I rapped on the door gently, but heard nothing inside, no movement, nothing. I sat on the floor and lean my back on the door.
my calls and texts to her went answered. I have had enough. Tommorow I shall leave, she is hurt anyway, with me gone she will find her peace and I will have my freedom. Damn the woman times three...
The door suddenly open and I nearly fell on my back on the interior floor of Ruby's room.
"spooky!" she gasped in surprise. I might have dose off after my three calls to her phone went answered.
"how spooky you are, Kuga" she said and added "I recalled you didn't take your meds, I was bringing them to you, here, have it". she handed it to me as I stood up, turning to face her.
"goodnight Kuga" she said and push to close the door, but I have my feet planted there involuntarily. the door came crashing it to the frame.
I bare the pain with a stone face like an Apache. she gasped in shock, raising her palms to her gaping mouth.
"oh Kuga, you're bleeding, come on in, let me clean it up" she pulled me inside the room, and switched on the light, a faint oceanic midnight blue light, that made me feel I am walking under water.
"sit on the bed" she ordered and rushed into the bath room. I did as I was told.
She came back with a first aid box.
I placed the injured leg on the knee of the other leg I had planted to the floor, for support.
She washed the injury meticulously with methylated spirit, applied penicillin ointment before binding it up with cotton and bandages.
"thanks you for everything". Silence. I tried again… "I am very bad at this. Where do I even start?". Another long silence. Damn the woman, what is wrong with her? I can't take this anymore.
I wish I could read an expression in her face to gauge her emotions, but there was nothing there. her eyes looked at me with a blank grandma expression, deep in wisdom and nothing more.
What is the nutty girl up to spooky?". "…serving you your own honeyed tea, kuga." "so you are taking her side now?". "Ruby all the way Kuga…". "get out of my head now and never come back." "oh, I will leave you in your misery now, but I will definitely come back…"
Ruby was smiling at me, as though she read me inside out. I have to get out of this room, out of this house, and never come back. she turned her eyes from me, as the tension build up.
I wanted to leave but I couldn't, I wanted to reach out for her but she seems so far away from me.
An awkward Silence ensued as she refused to look at me…. "good, I will see you tomorrow then Ruby," I said and rise up from the bed to leave but she held my wrist in a firm grip.
"what is wrong with you woman! what the hell do you think you are doing! I have had enough of your antics. Let go of my hand!". she gripped on it tighter. I thought I knew what frustration was until now…
I felt so angry and confused, I wanted to smash on something, anything but her. No one have never stir this kind of mixed emotions within me, not even myself. Where I did fail, she did succeeded.
This woman is my heart. How or when she did crept in there, I don't know. Coming closer to her had been a terrible mistake. I can't afford to go soft and weak with this kind of emotion, yet I was melting bad under her spell.
What is she? A siren? A sorceress? A witch?
I wanted to cry. "let me go Ruby. I need to get out of this place, this can't work. You and I can't be…"
"Don't leave kuga, she wants to say something. "Get out from my head spooky, I mean it right now!".
"sit down Kuga," she ordered softly, and I complied.
I wanted to leave, but couldn't. her aura held me prisoner and I felt reluctant to escape. That's the reason why I am scared of her. She can tame any beast with the soft caress of her voice.
No single woman should have that kind of power. A sinful pretty elegant face, a sexy body and a siren for a voice. And heavens break lose when she softens that voice.
"who is 'spooky' Kuga?" Ruby asked mysteriously. And I felt something cold crept from my brain down my spine, all the way down to my toes as her intelligent eyes bore into my soul.
this is definitely a different dimension to the lady I haven't seen before.
"spooky is the alias my friends call me".
"are you sure, spooky is not more than just a name?" she said, her large bright eyes still on me unblinking.
"what do you mean Ruby?". "wouldn't you rather acknowledge spooky as a person or a persona, a different identity within you, not dominant, but more like a compass in your subtle mind". She suggested candidly.
"who are you, woman?". I asked nervously, shocked at this deduction by the woman.
"it's a simply question kuga, who is spooky? Is he just a name, or another person inside you"? she asked, this time in a mischievous smile.
"I guess you already have the answer to that Ruby." she nodded emphatically and said;
"I heard him a while ago telling you to stay 'Don't leave kuga, she wants to say something""
Astounded by this telepathic intuition by the woman, I suddenly felt like a trapped falcon… a wide influx of alien emotions berserk my world from deep within.
How much torture can a man take in one night? I wonder.... No, this a telepathic invasion into the soul. how long has been listening to my inner squabbles with my other self.
"I heard him the first time I met you in the elevator car, in the cafeteria, and our first phone conversation". She said and sighed.
"Every time I empathize with you, and he emerges, I can hear his dialogues with you. I have come to know him so well, but…." She paused and looked into my eyes gravely.
"but I still doubted his existence Kuga, until that fatal day you lay dying in you secret room. 'spooky' came to me, perhaps in a dream, or a vision, I can't tell. believe me Kuga, I am not a superstitious."
"can I go to my room now Ruby," I said suddenly feeling sick. "let me get you water to take your meds" she said and brought me a bottled water at room temperature.
"so I did a little research around the subject when you were in coma for a whole week and we feared you will never make it.
your readings had look so feeble on the chart, we feared you wouldn't last through another night." She paused, sniffed and wipe her streaming eyes. and how beautiful she looks when she cries.
"you are suffering from mild MPD" she said in a sob, and I felt my heart squeezed and melt…
"what is MPD". I was so scared to confront the truth about myself, a truth that I have been in a quest to fine.
"it means Multiple Personality Disorder, not everyone believed it exists anyway, it's purely a theory, but in your case, it made sense".
"how come you didn't tell me earlier Ruby?". my voice echo in my ears remorseful.
"my first priority was to get you to feel better before I can tell you all that."
"do have to see a shrink or something? I may be dangerous, maybe go crazy.... I maybe a threat to you..."
"had I not known who spooky is I would have thought the same. but with spooky gone Kuga will lose his mirror..."
" this feels so weird Ruby. and you are so damn spooky lady. that's the reason why you should let me fly solo, Ruby. I am dangerous to you... I got to go Ruby".
"Don't say that Kuga." she said, cried and added. "I have never regretted meeting you or getting to know you Spooky".
I reach out to her and she threw herself into my arms sobbing, while I held her to my chest gliding my palms up and down her back, serenading.
"oh Ruby, do stop now. aye, I can't bear to see you like this." …
"and I said horrible things to you out of anger and weakness, I can't believe I said all those things to you before your hemorrhage".
"shssh … it's all my fault Ruby. And you were right. I am no good for you. I hold none of those things you said against you. Ruby, trust me you don't want to end up with someone like me."
she looked up into my eyes as mine bore into her enchanting ones.
"I am screwed then," she said, then laughed in a sob, choking, trying to stifle her emerging intermingled emotions.
Unconsciously we closed in on each other, our fore heads collided gently, our lips so close, our nuzzles touching.
"what do you want from me…" we both murmured breathlessly, our bodies so close, and heaving, itching to press together.
My eyes felt moist, a most unusual experience in my life… and the more I battle the edge not to cry the more the tears came pouring, I tried holding myself together but to no avail…
I could smell her breath, the same eerie scent of her aura, a welcoming energy that engulfed the whole room, caressing me on the skin warmly.
"what are you doing to me Ruby? This feeling is scary, emotions I will rather not confront, you have to let me go, as you've already discovered about me I am a nut case…"
"yes Kuga, I have tried, lord! I don't want to have anything to do with you, I could sense the danger. Perhaps a danger from me and not you.
there is something about you that make me act in ways I have no control over, and that has never happen to me before. I am as scared as you Spooky." She sighed mournfully and her body spasm, exuding that contagious aura I was beginning to sense so well like my own breath.
I felt the woman is simply a fictitious fantasy I conjured up in my imagination, it was only when our lips finally collide that I found reality itself shimmering into a dream, it didn't matter how real the ecstasy erupts within us felt, the sheer bliss of the kiss felt like a dream.
"no Ruby, we can't do this… we are burying ourselves deeper in this quagmire." "we both need this Spooky." "it's insane right, we both need it so bad it's scary." We collided again melting into each other. I must be dreaming. I still couldn't acknowledge I was kissing this elegant lady with a mouth without front teeth.
I was doomed to her in this kiss. I wanted more of her. I wanted to take her right there on the bed. I wanted to penetrate her with my throbbing shaft.
I wanted to take her enlarged nipples into my mouth, suck and feasts on them till she quivers and burst out with pleasure. but not her. Not this woman.
Her tongue suckled on my toothless gums sensually, and I nearly shoot my seed right there. I was already leaking and aching. She held on my t-shirt, trying to get it off my head and have access to my body.
Her silky night gown patted and I saw her beautiful melons, and my breath caught in my throat.
"no ruby." "why Spooky?". "I can't go down this road with you." "oh, I see. You can go down with any other woman, but not me." "it's not like that Ruby. You are not any other woman."
she smashes me hard on the face, shaking irrepressibly. she might have misunderstood this statement.
"get out of my room!". She went to the door and open it for me, her stormy eyes raining tears in a down pour.
"I can't leave without making you understand." "understand what spooky! That mean nothing to you? that you did rather share you bed with any other woman but me? is because of her right?".
I reach the open door and pushed it back to close. "now, you listen to me Ruby." I didn't know where to start. The words simply vanished as she stared at me with that prurient hunger. We bump into each other again by the close door.
Her lash body seem to set ablaze. It felt so warm, her lips so slick and soft after all that crying.
Her essence filled my senses. The woman had no Idea why I don't want to have her. I can't afford to be a slave to any other human being, but I knew if I eat this forbidden grape, I shall be enslaved for all eternity.
I carry her to the bed. we lay staring at each other. "tell me more about you Ruby." "stop treating me like a little girl Spooky."
"I want us to get to know each other better. Maybe if you know the scum I came from, you will stay away." "I don't care about your past or where you're from spooky." "I didn't know you could be so stubborn Ruby."….
We spent the night on her bed talking about mundane stuff, kissing and caressing. A pleasant torture, but one I prefer than having sex with this woman. we nuzzle on bed till we fell at sleep.
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