Deep inside me are things no one can imagine
And no one can save me from the place that I'm in
Others notice but they just don't care
Others see but they don't want to hear
I think these thoughts would kill me overtime
Still thinking of things even words that will rhyme
To the feelings I feel deep inside me
To the thoughts that are slowly consuming me
Pitying myself with the ways that I feel
Still really thinking that I can heal
Clouded by the thoughts of jealousy
Who can really help? I know it'll still be me
No proper ending to this as this is me right now
Miserable, insecure and keep asking the word how
Hurting and breaking from the inside
With a fake smile for me to hide
Unsure, uncertain with things to come
I want to be wasted with wine and rum
No answers yet to make me feel better
Still hoping for a better tomorrow like the weather ;