There is a lot of people fear of death and here I am now lying on the floor where I am about to die, to be honest I am also afraid of death but I fought the war knowing that I will die. Funny isn't it? I know I will die in the war but here I am lying like stiff log, I don't really want to be in the battlefield but I have no choice but to follow the orders of a king who doesn't care if his people die or not just for land.

I hear shouts asking for help, shouts of anger at the enemy, shouts that they are about to win the war, shouts of people who want to live and I am one of them. I couldn't move my body, I felt so heavy and my whole body was numb. I must have run out of blood so I couldn't move and my vision was slowly fading. I don't know if I'm destined to die because it's actually my fifth time in this life.

I feel like everything I do in my life is pointless because I will live again and experience a new life even if I don't want to. Sometimes it crossed my mind that my wish would be twisted because when I was 13 in my first life, everything was so boring to the point where I was doing it over and over again in life so I prayed to God that my destiny would be twisted or even there is something different and this is what you will live several times. They call it "Reincarnation or Reborn" where you can be reborn after you die but mine is a bit strange because I have died several times.

But I'm wondering why my memory is still with me every time I live again, I know that your memory can be bad when you reincarnate and others will not include their memories but for me until now my memories are it's still with me. Maybe God fulfilled my wish and made me two, It's really funny, isn't it?. If I could live again, I would be in the normal world and it would be peaceful because of the five times I lived I would have a girlfriend.

I close my eyes and I feel the warm feeling inside me, even with my eyes closed I see the light instead of the dark. Maybe I died and I hope that when I open my eyes, I will feel a good, peaceful and healthy life. When I opened my eyes a beautiful design and expensive ceiling I turned my gaze lying on a soft bed. There was a lot of gold mixed in each design, I sat down and was very surprised that I would not be reincarnated if I did not end up in another body. I calmed myself and looked at my hands and they were quite white and smooth, I stood up on the bed and looked at my body wearing a beautiful silk dress. I immediately saw a scrying mirror next to the bed cabinet I was lying on, I took it and looked at my appearance which surprised me because I am so handsome I can't explain or say how handsome I am. Black hair and slightly dark violet eyes and above all a smooth face. I held my own face in disbelief.

I felt a little better because maybe I'm a rich and high noble, I went to the window and folded the curtain, the sun was shining when I looked up at the sky. The rays of the sun gradually appear and you will see a peaceful scenario of trees and land that have harmonious colors due to the rays of the sun, you will also breathe the fresh air and feel the breeze as if it is noon now.

The room is full of expensive items, such as the cabinet whose handle is silver that shines very clean and the designs of the items are expensive that only the rich will have them. I opened the door with a golden handle, when I opened it there were beautiful things and clean walls, floors, and carpets. I walked with a full door on my left and beautiful paintings on the right, I was seen by a maid dressed in a neat dress befitting her job as a maid.

"Good Morning Mr. Gargalano" the maid greeted nicely and she bowed and continued her work.

I smiled at her as I greeted her back. I went down the well-designed stairs, there were three doors in front of me one on the left side but I'm not sure what room it was and one on the right side I didn't know that room either and one door was going out of the house. I let my intuition guess the door where I can eat and have coffee.

when I was holding the door handle, my mind suddenly began to wonder how I understood what the maid said because I didn't know their language and suddenly my head hurt like I was being stabbed by needles and other sharp objects, I felt dizzy I was too much and grabbed the door handle because of my headache. I fell down because I just experienced this as if my brain was going to explode from the pain, I was in tears from the pain and I screamed loudly to ask the maids for help, I saw memories that quickly flashed through my mind that accompanied the pain in my head , maybe this is the memory of the body I was in and it suddenly shows me who I am now in this body and it suddenly stops at the same time as I lose consciousness.

When I opened my eyes I was in the room again where I woke up earlier, I held my head because of the headache, it wasn't that bad but I was dizzy. I drank the water that was placed in the cabinet next to the bed and then stood up to go out, every step I took felt heavy as if something heavy was being carried on my back but I continued walking towards the door to go out again because my stomach is growling with hunger.

The maid saw me coming down the stairs again so she immediately approached me and worriedly said that I should rest first because of what happened earlier. I don't know what to say because I don't know their language and maybe what I can say will make them suspect I'm a Doppelganger or whoever is pretending- suddenly a memory of this body appeared in my mind that my name is 'Venedetta Valenciano Idris Gargalano', the name can be Idris for short it'll make lazy to write my whole name on paper. And symbols appeared again in my mind and at the same time I heard different voices that maybe it was their language.

I opened my lips and said,

"I'm fine and prepare me food because I haven't had breakfast yet"

I was surprised by what I said because it opened itself and said that their language was the same because I was nervous I just continued walking again and I remembered that I went through the left door earlier so I will go there again. when I opened it, I was faced with a beautiful dining table with expensive chairs and I immediately sat on the right side of the first chair and waited for the maid I ordered.

The maid came with a beautiful woman, she put down the plate that the meal was two fried eggs with three sausages and she also put down the coffee and water. The young woman sat in front of my chair with black hair, beautiful eyes like shining blue diamonds, a beautiful body shape and white smooth skin. I'm a little nervous because I don't know her because I didn't see all the memories of this body and an old man came in wearing a coat and glasses, maybe he's the father of this body because I saw him a little earlier in the memories that came into my mind just before I passed out. He sat in the chair of the head of the family and looked at me seriously with mixed disappointment. I took a sip of coffee first and noticed that the woman was still staring at me sad and disappointed with me that I wondered why but it was because of the life of this body.

"Until now, I'm like a disappointed child that I raised in this household!!" he angrily told me this that I choked a little I coughed and wiped myself with a handkerchief.

"Everything you do is stupid and pointless, that's why we hide you from everyone outside our house because of your behavior!"

"I think me and Venedetta should break off our engagement because my parents don't want him because they have nothing to be proud of him" said the woman with a sad voice, I don't know what this body and she went through but maybe she fell in love because of my family's name and reputation or they truly love each other, I was calmly wiping the spilled coffee on my clothes which made my father angry because of my calmness that he thought I wasn't listening to what he said so he hit the table in annoyance with me.

"Father, I lost my appetite because of you and you didn't even ask me why I fainted earlier and what caused my fainting or even visit me"

They were surprised by what I said as if I just now dared to speak loudly but father's surprise was mixed with anger.

"What did you say!!-"

"Father let's talk in my room" I stood up and wiped my lips with a handkerchief, he was stunned and I left to go to my room. Father followed me, so angry that he wanted to punch me. I stood near the window looking at the trees.

"Why do you want us to talk here? You know that i might disown you but if ever you to do it again you know what will happen to you"

"I think it's time for you to know the truth" s

he was a bit confused by what I said.

I have to make him believe even if I use lies because he will know that this is not his real son even if he wants to punch me. I looked him in the eyes as I stood calmly.

"Father, don't you know that our lives are in danger because of your mother's ignorance, there are people who want to kill us, especially me because they are jealous of our family"

"What do you mean that there is someone who wants our whole family to die, that most people admire us because of our intelligence, and wealth?"

"Exactly because of the intelligence and wealth of our family, they are jealous because they feel that we are above and they are all below, so while we live many people want to pull us down until we can't stand up again" He was surprised by what I said but it was obvious to him that he doubted what I said whether it was true or not.

"You mean the incidents of the deaths of other nobles who don't know why they died, all of that is your doing?"

"Yes, some are my work and others are not, which means that someone is killing those nobles, but it is not one of our family who is responsible for killing them, which means that there are other families who are killing them and they know seemed know about it"

"And the reason I lost consciousness was because I inhaled poisonous air earlier, so I had my window open earlier because I wanted to breathe fresh air, but don't worry because they are all dead"

I opened the wardrobe A cabinet full of beautiful coats, uniforms and pants including neck ties for each uniform. He sat on my bed worried and couldn't believe the truth I said, which was a lie and made up, I chose something new to wear because my clothes got dirty today, a black coat and a white uniform without the necktie because I was choking on the those and black pants and a pair of shiny leather shoes.

"It means that for eighteen years you pretended to be a disappointed child because you were planning to kill the people who wanted to bring us down without even realizing that there were people who were going to kill our family"

"That's right because of your ignorance, but now I want to enjoy myself and learn too-"

"You're studying this year, son, and you have school today, right?" I'm surprised inside me and I left him in the room to take a shower so I could change my clothes but before I could leave completely I said,

"I'm going to eat together after I eat and please say that it's okay even if we break off our engagement and mix in a little sadness to make him believe that he might think that I just agreed"

When I went to the bathroom I was a little happy and sad at the same time because there was a bathtub but the toilet was made of a wooden seat and there was a hole where you poop and because I thought the Age of industry toilet was like the old style of toilet but it wasn't. I'm tired of taking shit in this wooden toilet that's just a hole because every time I sit in the modernized toilet I feel the cozy and peaceful atmosphere that sometimes i don't want to leave anymore "Argghh I'm sick of this toilet!!".