Freen's POV
FLASHBACK
''So , you are saying they are murdered by someone who knows our family so well?'' I was unable to breath for a moment but I have to gather myself together . I am clenching my fist listening to what my private investigator is saying on the side of the line.
''The way they planned to kill you're family members one by one is not just a doing of a small employee like Seng Wichai Saefent. I believe the guy was also just a victim this is not a case that just a simple employee doing revenge this is more deeply personal,like a grudge Ma'am.'' The investigator explained.
So all this time I was right that my parents death was planned they were sabotage , the company, my other relatives who mysteriously died one by one.
''Are you telling me there is a very high chances I can finally reopen the case of my parents death with those evidence that you have , Mr. Maurer?'' I ask to clarify.
''Yes, but I have a feeling that whoever did this to your clan would never allow that to happen , so if you may allow me to continue I could help you find more solid evidence or even the real culprit.'' Mr. Maurer 's suggestion is a good idea but I don't want the other side get a hint of what I am planning to do and ruined everything I have been working for to catch them.
''I guess you should lay low for now , I am afraid they may have suspicion on you as my spy ,Mr. Maurer.'' I told him that he just answered with an ''Mhm''.
''I will send your allowance , and of course your payment. Thank you so much for your help Mr. Maurer.'' After that I finally ended the call.
My phone buzz and I can see it was an email from Mr. M. I am sure those are the soft copy of the evidence he gathered for my parents case.
''Ma'am? They are all waiting for you on the set. Ma'am Pimmy is calling you " My assistant Ya woke me up from my deep thoughts.
''Sorry , I will be there now. Tell Pimmy.'' I said that Ya immediately oblige .
I take off the robe I was wearing and got up from my chair I saw my image in the mirror in front of me.
What didn't they just told us to be naked? This outfit is to revealing a sphagetti strap sando and a dolphin shorts?
Is this what Becky also wears right now?
I shook my head thinking about it and just get my self out of this room.
As soon as I got out of the room I quickly change my bitch face in to a loving and smiling person.
My jaw hurts from smiling to people which I just met except for the staffs course . I am not being fake I was just doing my job to entertain or please people as an actress I love my job and most of all my fans .
It is just that I am really not that person. But I have to be hospitable because its the nature of what I do and I love what I do.
Just whatever. This is what I do anyway acting.
Acting that I am okay even If I'm really tired, smiling even though I wanna cry so badly, act as an optimistic despite being pessimist, acting so vibrant though I am gloomy inside , act as your alive even though you are dead inside.
And I am good at that I have never been out of control no one can see my weakness. I am perfect. I should be perfect.
I was smiling to the people around me and let the new staffs take a picture of me .
Smile there
Smile here
Hug there
Hug here
Thank god they are done making me a doll.
I am now walking through the hallway and I suddenly feel so nervous thinking I will be seeing Becky now. I was so longing to get close to her again but this past few days I have to make up to the investor I left back in Korea so when the meeting of the producers and directors happen I was busy talking to my lawyer about the mess that I made .
And I am avoiding Blew from bugging me to get back to him which I don't want to happen I trusted him I thought he was my partner but what I saw in his unit is not cool.
I would lie if I say I wasn't hurt he's my male best friend before he became my boyfriend but that change when Becky came into picture he changed.
He was so jealous with the attention I was giving to Becky . I don't understand him because Becky is just a little sister to me she is like a sibling that I never had. I love her so dearly at that time I was always defending her from people like Blew which are thinking Becky is a clout chaser and trying to seduce me or what so ever.
Becky was the first and last person that I have given my full attention and care . I have care for her too much that I almost lost myself career when she suddenly just disappeared without a word. I was about to give everything up just to be with her if I weren't thinking about my plans into finding out the truth about my parents case I would have done it.
Ever since I met her my life just became more beautiful ,everything was beautiful and meaningful everyday is very interesting and I find myself longing everyday to see her in the set even the series has already ended I cannot get enough of her . And I just found myself visiting her home despite my busy schedule I would find a way to visit her, and her dad is great.
Becky wasn't that active in showbiz because she was more focus on her studies and I also admire her for that . She is just so hard working, genuine , sweet , kind and knows what she really wants in life she's building her own wing to fly. And being with her is like being held up in the air. With her , I feel free , I see light, I feel peace, I feel me, I feel home.
I wonder what I did during that time that she got so upset. I admit I don't message her so often but that was because I wasn't holding my phone so often when were doing a taping of me and Blew's upcoming movie during that time.
My assistant is holding my phone that time and whenever I ask her about Becky its always nothing . So, as soon as we finish our shooting I immediately snuck out from all of them and book a flight back to Bangkok just to see Becky.
I had miss her so much but I was devastated seeing her empty home instead. I was angry ,disappointed and I feel abandoned.
I felt weak when I didn't find anyone in their home. At first I thought maybe they were just on vacation but it took several months to years without Rebecca coming back to that house.
I called her number several times but she changed her number. I also contacted uncle but he didn't answer my calls either.
I was very angry with myself thinking that it was all my fault that I stayed away from her, but that was because I wanted to protect her from judgmental people and grandfather also didn't want her to hinder my career growth.
''Shit'' My world just literally stop the moment I saw Becky across the room she cannot see me yet because I am still being hidden here at the corner of the hallway.
How can she became this beautiful in just 4 years? She doesn't look like a kid anymore especially with those dyed short hair. And she is wearing the same clothes I am wearing but different color , but damn ! it looks good on her she is a combination of cute and sexy, that neck to her jaw it is so tempting , now I sounded like a perverted man . Urgh.
She's so hot ! Without her knowing it. Everyone was literally looking at her intimidated , by just looking at her confuse face. Her brows are creasing while looking around, which she always do whenever she is not comfortable with what she is doing. As I observed when we were still close to each other , she just can't hide it.
I think I need some water my throat dried up just by looking at her from afar . God , what more if we are already at shoot , this will literally kill me. I can see that she was so nervous and she was still looking around like a lost kid .
And I saw Pimmy looking at my direction with a teasing smile she grabbed some water and I walk casually to their direction not looking in Becky's side my legs are shaking. This is crazy I have never been this nervous to anyone just now. I am a very confident person I don't feel intimidated or insecure like I am feeling right now.
I sat on the chair in the middle acting cool but I swear I was already sweating which Pimmy notice and gave me the water bottle she was holding .
''Relax, Freen. You look like you are seeing your crush for the first time.'' Pimmy whispered in my ear with wide teasing smile and she tap my shoulder lightly.'' You can do this.'' She continued grinning which I answered with a sharp glare. She just laugh at me and talk to some staff explaining something.
Pimmy is one of the gang's friend I don't like her because she always try to seduce me or teasing me with girls just because I haven't done it with Blew yet. It is just that I am saving it for married life and I am not a fan of physical touch that's all. She even said that I am a hidden lesbean which is so annoying and disgusting.
I twisted the cap of the bottle , I was about to drink my water when I saw a note stuck in its body ' Drink this to calm yourself down' I look for Pimmy after seeing the note , but instead I automatically walk towards Becky when I saw a guy was talking to her and looking at her like she is a damn delicious dish this guy will pay.
And Becky is so oblivious about this, seriously ? I was now standing behind the guy , this guy was about to hold Becky's hand .
Really ? Becky you are just gonna let this guy hold you?
I cleared my throat that stopped the guy from doing such, and he said something but I just killed him with my sharp stares and he walk away.
That's right go away! Pervert!
When I look back to Becky's direction I cross my arms while still holding the water bottle and she looked down.
Is she shy or something? I smiled with that thought.
So I wasn't the only one feeling anxious about this situation. Hmm.
Wait? where is she looking?
I can't believe this child . Is she checking me out? I smirk.
''E-ehem '' I don't know but I feel shy when her stares stopped in my legs she even lick her lips. I hid my right leg in my left leg and I was lightly kicking the floor. A mannerism I do whenever I am nervous
''E-ehem'' God, she is still doing it . I shoved the water bottle in her face to stop her and also to hide my embarrassment and I just simply walk away from her.
She is really going to kill me.
FF
I quickly got inside of the dressing room and as soon as I got in I lock the door not waiting for Ya to come inside and walk back in forth fanning myself with my hands.
''What the heck did I just did back there!!?''
''Oh my god, did I just kiss her neck!!''
''Freen what are you thinking?!!'
''How am I gonna face her again now?''
''Why did I do that?"
Shit now I am goin crazy talking to myself here!!
''Urgh!!''
I was groaning and pulling my hair from embarrassment to what I just did back there.
*Knock*
*Knock*
A knock brought me back to reality and I stop from pulling my hair and fix myself quickly.
''Who's there? I am changing..'' I said to stop them from knocking.
''Ah, its Ya . Are you okay ma'am ? We heard your screams out here . So we were wondering if you're okay?''
That made me more embarrass I wish I should just die now. Urgh.
''Don't mind me I am rehearsing .'' I just simply answered that to stop them worrying.
When I get to the set to see the photos they took us. Becky was still not there and I received a call from Becky's dad. I saw Becky got out from her room already dressed in her casual clothes.
She look gorgeous even in casual clothes this so unfair. My phone buzz so I had to look down on my phone. Shit, I forgot Becky's dad was calling so I had to text him to say Becky is with me and we are still in the studio.
'Uncle I am sorry. I wasn't able to answer your call. I was distracted' I texted.
'Its okay. I was just about to ask you a favor, but I think you are busy so don't mind me.' He replied
'No. Uncle its okay. What is it?' I was sincerely concern to what his favor is. We just happen to bump to each other when he was about to get Becky on the meeting day I was talking to my lawyer on the phone and he was just about to go to see Becky .
We hug each other that time I miss him so much I even cried from his embrace. He was like a father to me . He explained to me the reason he is not contacting me and I fully understand that he love he's daughter too much.
I was shock on his next text.
'Can you please take Becky somewhere else but home , that Nop guy is here again , I know Becky would not be comfortable about it. I can't take them out its rude and her mom is enjoying his parents company right now.''
Now how am I gonna say this to Becky? She might get mad to her Dad if she found out her Dad contacted me.
I was about to reply to Becky's Dad when I saw how Becky put her hand on top of Pimmy's shoulder and how she put hair on the other side so it won't go to Pimmy's face before she lean and look onto the monitor checking the photos.
I don't know what's gotten to me that I remove Becky's hand from Pimmy shoulder and get in between them.
They both look at me confuse to what I did but I apologize immediately realizing what I did. Why I keep embarrassing myself?
Becky stared at me before she transferred to the other side and they continue what they are doing. I was hurt by the way she stare at me is that how she hates me? She can't afford to be near me.
Pimmy is now pinching Becky's cheeks which I know she is doing on purpose she is now becoming so touchy to her. I am upset that Becky is being so comfortable with Pimmy while she is being distant to me. I miss the time when I am the only one she is giving her attention , she really had change a lot she is not the shy and innocent that I met 6 years ago .
She was just 15 that time and I was 19 back at the time and I didn't even know how to approach her because she was a foreigner I am not so confident with my English. But she has no one to talk to and she is just sitting at the corner while we were all having a good time in this workshop.
She was 17 and I was 21 at the time when she left me . For all the that time that she had to leave me its the time that I was used to her being just there whenever I get back. Because its just the way it is she became my home. But maybe it wasn't okay with her .
I can' t take this anymore I texted Saint to call me and I set my volume to max.
*Riiiiiiing*
*Riiiiiiing*
*Riiiing*
Ooops
That was kind of embarrassing I wanna hide myself from embarrassment . But Saint won't stop calling so I have to picked it up. Becky and Pimmy were also looking at my direction which is good as I did that to stop them from flirting with each other it is irritating.
I give my phone to Rebecca who looked at me with confusion I glared at her and she accepted the phone and walk to the door after saying her excuse to Pimmy.
Ya gave me Becky's things as I told her and I followed Becky out the studio I can see that she was about to discover my craziness so grabbed the phone from her grip.
''What is your problem?'' She said looking so mad at me . It pained me that she treats me like this but I tried to smile at her but she just glared at me.
''What? I didn't tell you to answer it.'' I said it as a joke and acting innocently I was expecting her to laugh like she always do when I do pranks like this before but instead I saw a reaction that pained me more. The look of disappointed from the person I was holding to .
Damn it hurts. She shook her head and walk pass me .
''No don't go back there. You are coming with me.'' I said that stopped her from her pace.
''Why? Says who?'' She angrily face me and blurted that out in my face.
Please don't do this to me Becky. I am in a verge of crying but I don't have the right to do that right now.
''Because I said so," I tried to look stern to show her I am serious.
" And why would I go with you? " She answered annoyed.
I won' t give up I need to find a reason for her to come with me.
" Because we still need to study and memorize our script to understand our characters more." I honestly answered.
"I thought you are too good why do you have to rehearse? You didn't even have to attend to that stupid workshops just to prove your worth as a superstar'' That words got me.
I don' t care if the world hate me or whoever said that about me but hearing that from her killed me.
"Is that how you view me?" I can't take it anymore if she doesn't want anything to do with me then be it.
I turn my back at her and walk towards the elevator.
I am having a hard time to breath still absorbing what she just said to me.
The elevator closed and I push a button to hold it a little bit time I need to fix myself to be ready to act okay the moment I get out of this building I am sure there are paparazzi's that are waiting for mr down this building.
I wipe my wet eyes and fix my hair, check my reflection on my phone good thing I was wearing a waterproof mascara.
I smiled at my reflection put my phone back in my hand bag and stand straight before pushing the hold button again and push the ground floor button.
The moment the door open I already prepared my cleared face like everything is fine.
But a running Becky caught my attention we stared at each others eyes I can see her regretfull eyes and my dissapointment just dissappeared in the air like a bubble.
But damn I saw a familiar face behind her I was about to get to her but the media started coming my way with my loveteam's fans club.
The heck is happenning?
But then I saw a man in blacksuit holding a bud of flower walking towards me.
He was smiling at me. I wasn't able to move when he just abruptly kiss my forehead and put his arms around me I smiled to put up with his act that made the crowd go crazy.
But my smile dropped when I saw how kirk catch Becky from collapsing while looking at my direction.
Becky.
I did it again. I hurt her again.
No Becky don't go.
I saw how she abruptly removed Kirk's hold from her and run towards the elevator.
No no no
I find myself runninng towards the elevator where Becky and Kirk got in but Blew's right hand grabbed my left arm.
I looked back at him he was staring at me with begging eyes.
And I looked back at the elevator it was too late its close.
I removed Blew's hold in my arm and that's when I notice the flashing of cameras around us.
Great. Now what?
Blew was still staring at me intently.
Is it worth it?
No. I can't lose her again.
There are is still things I need to clarify the novel, the writer, my vivid dreams.
But my parents case what should I do now?
"I have an announcement to make." I started that got the attention of the crowd.
I know I will go through hell after this but I still did it.
I disclose all Blew's sins towards me for 5 in a half years of being in the love team and his girlfriend and confirmed his severals times of betrayal towards me.
The lie about the fake engagement that gives us a lot more of sponsors and investors in the company all of it.
I am now driving my car after being able to escape from the eyes of the media.
And find Becky. I promise her father to take care of her now. I will not let that kirk bring her home with that ugly Nop.
Seriously, is Nop and his family don't have a home on their own. They are always there.
After the disclosure I made I didn't give chance to answer any more questions being thrown at me.