying up ahead, I counted 6 birds"
"Well I don't want your ice cream, I am a footballer so sweets is not my thing"
God his voice makes my body react in a way
I am grateful this is a one time meeting.
"Well to be honest, that is Soo sad a boring, Sweets is life". I hummed looking back at him, an hour passed, we both shared a cup of ice cream, I forced him to. We walked towards the water a few times and he was a decent photographer.
We walked back to the shed sitting back down for a while, we had a few more conversations
"It was nice sitting here but I need to get back to my family, it's nice meeting you?" I paused waiting for his name.
He peeled his eyes off the sun and looked back at me, his eyes were glossy.
"why not just leave it anonymous?, I would call you serial killer and you would call me?".
That was a question, I sighed thinking of a name,
"Hazel, your eyes is the rarest I have ever seen that way I remember how much of a pain you are" Standing up to pick his phone off the table.
"Nice to meet you serial killer" I grimace at the name, it's a good thing we are never meeting, I mean Lagos is Soo big so what are the odds, and more over that was a really bad first impression.
"Nice to meet you Hazel" Smiling through my nose mask for the 100th time today, I got up to pick up my phone and the empty ice cream pack.
We both were heading in separate directions, so with one final wave, I watched his figure disappear into the crowd.
Walking back, "Ari, Ari" I snapped my head back to my name being yelled by my step sister, I smiled as I bent lower catching her as she ran towards me.
"Well you are smiling?" My step mum teased, I ignored her, she would pry for detail later anyways, "Can we go home now?" I looked up with pleading eyes, the day was staring to bore me.
"Well yes, that's why we came to search for you as you weren't picking up" I glanced down at my phone screen, "Damn!6 missed calls, Am sooo sorry I didn't get them"
They both nodded as we walked back to the parking lot, Anu filled out walk with stories of her adventures. Getting into the car it was 5:56 already, I slept 3 hours with him and I had no idea
Woah!.
"She looks sleepy" I commented as Anu leaned her head on my shoulder, I waited as the door of the cars unlocked, hoping in the back seat, I placed Anu on my thighs.
She was not saying anything anymore, " You want to sleep? Don't you?" I tapped her a little, she hummed in reply.
Yup! She is definitely wants to sleep.
Lying back on the seat, as I waited for the journey to began, I pulled out my head phones, careful not to disturb Anu.
The journey home was quiet and really long, we got stuck in traffic, so it was all blurry as I was consumed in the dark was as I let the my body take a nap.
"We need to wake the girls" The whispers were right above my head, I played pretend, "But they look so cute, I want a picture" My step mum's phone flashed finally forcing me to open my eyes.
"You woke me up successfully, I would take Anu to her room" They bother nodded,
"Yeah and I would get some sleep also, I'm way too tired to wait up for dinner"
"Not even a little?" My step dad locked his car as soon and we got out, while my strep mum locked the gate.
"I am not hungry at all, so that would be good night, I love you guys, and thank for today"
"Honey wait we haven't given you your birthday gift you know" I stopped dead in my tracks turning back, "I like the sound of that, I go drop Anu and come back down".
"You would get it tomorrow don't worry, it's still a surprise"
I grinned. Grabbing the key and my bag off His hands. I walked up to the door, unlocking it and turning the door nob , I switched on the light as I walked forward.
Finally getting to her room, I drooped her onto her bed, kissing her forehead. Turning on her bedtime sounds, from the music player on her night stand, by doctors prescription due to her severe insomnia case, she can't sleep for a long period of time without them.
It stared to play rock-a-bye baby melody softly in the background. I hummed to the tune as I walked down the stairs.
Taking a turn down to my room, I pushed open my door grabbing my phone out of My bag, tossed the bag on my bed, stripping out of my outfit.
My mind travelled back to today, to Hazel. I snapped my self out of the thought, walking naked across my room, I packed the pile of clothes into my laundry basket.
Sighing as I walked Into my bathroom. I replied all the text sitting on my toilet seat, I placed my phone back on airplane mode.
Playing 'Begging TikTok remixed version' I placed my phone out of water reach as I stepped under the shower.
Grabbing my body wash, I let the water run through my hair, it wasn't hygienic but it was soothing, I scrubbed my body with my bare palms making small circles with the soap lather.
Leaning against the wall as I felt a lone tear escape my eye, "I wish I met you mum I really did" I stayed under the shower till my eyes turned a dark shade of red and it was had to see.
Walking out, I picked up my phone and decided to sleep without my skin care products today, looking towards my mum's portrait in my room, I smiled picking up my sharpie pen, I walked towards the picture.
Writing a big 18 under they numbers 1 - 17,
"You have been gone 18 years mum, I love you" Closing the lid, I walked down to my closet wiping the tears off, I picked out a short and an over sized black shirt.
Shrugging it on, I opened my locker picking out a book I made, just for today.
The Night I turn 18, Opening the first pages, I picked up the pen next to the book, sitting on my bed, I started...
Dear diary,
Today I turned 18,
So I decided I might need someone,
Someone who will always listen,
Someone who won't judge me,
A place I can be me,
and not be scared of my endless flaws,
I have no idea what to call you.
But I anticipate our journey together.
The rest of my writings blurred out to the events of the day, Hazel eyes being the tag of my page.
Flipping close the cover, I dropped the pen on the floor next to my bed, Picking up phone, I yawned the as I stared my scroll through Instagram, replying comments and sending out thanks you messages.