"What is it?" I ask her and I realize it sounded way too sharp than what I was going for.
"Sorry I have been knocking for a while I was worried about you" she tries to explain
"Thanks. It's fine I just want to be alone right now without being unnecessary interrupted" I tell her and she seems uneasy but I feel even worse right now.
"Well its lunchtime and I wanted to know if you wanted me to order anything for you"
"Water will be just fine." I smile at her and close the door on her face. Thank you for stealing my job and I thought we were friends.
Time to read the letter. It has few drops of tears that have dried but I certainly do not have a job anymore that's for sure. They are letting me go as there are some adjustments being made in the company that I was not aware of. Eric's department is being shut down and they are combining both of our departments into one big happy family, hence a few people will be losing their jobs. I am one of the few based solely on my performance today ("the company needs people they can count on") I guess they can't count on me so I am out. My position does not require an assistant so they have no position in the company to offer me anymore. What a nice ways of firing someone that is. I have never been fired before this is my first time and let me tell you it stings. Like a lot. It so happens this is my day at the company. my last. I won't be seen at tis company this office or come back here again after today at least not with same capacity. I feel forced out which is exactly what happen.
This is my reality now and it's not a good look. I have to start looking for another job. I have rent, student loan, bills to pay and I officially have no job anymore. I wasn't prepared for this I don't know what to do. I can't fully concentrate right now and I have a lot to sort through. I need to go to the Human resource office to sort my contracts and financial status. I just want to go home and head to bed this instance but I don't want to come back here anymore after today and face everyone knowing they know so they can start offering me their condolences and sympathy I just cant take it hence its better I sort my stuff today. I call the human resource office and set up a meeting for later in the evening and start packing my stuff up.
I leave the office with my stuff when everyone has already left the office. Nami never showed up with that water and I don't think she will be reaching out to me anytime soon, especially after today and I don't think I can really blame her. Although to be honest I think there is a small part of me that kind of blames her to be honest though I know I shouldn't. But like you can understand right? With my belongings i grab a cab and head to my apartment. I am heading for the elevators when a hand grabs me and I turn, startled.
"Brie are you okay? Didn't you hear me call you?" It's Derek. My boyfriend. I force a smile when I recognize it's him although what I really want is to throw myself in his arms and cry. I haven't heard or seen much of him lately since the both of us were busy. I was working on my promotion that eventually ended with me losing my job altogether and he was working on this important project at work that he was completing.
"Sorry I just have a lot to my mind" I try to smile at him but he doesn't say anything as he just takes the boxes from me and continues to the elevator so I follow up
"I was calling you all day, you didn't get my calls?" he asks when we step into the elevator as he looks at the floor numbers not looking at me "Sorry it's been a bad day. My phone is on silent, I should just turn it off anyway." I answer him and he stays quiet. We get on my floor and I head and open the door get in and start switching on lights. He places the boxes beside the door and stands.
"Do you want some coffee?" I ask as i head to the kitchen to prepare something to drink.
"No. why don't we talk first" he says taking my hand and taking me back to the sitting room
"Okay." I really don't want to talk right now but let's just get this over with so I can just go to bed. He waits for me to take a seat and comes to sit beside still holding my hand. And it seems like he has something heavy to discuss
"What is it you're scaring me?" I ask him as I can't read his face and his actions right now holding me like a doctor about to give some bad news all of a sudden
"I know about the promotion... and the job." I stare at him stunned so he continues slowly before I can find an answer
"I called the office when you weren't picking up, I got worried about you." I sigh out loud. I don't know if it's out of relief that I no longer have to retell what happen and with dread that I can't explain. I can see sympathy in his eyes I don't need pity right now.
"Yeah well.....that happened. I'm officially out of a job." I try laughing it off but it comes out awkward and he takes that moment to hug me to him.
"I'm sorry. I just want you to know I'm here through everything. You know that you are so bright and talented you'll find something. I know you will"
"Thanks I guess"
"Come on, you know it" he gestures for me in his embrace and I take it feeling that comfort. He strokes my hair slowly which it comforts me making it all warm and I started dozing off but then his phone starts ringing which kills the moment altogether. I try to get off so he can pick it up but he stops me and ignores it. I'm starting to relax in him again but it starts ringing all over and to be honest it kind of pisses me off a little.
"Let me get this real quick" he tells me as he gets off the couch and goes all the way to the bathroom but stands outside doesn't open the door. I lie back down on the couch and can't help hearing his phone conversation from over here.
"Yes I'm coming...… I don't think she can make it I'll come alone. I know I know she didn't get it...…. going to be late.....come on... Who?....What?... I can't believe I'm missing this man!...…" he laughs for a while and I find myself smiling. I wish I could be as happy as he is right now.
"Coming, coming... I'm coming....." he ends the call and comes back to the sitting room with a dying chuckle but since I am stretched out on the one we were both occupying he sits on the opposite couch. He has a smile plastered on his face that he can't help having.
"Who was it?" I ask changing my position on the couch to face him still lying down
"Gabe and the guys. It's nothing." he smiles at me and starts checking his phone again. Gabe is Derek's best friend and that guy loves parties always taking Derek through here and there. I am sure Derek wishes he was there having fun and not having a pity party over here with me. I cannot add guilt to my list right now.
"So are you staying? Maybe we could order pizza and ice cream....?" I eagerly ask him trying to reel him back to me. He comes back on the couch I am occupying and places back my head on his lap.
"Maybe we could go out and have Fun. It might cheer you up" he suggests cheering up already and lightening up. Hopeful.
"I don't think my body or my minds are up to it. I just want to lay in bed in your arms so I can forget all about today and plan the future." I hug his waist from the couch and bury my head further into him.
'I know but I can't stay. Really I want to though' he sighs 'Why not?" I ask kind of disappointed really "You remember the project I was working on?" "Yes" "It was a major success. We are opening a new branch in German. It is billions of dollars project and I super headed the whole thing"
"Oh my god! That's great news! I'm so proud and happy for you" I can't help kneeling on my knees on the couch and giving him a tight embrace at least some happy news. Even if it's not mine it's still the best news I have heard all day
"When did this happen? why didn't you say anything?" I ask him as soon as we sit back down again
"Last Friday" he is still so happily smiling I can feel him.
"Then why didn't you say anything?"
"You were still working on getting that promotion at work, I didn't want to destroy your focus by distracting you besides I knew you were going to get it"
"Ooooh!" I feel so loved right now. This man. That's so considerate
"I actually planned a party for us today. I invited your friends but I told them it was a surprise not to say anything"
"No you didn't..." my heart actually breaks. The disappointment
"I did. Now I just feel bad. I have to at least show up, can't throw a party and not attend at all.
That's just brutal" he says this with that face that wins him arguments and I feel myself relenting "Okay but your coming for the night though, right? I need you, you can't leave me alone right now"
"I don't know how to say this'' his happy smiley is starting to fade away and I feel bad news coming my way. I cant take another please don't throw it at me
"To say what?"
"It was a party to congratulate you and a farewell for me to my colleagues and friends here"
"Farewell? I don't understand"
"The new branchs in Germany. I'm going to be managing it"
"Well...okay then" I shrug since I don't get what he is trying to say to me right now
"It's a five years project. I'm moving to Germany" "You're doing what?"
"I'm trying to explain it to you" he tries to hold my hands. I stand up and stare at him. I don't know why but the whole thing is just not right
"So you're moving to Germany for five years?" he nods his head in agreement
"It's okay. It's fine. There's still time we will figure it out. It's going to be okay" I find myself saying and I don't know if I'm telling Derek or telling myself
"The process has already started. Since I'm overseeing the whole thing I'm going ahead to make sure everything is in order by the time things start rolling"
"ummh…..Okay?"
"I'm leaving on Friday Bri. That's also why I cant stay the night. I still have a lot to sort and I am still arranging things since it's a huge change. You can understand"