I don't know what the fuck happened last night. Ella began creeping in my mind little by little then last night I lost control. I didn't even know who I was with her.
She said she only been touched by one man and that was me. It set off some kind of possessive need inside me and I had to taste her again. I knew she was little red riding hood at that Halloween party but I pretended like I was too drunk to remember the next day. She never said a word to me about it and I just let it fade away.
I would be lying if I said I never thought about it though. I was a little drunk that night and I knew she was too. That's why I didn't fuck her. Thank god I didn't because that would had destroyed her to lose her virginity that way.
Now I was lying here in her bed with her cuddle to my side fast asleep. I loved every way her body reacted to my touch. Even now sleeping she practically fucking purred when my fingers lightly brushed over her arm.
I can't do this to her. She wanted the Prince Charming husband for the rest of her life. I can't see myself marrying Ella Jones and it would be so fucked up if I slept with her without intentions for a real relationship.
I sighed loudly to myself then slowly moved her off me. Ella always brought out this need to protect her in me. Now she was tempting me in other ways that would just hurt her down the road. I quietly slid out her window cursing at myself. Tomorrow I needed to make it clear that I have no intentions of a relationship so we shouldn't take this any further.
Fuck! I really hate being a good guy sometimes. I really wanted to fuck that girl. Bring out that naughty side in her. Corrupt my good girl into a bad one.
I adjusted my pants cursing at myself. I needed to stop thinking about her that way. I walked in my empty house and headed straight to bed.
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"Hey!" I gave Ella a small smile as she bounced out her front door to my car. She was way too happy and wearing tight black leggings with a power puff girl t-shirt. We were going to pick up a bag full of illegal shit for a gangster and she dressed like we were off to summer camp. What goes through that girl's mind?
"Hey!" She smiled then reached for my car door but I closed it quickly. Better to just come clean now.
"Last night..." Fuck! How do I say this?
"Are you uncomfortable?" She smiled big at me with those hazel eyes trained into my soul.
"No! Why would I be uncomfortable?" I brushed her off folding my arms.
"Ok, then last night was what, big shot." Her eyebrows shoot up at me.
"I just wanted to make sure we were clear that it was just last night and nothing else." There I said it.
Her mouth opened wide in surprise. "Are you... are you breaking up with me?"
Oh my god I think she was going to cry. "No! We aren't even dating."
"But you... you touched me." She looked down embarrassed and fuck I felt really bad.
"Ella, I'm sorry. I got carried away. I know you want this picture perfect life. I don't want to mess with your head. That's all."
She smiled big, confusing the fuck out of me.
"I think that is the nicest thing you ever said to me." She swooned at me and I adjusted my body. Why was she looking at me like that?
"Uh, yeah. I guess." I scratched the back of my neck.
"Relax big shot. I know you don't want me that way. I figured that out three years ago when you pretended you didn't remember me. Let's go finish this." She opened her door with force pushing me to the side.
Fuck! She was probably pissed at me now. I knew I shouldn't had touched her. It felt so good though.
We headed straight to the airport to open this mysterious locker of Damien's. It's been almost a week since I saved this little girl at the club. If we didn't find the bag I was selling my prized possession to bail Ella out of death. Did I mention I hated being the good guy.
We walked through the sliding doors and Ella instantly got weird. Fucking Christ she was going to do something stupid.
"Hi officer! Nice day? We are just picking up our Aunt."
"Hi officer! Nice day? This is my brother, just here for no real reason."
"Hi officer! Nice..."
"I swear to fucking god if you say nice day I will leave your ass here." I scolded her in front of the tenth security guard we passed that Ella felt the need to announce we were not here to retrieve a bag.
"Sorry!" She looked down embarrassed then looked back to the security guard with a smog look on his face. "Beautiful weather we are having." She said with a smile and walked away.
"What is wrong with you?"
"I'm a nice person. I don't know why that bothers you so much."
"You're a freak, Ella. Stop drawing attention to us. Just stop speaking all together."
"You're much nicer to me when I'm naked." She whispered in my ear then smiled and bounced away. My mouth dropped open. That was actually fucking hot. Was I already corrupting my good little Ella?
No! Not going there. She just said hi to every guard in this building like a freak. There is nothing happening between us.
"This one." She whispered looking around suspiciously.
"I know, Ella. The big black numbers that matches the key gave it away."
"What if people are watching this locker? Like in the movies. The second you open it cops will swarm the building. I don't want to go to jail, Eros."
I looked at her annoyingly then stuck the key in and turned. She gasped loud making me roll my eyes. She was so fucking dramatic and about the weirdest shit.
I opened the door and there was this mysterious fucking bag. Finally! I grabbed it and closed the locker leaving the key. We didn't need that shit anymore.
Ella started fidgeting next to me then I could visibly see the sweat forming on her forehead. I think she is going to pass out.
"Relax!" I whispered lacing my fingers in hers. "Everything is fine, Ella."
"Ok." She said quickly. Her hand squeezed mine tightly every time we walked past a guard. It was better than her starting a conversation with each one of them though.
I opened the door to my Jeep and she climbed in falling over the step. My hand caught her waist already knowing she would trip at some point. This was Ella.
"Sorry. I'm a little nervous." She smiled at me then climbed in and sat down. I shook my head at her. She was just a little nervous and a total freak.
The second I pulled out of that airport I could visibly see how her body relaxed. I smirk at her finally breathing normally. Ella was not cut out for this.
"We should check what's in the bag. We can't just hand it over. What if it's guns or drugs?"
"We are definitely not looking in the bag and I guarantee you it's guns or drugs in there. What do think Jose wanted? His clothes back."
Ella gave me that disapproval look that I hated. Fuck! She was going to make me look in the bag. We had to return it either way. Why did it matter to her?
I pulled into my driveway and snatched the bag roughly out the back. She pissed me off the rest of the ride home. Whatever was in this bag was going to upset her.
"You seem angry." She walked cautiously behind me.
"That's because I am." I rushed up the stairs to my room throwing the bag on the bed.
I waved to the bag. "Go ahead, Ella. Open the bag and give me your lecture about how we need to make the world a better place."
"You're so irritating." She rolled her eyes at me then walked to the bed.
My eyes grazed over her ass and very bad thoughts crept in my head. I wanted to stand behind her. Tease that little body to make it quiver under my touch. Then I'll bend her over right there and fuck her...
"Oh my god!" She shouted, quickly turning to face me.
What the fuck is wrong with my head? I walked past her and sure enough there were bags of white powder and three guns sitting on top. "Told you it was guns and drugs." I zipped it back up.
"We can't give that to Jose!"
"We can and we will."
"Eros, that's a lot of drugs. What if we hear on the news how some kids overdosed and died or someone's brother was shot with one of those. That would be our fault."
I knew she was going to do this to me. I got the hidden meaning of someone brother's found dead too. Damien was probably killed by one of these gangs.
"It wouldn't be our fault, Ella. They will just replace the drugs and guns with new ones and do whatever shit they planned on doing anyways."
Her big hazel eyes filled with tears and I wanted to fucking scream. Please don't do this!
"Eros, this isn't right."
"Would you give your life for this bag? That's what you would be trading. We deliver this to Jose by midnight or he kills you."
"I... I don't know what to do. I just can't live with the fact we contributed to this kind of shit."
I sat down on the bed and patted the space next to me. Ella walked over to me to sit next to me and I immediately grabbed her waist making her sit on my lap. I don't know why I feel this need to constantly comfort her. It was like this burning itch inside me that no matter what I did it wouldn't disappear.
"I know you don't like all this Ella. I'll met Jose by myself tonight and we can be done. Ok?" My voice was way to soft as I brushed her hair behind her ear.
"Ok." She adjusted herself in my lap riding right over my dick and making me grunt. My hand squeezed her waist. Fuck this girl was annoying as shit.
"Don't do that." I scolded her.
"Sorry. You're being nice to me. It's uncomfortable." She looked down at her nails she had been picking out.
Why did this innocent fucking attitude turn me on so much? I never even slept with a virgin before and can't stand it when a woman is clueless. Yet with Ella I wanted to show her everything, do everything to her.
"Do you prefer when I yell at you?" I cocked my eyebrows at her.
"No, of course not. It's just how you always speak to me." This time she looked me in the eye and I actually felt like an asshole. I did yell at her a lot. I wasn't really such a controlling dick to anyone else. I just hated how Ella was always so defenseless, and how she threw my whole body into a mess of emotions.
"You annoy me a lot." I said clenching my jaw.
"I know. Sorry. Can we give the bag to you cop friends? I don't feel right about just handing it over to Jose. Maybe the cops can help so the drugs are off the streets and Jose doesn't come after us."
I closed my eyes knowing she wasn't going to let up about this. I understand she wants to do the right thing, but if we don't give Jose this bag they will come after her.
"Let me handle it, Ella." My hand caressed her thigh liking how she felt on my lap way too much.
All these years did I actually want to take care of her? I told myself it was because I couldn't just watch her being treated badly. I think there was something about Ella that made me need to protect her though. A need that turned into wanting to comfort her, baby her, take every part of her as mine.
"You should go home. If you see me tomorrow then you know all is good and this over." I stood up guiding her gently off me. This was getting way too out my area of normal. I didn't want Ella Jones.
"Ok, thank you. You didn't have to help me and I appreciate all the times you did."
I nodded back to her not saying anything else. So many fucked up words were swirling in my head and I wasn't giving into any of them.
"Bye, Eros!" She waved then walked out. The second she was gone I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. What the fuck is happening?
Thank god this was done. Ella will be gone in a little over a week to go back to her hometown for Christmas and I needed to stay away for her. Get my head straight again because there was no way in hell I was falling for that little girl.