Sofia.
Why the hell did nobody talk about how awkward it was to be a slow eater?
The triplets finished their food a few minutes ago and I was still halfway through my plate. And the fact that I felt their unfaltering stares on my face the whole time, which got me blushing like a freaking tomato was bizarre as hell too.
Not that it was anything new.
I blushed all the time and made an idiot out of myself. Gosh, I was a walking talking embarrassment.
I swallowed the bite of food and glanced to see that the trio were still staring at me. I awkwardly shifted in my seat.
"Can you please stop staring at me?" I huffed.
Letting a low chuckle out, Nadei murmured, his tone humourous, "No, thank you little one, we very much enjoy watching you stuff your face like an adorable little-" he trailed off.
I squinted my eyes, crossing my arms over my chest.
"Chipmunk," Nial suddenly laughed out and Nikolai pursed his lips, a hint of a smile sneaking its way to his lips.
I gasped, horrified by his claim, "I don't look like a chipmunk when I eat." I honestly didn't know what I looked like when I was eating but being compared to a chipmunk was a no no.
"But you do, in a cute way," Nikolai's voice rang in my ears, his Russian accent prominent.
How the hell did he think that he was making it better? Gods, these were insufurable and completely idiotic.
I plopped my hand on my heart dramatically pointing at Nadei and said, "I do not fucking look like a chipmunk. Where did you even get the idea that I looked anything like it?" But myy scoffed words were interrupted as always.
"Watch your fucking language, little girl," Nadei growled recovering from his chuckling fit with a pointed glare aimed at me.
Did this man hear himself?
The Hypocrisy.
"How bout a no," I retorted, my eyes shone defiantly, a clear challenge in their depths.
"Then, I'd have no problem spanking your ass red for your choice of words," Nadei's teasing words made me shudder visibly.
My mouth hung open not knowing how to answer back. "W-what n-no, shut up. Asshole," I stammered, embarrassed.
His dark laugh made my insides twist with how deep and bestial it sounded, "You know that's not the way you'd address me," he stated, smugness lacing his smooth voice and eyes darkening.
What the fuck was he insinuating?
Anger bubbled within me suddenly yet convincingly as what came out of my mouth got them to gape at me with eyes full of hurt from my clear rejection. It was yet again. My fucking fault.
I knew that this shit would come to bite me in the ass later and it just did.
"Just to be clear, what happened before your aunt interrupted will never happen again," I frowned trailing off, "I don't know what was wrong with me then and I assure you that it will not happen again." I glared with an incredulous scoff, my irritation was evident but was what I said truthful.
I didn't know.
They stared with a dumbfounded yet hurt look. Their perfect features distorted, their once relaxed and mouthwateringly gorgeous bodies stiff and shoulders slumping slightly as if defeated.
'Sofia what the actual heck stop sexualizing them' my conscience reprimanded.
Silence not even a word came out of them for a few minutes and my lips pursed as I glowered at my empty plate. These constant fits of anger were going to be the death of me.
"Let's go to bed, princess. You'll have to go shopping with Camille tomorrow to get you some clothes. We arranged everything already," Nadei muttered monotonous as he cleared his throat.
The noticeable tick of his jaw made me double-take to note whether the action was of anger or something else but a single glimpse of his jade orbs that had that hurtful and wounded glint in them gave me an answer.
Were they fucking serious?
They didn't actually think that I would develope feelings for them or even change my mind about hating them just because they were nice--if you'd call them that.
What they did was unforgivable. So how was that so hard to understand?
You don't fucking kidnap people because you feel like it.
I peeked at the other two, their faces emotionless but their eyes expressing the same hurt as their brother's eyes. I rolled my eyes, annoyed at their overly sensitive behavior.
I stood up from my seat. Nial gathered our plates to put them in the sink and Nadei stomped out of the kitchen angrily.
Man child.
Nikolai held out his hand for me to take but I refused to take it and he sighed informing me to follow him so that I don't get lost.
I regretted letting their good looks get to me and make me want them. I regretted letting their hands on me.
Their touch made me feel disgusted with myself and my irrational thinking. And my reciprocating reaction and being okay with being touched so intimately by my kidnappers were suffocating.
It was just so so fucking wrong.
Yet, I could admit that they had earned my respect in some way because they didn't force themselves on me or seduce me but I wanted them at that exact moment and Nadei's sinful mouth and his brothers' wandering hands delivered.
And that again made me feel slightly guilty for giving them hope even if it wasn't my intention to do so. Remembering how love-struck the expressions on their faces were made my resolve falter.
I might've not hated them.
But I disliked them for what they did.
I felt like I betrayed myself by letting my physical craving for them overpower the rational side in me.
I felt violated by myself and the fact that I never had those kinds of feelings towards anyone was all new to me.
Being aware that I shouldn't trust the trio was understandable but I did trust that they would keep me safe despite how selfish they were in keeping me here, claiming to love me and want to marry me.
I mean why would they love me?
Nobody can love me.
I only brought problems wherever I went.
Snapping out of my reverie. I realized that we were in their room.
Nikolai headed into the closet and Nadei came out of the adjoining bathroom, his hair damp as he dried it with a towel.
Tight-fit Calvin Klein boxers and a white tight-fitted tee showing his bulging muscles and inked skin on the length of his arms making me wonder if he had any on his chest or back.
Fuck, he looked so--
Stop Sofia.
I shook my head and hastily entered the bathroom to do my night routine. I found Nial brushing his teeth and met his eyes in the mirror which seemed to show his exhaustion and helplessness.
I scratched my nape and sheepishly muttered, "Uh-do you have another toothbrush I can use?"
He pointed at the cabinets that were filled with hygienic products. I selected a green one and skidded to a stop watching him rinse out his mouth and wash his hands getting out.
Fucking finally.
I closed the door behind him and washed my teeth then did my business, flushing the toilet and brushing my hair from the untamed bush that it was in before and I reminded my self to get it trimmed.
Having long hair was awesome but was also a lot of freaking work.
I got out of the bathroom turning off the light to find Nikolai laying on the bed scrolling through his phone with a scowl.
Nial was nowhere in sight.
Nadei was on the other side of the bed, pajama-clad legs flat on the bed with reading glasses on his perfectly sculpted nose making him look hotter than he was already and reading one of my favorite books, ever.
Wuthering heights.
I think I just orgasmed from how good he looked- No, Sofia stop.
I shook my head for the millionth time noticing the change in atmosphere when Nial walked out of the closet wearing grey sweats and a dark blue tee.
Was it hot in here?
I shifted on my feet desperately wanting to rub my thighs together to cause any sort of friction because these men definitely wanted to kill me with how devouringly delicious they looked.
Feeling my dry panties dampen with arousal by the second as I gazed at them but then realized what I was doing. I pinched my arm shaking myself off the eye fucking daze I was in.
I was not succumbing to their sinful looks.
Not again.
I huffed irritatedly and glared at the carpet-clad floor hearing three loud exhales at my account.
"Kitten, are you just going to just stand there or come to bed," Nikolai soothingly and smoothly uttered.
I snapped my eyes looking at him and sputtering out, surprised, "You don't expect me to sleep next to you, right?"
"Little one, you heard him. Come to bed and stop making a huge fuss, we're tired," Nadei glared, glancing at me briefly and resumed his reading.
Yeah, no damn way that was happening.
"Fuck no, I'm not sleeping next to your fat asses, can't you just give me another room to sleep in?" I pointed out glaring daggers at Nadei's head making him growl lowly at my choice of words.
Bitch.
"Sofia, don't make things more difficult just come and fucking slee-" Nial cut Nadei's ranting off by sending him a venomous glare that shut him up immediately.
"Please, lyubov' can't you just come to bed, I promise that we won't do anything that you don't want, okay? we just want to sleep near you, nothing more, please?" he whispered the last part giving me puppy dog eyes that made me reconsider.
"Listen, love, we'll never hurt nor force you to do anything you don't want. We'd just feel better if you're sleeping near us," Nikolai delicately added sitting up, running a hand through his tousled blond locks.
Should I? No, absolutely not.
Did I care? No, absolutely not.
Was I tired? Gods, yes.
Sighing, I raised a dark brow at Nial who grinned happily and patted the place near him on the fairly large bed that could contain more than five people.
I hesitantly climbed onto the bed wanting to create some distance between me and Nial and Nikolai that situated themselves on either side of me.
I laid on my back, shutting my eyes when I heard Nadei grumbling profanities under his breath and turning off the light.
Feeling the sheets being pulled on my smaller frame, I snuggled into the warmth that was emitting from both my sides slightly alarming me of the trio's slowly labored breathing.
And before I dozed off, I felt a kiss planted on my forehead and a few sweet murmurs of 'goodnight' and I unconsciously smiled huddling into Nikolai's back that was turned to me.