Team had probably the worst night he ever had, tossing and turning, restless. He picks up his phone but then drops it back down. He is conflicted over his actions yesterday. Hia always told him that they cant control the way people think and act but yesterday what he did was so childish. "Oiii Team, why are you so dumb?" He is embarrassed, more after he saw that the video was shared all over university. He covers his face and groans into his pillow. How will I ever face anyone again? Crying in front of everyone, CRYING??? Why me? He feels bad that he hasnt spoken to Win so he gathers up the last shred of dignity he has and unlocks his phone seeing so many calls, P'Dean, Pharm, Manow, Win, all his friends. He goes to his messages and there are so many there too. He skips all of them and goes straight to Wins contact, most of them were concerned but the last one makes him squint in panic:
Win: Running away, really? You need to take responsibility for what you did.
It wasn't that long ago, shit. I really messed up and now Win is mad, just great. He starts typing but deletes it, he does this multiple time not knowing what to say. He settles on calling him, knowing this is better then texting. Hopefully he can convince Win not to be angry at his outburst. "You got this Team, go for it." He finishes his pep talk and dials Wins number, it doesn't ring more then twice before he picks up.
"Ah finally, so you do have my phone number then."
Hearing a sleepy Win instantly makes him solid. What the fuck Team, now is not the time. He closes his eyes and tries to shake this feeling.
"Team?"
Shit. Hearing his name in Hia's sexy sleepy voice sends jolts of electricity through him. Since when did he become such a horny idiot? "I'm here Hia." He takes in a deep breath, "I'm sorry Hia for yesterday, I know I shouldn't have lost my cool and exploded the way I did and embarrassed you like that. Please don't be mad at me."
Win chuckles, so this is what he is worried about? Like he said, one of the side effects of dating Team is that he is constantly in a state of whiplash. "You need to take responsibility for your actions Nong Team, what you did was very questionable. You know what's worse? Its that you just left after saying what you said. What if I was attacked?"
He didn't think about that, Team starts feeling bad for running away. "I'm sorry, I swear I will make it up to you. Did anyone say anything to you? How can I make it better? I know I messed up but I just lost it Hia. Please don't refer to me as Nong, why are you putting a barrier between us?"
Win hears the defeat in his boyfriends voice, "How could you tell everyone Team?"
"I didn't though, everyone already knew, that's why they were being rude about... Wait, you wanted to tell everyone in the first place. Why are you all of a sudden backtracking? Do you not want to be with me anymore?" He holds his breath waiting for the answer.
"Ahh, I'm talking about telling everyone I was good in bed, what are you talking about?" No matter what Win never misses the opportunity to tease him and he knows that having Team angry is better then having him sad. He hears the irritation coming at him in waves.
"I swear you are the biggest asshole under the sun, what is wrong with you?" Sometimes he doesn't know why he ever fell for this man.
Win chuckles again having achieved his goal. "I'm not mad baby, you were so brave and I was proud of you for standing up for yourself. I'm just sorry that you had to, I should have protected you better. It seems all the promises I make to you, I cant keep." Win becoming serious in an instant.
"You are not my parent Hia, its not your job to make sure I am okay 24/7, I can take care of myself. Its just that I was stupid and read comments on the cute boy age and then read the comments from our class group chat. They were so vile and hurtful so for a minute I lost myself and let them effect me. I admit that when I'm not with you, I don't feel secure in my own skin. I need to resolve this for myself."
"When are you coming back? We need to talk this through Team, you cant run away from me. I almost lost my mind thinking about where you are, had you eaten were you safe. This is not okay baby. You got me wrapped around your finger, I'm at your mercy."
"I know, I'm sorry. Hia can you switch to video?" The minute he does, he knows he made a mistake. He freezes, Team feels his ears get hot. Seeing Hia Win in bed hair, eyes still partially closes because of sleep, topless. He blinks as his eyes roams from his eyes to his lips, to his outstretched neck. He licks his lips feeling his mouth go dry. He watches the corners of Wins lip turn upwards, knowing exactly what Team is thinking.
He stretches looking at him seductively, "Is there something on my face?" He raises an eyebrow and gives Team a dashing smile, the smile that sealed his fate the first night they had sex.
Team clears his throat and licks his lips again, "Can I see all of you Hia?" He feels himself blush
"Sure baby", Win runs his hand through his hair, using his fingers he parts his lips. He watches in satisfaction as Teams pupils dilate and pure lust takes over. He runs his hands down this chest reaching his hip, he slips his hand under the cover and throws his head back, as if he is pleasuring himself, "Hmmm baby would you like a show?"
"Yes." Teams voice is high pitched and shaky. Fuck. Now is not the time to be away from his boyfriend, he watches in awe as Wins hand looks to be lifting the covers, he parts his lips expecting to see his mans beautiful manhood standing to attention, he is so focused. He brings his eyes back to Wins who is staring at him intensely, "Hia please, a little more." He watches Win smile almost evilly and then ends the call. What the actual fuck? He redials but no answer. He tries again but still no answer. He goes to message him when a message comes through.
Win: This is punishment for running away and telling everyone I was so good in bed. Imagine how many people were chasing me yesterday trying to sample your goods. But since I'm a good faithful boyfriend, you have nothing to worry about.
Win knows he shouldn't bait Team like this but maybe next time he will think twice about running away from him. He gets an instant reply, exactly as he expected:
Team: You are such an asshole. How could you Hia, you don't play like this. I really hate you.
Win: I love you too. By the way you should go handle yourself, but if you cant do it then come to my room. Have to go take Wiew to school. See ya.
Those words make his knees weak, he knows them too well. He replays that moment in his mind all the time. Fuck you Hia Win. He throws a mini tantrum before accepting his fate and using his only available option, a cold shower.
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Finally Win calms down, his inner turmoil settling a little. He expected Team to be devastated but he seems to be okay. Luckily he has Dean who always makes the right calls when it comes to things regarding emotions. For the longest time Win wondered if something was wrong with him because he didn't see things the way others did. Had Dean not talked sense into him yesterday he would have probably did something really dumb that would have ended his and Teams relationship. This is why having the right friends are important. Yesterday after they left the university, they went to hang out with the rest of their friends. Watching Manow cry non-stop for an hour over Team, Win just sat there quietly thanking the stars that Team has friends like Pharm and Manow. Pharm seemed distracted, no doubt feeling the same pain Team had. He watched Dean baby his boyfriend back to health, slowly bit by bit he regained his composure and smile.
As for the classmates of Team who were so eager to know everything, he decided to pay them a visit. The kid looked scared as hell seeing the expression in his eyes. Win knows he can be cold and deadly, he also knows the effect his appearance has in making him seem more sinister then he actually is. "So you want to know who is the bitch in my relationship right, big words from a small boy like you. You think you can handle knowing that?"
The boy gulps, nervous and scared, "I-I'm s-sorry P'Win."
Win nods his head, "You don't know me, don't refer to me as P, I am not your brother. I'm sure you know the reputation I hold in this university but yet you still took it upon yourself to be a homophobic dick to my boyfriend and that too, insult me while you were at it. Hmm, what should we do to you?"
"It wont happen again sir, I am sorry. I realize my mistake. Please just let this slide. I promise I will change." The boy looks at him pleading.
Wins already bored of him. He just wanted to scare him a little so he doesn't mess with Team again. He just nods not saying a word, knowing this has more impact then actually saying anything. He gives him his most wicked smile and nods before walking away.
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Rider watches the videos being spread all across the university. It makes him feel sick to his stomach realizing he is the one who caused all this drama because he wanted to be the most important person in the club, his ego led him here. He closes his eyes and feels his heart ache. He bangs his chest trying hard to get the image of P'Teams broken face out of his mind. He buries his face in a pillow and screams his lungs out but nothing helps. What has he done, he knows the pain of watching someone you love struggle the way P'Team did. He drops to his knees, "Please P, forgive me. Forgive me for what I have become. I'm sorry, I know you are looking at me with disappointment. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry."
He hold his knees against his chest, rocking back and forth repeating the same words over and over again, "I'm sorry p, I'm sorry P, I'm sorry P." He cant help but remember all the times he had provoked P'Team but his only response was to be gentle towards him. What has he done? Images of his past coming back to haunt him. He is plagued with regret and shame, wishing he could go back and change things. He has to find P'Team, he has to make this right. He cant let the same thing happen again. He needs to find P'Team, he needs to find him now and beg for forgiveness. Please give me another chance, I wont make the same mistake again, Please P, I just need one more chance...
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