Monsters are inside me

Monsters are slowly consuming me

Filled with sadness, filled with pain

I'm filled with emotions I can't explain

I cut my wrist to feel the pain

In being alone I was trained

Monsters inside me dictate everything I do

Can please someone help me too?

Some people may think I am crazy

Or even say that I'm just lazy

But have you ever thought of yourself?

That I can't understand myself?

I am great with the art of pretending

My whole life I am acting

But please look closely at me and you will see

The person I am isn't me

I always to tell myself to keep going

To stop myself from pretending

But the monsters inside me keep on dictating

That in happiness? I am not deserving.