Jason was always a careful person yet even he had no knowledge of what exactly went wrong with his plan. He had assumed it would be easy to connect with Anthia, he was mistaken. He assumed Anthia would be inside of Antineba somewhere in there her soul had to be there, he was of course not thinking she was a later persona of Antineba. Antineba was her root soul that future versions of her would draw reference from not the other way around.
This was part of his theory he proposed to himself yet he would try anything once just incase it did work. He had a limited amount of chances with Antineba before she would realise he was doing experiments on her. His heart was not in this work but he had to find a way. In the true scientific study he systematically went through different methods maybe he would find Anthia in this era. Who knows....?
Antineba was suspicious of Jason's ploys it seemed she had seen through his plans as she was probably on the verge of discovering his true identity. Jason knew she was suspicious yet he still pushed her knowing he could loose her.
How could he explain everything he experienced since he's been here in this state he's in? How can he get through to the person he knows can help him? He was afraid of waiting for thousands of years for Anthia, he tried to fast track everything by shocking Antineba into remembering him. He was not thinking clearly , his heart wanted Anthia, he was using Antineba yet he had started loving her as well.
Jason was conflicted about this duel love he shared for the same person. How could he change Antineba as she was unique in a way Anthia was not , yet where the two not the same person. He had time but she only had her lifetime here in this era. This was so heartbreakingly sad for him he could not bare parting with Antineba as she was so very innocent and carefree the way Anthia was not
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Antineba
Antineba was regal in her speech, her voice was beautiful with her everything and everyday was uniquely beautiful.
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I am sure Jason was trying his best to be nice yet he's not this way as I know he's always critical. I can handle him always wanting to know where I am but this sappy sweet behavior is not his usual attitude. As I am here in the kitchen watching the fire in our iron stove a contraption Jason built himself. I am reminded he is so clever in coming up with unique ideas for our home. I am always astounded at his clever plans.
At this moment he is busy asking me a question but my mind has wavered away from him , I turn and focus when he almost shouts ,"Antineba, are you listening to me?."
I have not been paying attention as he now has to repeat the question, "What are you going to do today?"
I don't know what I will be doing as I was thinking of planting my seeds. I received these seeds from my quota of the seed bank.
We had all recieved these seeds as it would be a group experiment to see if we could have unique and individual gardens as a sort of challenge. A game or a championship to see who would plant a better garden. My plot of land was still filled with brambles. It needed to be cleaned and today I thought it neccessary to just do this very relaxing chore and be dammed not to have a crazy day spoil this beautiful one.
I can handle almost anything but his next words really galled me to the point where I wanted to throw him with something. "Do you have security lined up to go with you? Who is going? Should I ask someone to do it? What, why are you frowning...what's the matter now?"
He's at it again, always wanting other people around me as I cannot stand having him following me everywhere he places others there instead. I want to be alone today. I want my thoughts to be mine and not have someone else jabbering on and on in my ears.
l want to think about the future and what I have experienced so far as I need to do this without having another person talking to me. It seems Jason does not want me to be alone. I look at him , he seems nervous about something. I ask him, "Why are you so anxious? What is wrong with me spending this day alone? I always have someone around me , I have to think things through you know...."
He comes around the chair placing one foot on it instead of sitting on it. He is very agitated about this, I can see he's steaming up with pent up anger as he's been trying to be nice lately since I came back he's been 'nice'..... I was wondering how long it would last. I was about to experience a Jason moment or not as I see he's face is getting red under the strain of him keeping his cool and succeeding.
"Why must I be surrounded with people? Why can't I just have a quiet relaxing day? What is the reason for you always taking charge of my life, You remind me of the Grand vizier who was always there to spoil everything for me you know.... Come to think about it... he acted just like you did just now." I shouted this at him with vehemiance. He's now struggling to breath as his face turns red and he has guilty look as if I caught him out or something....
"Are you connected to the Grand vizier by any chance?" I ask him. He takes a beaker of water and starts drinking it as he clears his throat. I wait in anticipation for him to tell me. "Anthia, I want to tell you the truth but where do I start...."
My anger was beyond me as I grab a dish and throw it at him, hitting him on the head.