When we arrive at the hospital I make a mental note to talk to Matty about the party, I need to come up with a way of not drinking in front of everybody.
Just in case.
He holds my hand looking happier than he has in weeks.
We head into Ross' room and he is up and ready to go. I smile at him, he's wearing a T-shirt and leather jacket and jeans and he looks like Ross again.
"Ready?" Matty says to him.
"Almost they just gotta check my blood pressure again" he says.
"Okay, we're gonna get takeout on the way home and eat at yours if that's okay" Matty asks.
"Of course man" Ross says smiling at him.
I'm so happy that they're talking nicely to each other again.
"What do you both feel like eating" I ask smiling at them.
"Burgers?" Ross laughs.
Marty agrees.
"Burgers it is then" I smile. The nurse comes back in and checks Ross' blood pressure. She smiles and tells him that he is fine to go. He must come back in a week for a checkup. She supplies pain medication on prescription which we will pick up on the way out.
Once we've got everything we help Ross to the lift. Matty carries his bags and I hold onto him, his walking has improved but he's still unsteady.
We pick up his pain pills and ask about drinking and what he can and can't do on them. Looks like Ross will have to remain sober too.
"Thanks both of you" Ross says randomly out of the blue as we sit in the car. I turn to look at him, and smile.
"Ross it's fine, now let's go get some real food, no more hospital crap" I say.
Matty squeezes my thigh, and then starts up the car. We go through the drive thru and get the same as yesterday.
"Hey do you want some chips now?" I ask Ross.
He chuckles.
"Nope I can wait, can you though?" He says smiling.
I prove that I can wait till we get to his house.
Once inside we eat the food in front of the TV. I take the single chair and let them both share the sofa. It's nearly 8 o clock now and it's dark outside. I feel relaxed, Ross is home and getting better. I go upstairs and bring down his pillows and duvet.
"Do not climb the stairs please" I warn him.
He has a downstairs bathroom he can use.
"Yes boss" he smiles. Matty laughs.
"I mean it Ross" I say
"Should you fall you will be back in hospital"
I go up and get him some more books and some clean joggers. I bring that down and unpack his bag. I like to be busy. I seriously do not mind helping out. I put his clothes in the washing machine and wait for them to be clean. Once they're done I hang them up to dry. I clear up the takeout and get him two large sports bottles of water.
My phone vibrates and I glance at it as they're talking about the sport on the TV in the living room.
It's Jay.
What is wrong with him?
I open up his message, "Ross okay ?".
"Why don't you text him?" I reply. I can be just as cold.
There's a pause.
"Okay what's the problem" he sends back to me.
"No problem just unsure why you're texting me ?" I say.
"Fucking hell whatever. I'll text him" he sends and I ignore him putting my phone back into my bag somewhat forcefully.
It buzzes again. I shouldn't look at it. But I do.
"You're being really difficult? Why? I told you how I feel and you pushed me out. Not the other way around. So what if I'm with somebody new? You don't want me and you're always with him in front of me. Let's be friends and just be civil with each other" it says. Ohh I'm so fucking angry with him. He just met her this morning that does not constitute as being with somebody.
"Whatever Jay. Enjoy your night with Jane" I reply.
I keep hold of my phone just knowing he will message me back.
"Babe don't be bitter. Nothing happened between us" he replies.
I ignore him.
I will not reply to that.
"I'm sorry" he messages me. I ignore that one too.
"I didn't mean it like that" he adds.
I put my phone away and turn it on silent.
I walk back into the living room after washing up for Ross. I hand him his prescription and the bottles of water. He looks shocked that I had the forethought to get him water for later.
"Don't give me too much credit" I laugh.
"No thank you, you're so helpful" he says genuinely.
"That's okay I ugh kind of washed your clothes too I hope you don't mind" I say.
"Thanks again, I can't thank you enough for everything" he says to me.
"We're all going to Ryan's tomorrow, you're invited Ross" I tell him
"I can't drink though, or walk well enough" he smiles
"You're coming I'll be sober with you" I say briefly eyeing Matty.
Realisation dawns on his face and he smiles.
"somebody needs to stop you from falling over right" I chuckle
"Plus you owe me" I add.
"Okay, okay" he laughs.
We go shortly after and Ross promises to message one of us that he's okay later so that we don't worry about him. I hug him. Tightly before I leave. Not sure why but I feel emotional about the whole thing, I sob when he hugs me back and he ends up reassuring me.
When we get back in the car to go home Matty asks if I'm okay.
"Yes I dunno just happy Ross is alright, feel like I can breathe a sigh of relief that it's all going to be all good you know" I say.
"Yeah I know what you mean. He'll be fine. Good call on the whole sober thing." He says and I smile looking down at my tummy.
"Matty now I kind of feel like it's more of a thing, I've never been this late on my period. It's only right that until we know for sure I don't drink" I say.
"I have to tell you this, your emotions are all over the place too babe" he says.
"Right yeah I feel that, when I'm sad it's like the world is ending. And when I'm happy it's euphoric" I add.
"Babe you're pregnant with my baby" he says hoarsely.
I sob and he glances over at me.
"I can sense it" he says. Crying slightly himself.
"You've changed" he explains.
"Not that you weren't caring before, but you're overly caring now. You're always protecting your waist from anybody but me. And babe I know we're young. But this is right for us I can feel it" he says and he parks up at home.
We walk into the house, I deliberately don't say anything until we get in, I'm trying to process what's just happened.
He sits me down on the sofa and lights up the fire.
"Hot chocolate?" He laughs as I'm shaking.
I shake my head and pull him into me kissing me on the sofa. He laughs.
"But you're cold" he says.
"I'm fine" I say pulling my skirt off.
"Are you seriously going to deny me this?" I ask him.
His green eyes search mine and he smiles.
"If you're going to be this insatiable the whole time then Jeez" he laughs.
He doesn't even take his jeans off all the way. I need him inside of me. I gasp as he inches in me.
"Better?" He asks.
"Mmhmm" I moan
"I love you" I say and close my eyes.
He kisses me as he's making love to me. Telling me how much he loves me, how he's been thinking about me all day. I come quickly underneath him. He smiles down at me when he's finished.
"Hot chocolate? Now then?" He laughs.
I nod to him smiling looking down at my leotard which I still have on. We just unclipped it. He heads upstairs retrieving his shirt for me to wear.
"Thank you baby" I say taking off everything and putting his shirt on. He stares at my body as I do the shirt up in front of him.
I take my clothes and put them in the machine. I put the load on and sit on the kitchen table as he's making coffee and hot chocolate. I stare at his bare back.
"Think we should do a test" I ask.
"If you want babe, they're early detector ones" he says.
He comes over to me and places the hot chocolate down. He reaches past me to read the box.
"It says, that the best time to test is in the morning." He says smiling at me.
"Okay we'll do it then" I say smiling at him unable to stop looking into his eyes.
"If we are I hope the baby has your eyes" I say not knowing where that came from.
"I hope that the baby looks as much like you as possible. Because you are the beautiful one" he says.
He kisses me again and then lifts me up so that my legs are wrapped around his waist. He carries me upstairs even though I laugh reminding him that I can walk. I quickly take off my makeup and then I crawl into bed. With him kissing me and stroking me I fall asleep in seconds.