I hated the way everything felt right now. For ten years there were only two people that meant anything to me and I did nothing but push them away this past month. I was a piece of shit that didn't deserve either of them.
Maybe my dad was right? I'm too different to have any true friends, especially ones that grew up in such a vastly different world than me.
He always said others would use me for my power. Little did he know that it was me that fucked them over. Every time I thought about apologizing, I reminded myself how I dragged her across the beach, how I made her cry, and loved the power I had over her.
Every time Derek looked at me wondering if we were still friends. I remembered how I wanted to beat him for talking against me. Him telling me to leave his sister alone should have made me snap back to reality but it only pissed me off more. Made me want to hurt him.
I needed to accept that this is who I was. I'm fucking rich and powerful and wouldn't allow anyone to be my equal. I'm a bully that loves having everyone under my heels. I can walk in any room and demand respect simply because of my name and I didn't give a shit if that was fucked up. I needed to feel the control, the control I never truly had in my childhood.
Derek and Alley kept this dark side of me at bay, but it was inevitable. I was going to take the easy way using my name to tower over everyone. I wasn't going to bust my ass doing the right thing. I was going to do whatever the fuck I pleased.
Over the next two weeks I got used to ignoring them. I still followed Alley to class keeping my eye on her and Derek was still close by me most of the day but there was a divide between us. It was like we were next to each other but in different dimensions.
Today is Alley birthday and I battled all fucking day to stay away from her. I already got her a present but there was no way I could give it to her. If we got past this, then I would have the rest of my life to make it up. In the pit of my stomach, I knew there was no getting over this though. Nothing would make us the same again.
I knew her friends were forcing her to go to the lake, so I had a firework display set up for her. I couldn't tell her it was from me or that it was even for her birthday but at least I could make her smile today.
I was sitting around a small campfire with some of the other senior football players and of course the sluttiest girls were trying to get our attention. We mostly ignored them or made fun of them until we got bored and took one home for the night.
I know we are assholes but again they came to us and kept coming back. It was hard to be respectful to a chick when she constantly threw herself at you.
I glanced at Alley and was happy she was staying away from everyone. She and her friends looked like they were having fun and I was happy she had them to spend the day with. Derek mentioned taking her to dinner tomorrow but even if I could go I wouldn't. We needed our space for now, maybe forever.
I would watch over her making sure she is ok from afar. In the end she would get out of here and get the life she deserved. She was my redemption for not saving my mom, so it didn't matter if she knew what I was doing.
It was only a few minutes before the fireworks were about to start and I couldn't peel my eyes from her. I wanted to see her reaction so bad I didn't care if I was looking like a creep staring.
Then she got up and started walking towards me. I was fucking frozen in my seat. I wanted to run and hide but that would be epically weird if I just ran away from her. I tried relaxing myself and putting on my dick face as she approached.
She whined to me like a little kid about not having any fun. I didn't even realize that everyone was avoiding her until she pointed it out. Stupid me thought she was actually behaving and staying away from everyone else.
Of course, this set me off and my anger surfaced. I was a cold asshole to everything she said, and I wanted to punch myself. Why can't I just be normal?
Once the fireworks went off, I couldn't help but see her reaction. As her tear-stained face looked up to the sky my heart nearly leapt from my chest. I watched as her eyes widened with each burst of light. A smile crept across my face and once she turned to me, I wrapped my arms around her waist.
Having her there pressed against my chest set everything right in the world. I wanted to apologize, kiss her, make her mine until I remembered who I was.
I could never be anything to her but pain though. I'm sure I would try for her, but I wanted to dominate everyone around me. I relished in the power I had over everyone and I loved the advantages that came with it.
In time I would crush her like my father crushed my mother. I had no choice but to walk away.
I left into the woods needing to find air. My chest was heaving, and I started sweating the further I walked away. What the fuck was happening to me? I knelt against a tree focusing on my breaths. I never had a panic attack before, but Alley used to have them all the time and this felt similar.
Fuck it! I got up and ran back to the beach. I was giving in, going to apologize and just say all the fucked-up shit I was feeling and thinking. She either accepted it or kneed me in the balls, which I deserved anyway.
When I got back to the party I searched everywhere. The fireworks were still going off, so I knew she had to be here. She wouldn't miss them, especially this show I designed based off everything she liked.
After the fireworks ended, I realized she was gone. She left and didn't even get to see her present. This was all too much. I needed to just let her go but didn't know how.
Nikki came running up to me and threw her arms around my neck. "I miss you Ace. Let's go back to my house?" She whispered in my ear. Probably the first time in my life I wasn't at-least semi hard. I spent the last 5 years thinking about getting off 90% of the time. It didn't really take much, a pretty face, decent body, or even just plump juicy lips and I was ready to whip my dick out.
I peeled her arms off me and just went to my car. I didn't say a word. She was yelling something at me as I walked away but I didn't care to hear.
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The next morning, I woke up with a killer hang over. After getting home I must have drunk an entire bottle of gin to the head. Tonight, I was meeting some of my father's business associates about a deal for six properties to be transferred to my name.
I was only a few months shy of eighteen which meant my first installment of my inheritance would be paid out. Of course, my father practically had the money spent. I wouldn't receive enough to continue my lifestyle while also attending an Ivy League and secretly supporting Derek and Alley.
My father used this little loophole to make a deal that he would pay my college, but I had to invest my inheritance into his company. I countered that I would invest partially in his company but receive a few smaller ones in my own name that were not attached to his.
I understood the business world more than I liked too but I learned early on that I could either give up this life of power and privilege or play my father's games until one day I finally beat him. To beat him I needed to know him and where his power comes from more than he did.
Since I was 8 years old, I have wanted nothing else than to have the upper hand. Not at just one of his little mind games but at the lifelong game of who controlled my life. I could let him win for now because I was watching and learning, waiting for the right time.
As I walked downstairs, I was met with my father and a beautiful woman somewhere in her mid-twenties. Her long legs were lightly tanned, hair silky brown with red highlights, and her green eyes were lined with thin black makeup, but those big red stained lips had my attention. I wasn't horny yesterday but something about a good-looking woman smelling like roses and heaven can get any man to wake up down there.
"Ace, nice of you to finally wake up. This is Elise and Conrad, both partners at Goldman's. Come say hello then go try to make yourself look like you deserve my last name." My father said wavering me over. Goldman was the main company that was transferring properties to my name, so I needed to be on my game.
"Angelo stop scolding the boy. It's a Sunday and he is just a teenager." She turned to me "I suggest you enjoy sleeping in because if your ambitions are as your father says, you won't have the chance much longer." Elise gave me a smile showing all her teeth with a look so sexy I wanted to drag her upstairs with me.
"My apologies for my tardiness Father. If I knew you were bringing such a beautiful woman home, I would have been showered and ready to take her from you the rest of the day." I gave her a smile then kissed the top of her hand.
"Ha! Don't make a fool of yourself. She wouldn't give you any interest other than taking your million dollars to buy into her company. Now get dressed. We are meeting for drinks at 3pm at the club. Do not be late, boy!" He said then guided Elise and Conrad into his office.
I should feel humiliated that I was treated like a foolish little kid utterly powerless to my father but that was the story of my life. I learned not to let it show as it only encouraged him to belittle me more.
It was something I learned from Alley actually. Never give your torment the power of knowing they are tormenting you. If they see that they aren't affecting you, then they will eventually move on to weaker prey. Well, except when it came to my father. I was his son so the best I would get is not as much torture.
As Elise walked into my father's office, she turned to look at me. Her eyes raked my body up and down very slowly, biting her lip as she reached my waist. When our eyes met again, I gave her my half smirk and a wink then turned and walked upstairs.
Yup, I still got it. I may only be a teenager, but I was blessed with God like genes and a dick that would make even Zeus blush. Unfortunately, much of that came from my father. We were both over 6ft tall, with black ebony hair and perfectly tanned skin. I was his little clone in almost every way except my eyes, that I got from mother. His are a dirty brown, like the shit he was full of, but mine are a piercing green.
I honestly don't think I could look at myself in the mirror if it weren't for my eyes. I hated seeing so much resemblance of him in me, but looking at my eyes was like seeing her stare back at me.
I ran upstairs and jumped in the shower. My day just got a whole lot more interesting. I've been dreading this deal all month but now I have a new objective for the whole night. I needed something to get my mind off hurting my best friends and I needed to get away from all this high school bullshit. Elise seemed to be the perfect distraction.
Next year Derek is supposed to be my roommate, which I'm sure we will still work out. I was going to take over my father's smaller companies while simultaneously purchasing my own. My father liked to buy weak companies, pick them apart and sell pieces or merge with other weak companies until they were able to take over medium-sized companies and so on.
His ultimate goal was for him and his associates to basically have a monopoly in the most influential industries. There's many different owners and families involved, all with their own holdings so nothing illegal with these businesses, but it also gave a few more power than they deserved.
Derek wanted to be an architect/entrepreneur, mostly working on building up poor communities. The plan was I would buy companies that he would help fix up alongside of the holding I had of my father's companies so we could eventually have more power and influence than my father. Then finally we could outbid his companies and leave him with nothing. It was basically playing his own game against him. It was a long-term dream and a lot of things needed to go right but it was all I had at this point.