I had a bad feeling tearing me apart from the inside out. I do have feelings of love for Jason but if he is involved with that pesky Grand vizier I have no choice but to end my relationship with him yet who would suffer the most me or him... I don't know.
I hate the Grand vizier so much as he was always around when I was a kid. I definitely don't want him involved in my life anymore. It's as if I can't get away from him. I just want a world were he is not a part of everything , all my decisions does not have to be made by him.
I have to ask Jason for the sake of sanity, mine in particular, leave the Grand vizier alone please. How do I get through to him. I stand in front of him as I hold my hands to his face I say " Please Jason listen to me ,I need you to stop whatever this is ...." I can hardly get a word out before he starts crying large tears that drip from his eyelashes...
I want to believe him, I want to hear what he has to say. Before we can move a bright light from outside our cottage catches our eyes. Jason is always brave he recovers fast from his emotional outburst as he goes outside ,I am afraid... I can literally hear my heart beating, doff ,doff...
I can hear him talking to someone out there but I cannot see who it is. He is speaking a language I cannot understand. I had no idea he knew other languages. My mind is blown away by the sheer number of people who seem to be outside as the light brightens it is now possible for me to see they are glowing a florescent orange light. As much as I try to make out what they are saying I cannot hear a thing further.
This is peculiar as it's so dark outside with this artificial brightness that dazzles the eyes I am concerned for Jason, for his safety. He comes back inside after a long time outside. I am numb with apprehension and fear but he seems ok until he speaks.
He speaks in that strange language yet it seems familiar. As he turns to me his eyes glow and I jump with fright.
"What happened outside?,Why do you look so strange?", I bombarded him with questions.
Glowing people what strangeness is this. I don't know what madness this is but I really want to know what is happening. It is dark outside but these people don't need light as they glow a orange sunset light. They are gone now but so many questions remain especially what and who they are and why they where here.
I ask Jason what has happened but he still seems to be in some sort of trans. He finally speaks to me "Antineba, I love you, you know that, but I have to leave tomorrow...." his voice trails off and it's as if he is finding it hard to speak. What can be wrong with him and why is he not telling me the truth. Why is he trying not to tell me?
I ask him, "Who are those people? The people you where speaking to. What did they want from you? " He does not respond immediately but it seems he's trying to think up a plan to lie to me.
"Jason , please do not lie to me, please tell me what is going on?" I ask frantically as my need to know the truth overwhelmed me. He says one thing only "Watchers!" As if that is an answer, as if I have to understand what he is saying. In a few sentences not even enough for me to understand he wants my love and trust he must be joking ,right.
"Jason , please explain all of this to me?" I ask once more as I look at him I can see he has no intention of explaining anything to me. My frustration with Jason is getting worse.
"Who are the Watchers? What do they want??," I ask him frantically trying to get him to answer me as I grab his arms in frustration. He is trying to evade my questions yet I can see he does want to say something , but what it is I don't know.
He finally tells me he has to go away somewhere but he will be back in a few days time it is then that he will tell me the whole truth. He says he's tired now and we should go to bed and get some sleep.
The questions this whole episode leaves is just crazy, I don't know if I can handle this. This whole episode is unbelievable and complex. I want a proper explanation but I can see I will not be getting my answers from him tonight. It would be better if I waited another day then I will ask him again but this time I will do my best to get a satisfactory response from him.
We eventually go to bed but I cannot barely allow Jason to touch me while we are sleeping.
I feel I cannot trust him now with all this happening..
He cannot tell me, I can see that part of him wanted to say something and another part was keeping him in check.
The next morning he is gone... Where has he gone and why did he leave me a parchment note saying how much he loves me. It is not enough. There has to be a better explanation and I do hope he will tell me. I really need to know as I am becoming more and more suspicious of him....
It was two days later when he returned, he came into the house and I wanted him to speak to me telling me exactly what is going on. "Please, Jason don't leave me in suspense anymore?",I ask him...