Pregnancy test
After my debut, our lives went back to normal. Mas naging busy kami sa school, dad left again and I can now finally drive!
Naging mabilis din ang summer namin ni Tristan wala kaming masyadong ganap dahil nga pina summer job ako ni daddy at palagi ako sa office at si Tristan naman busy din kasama ang daddy nya and they even traveled abroad, sila ng family nya kaya hindi na namin namalayan na natapos nalang ang summer na hindi man lang kami naka pag outing dalawa. Mom's about to give birth na din sa baby brother ko and for the next summer ako naman ang mag tratravel abroad to visit her, as promised. Classes started again for a new school year and I am now in grade 12 and si Tristan naman second year college na.
It's already the middle of the school year and ganon parin naman kami ni Tristan, everyday mas nag gro-grow yung relationship naming dalawa at going 4 years na kami. We never heard from Roxanne again and surprisingly? naging friends kami ni Rose! Okay naman pala sya after all, nasama na sya sa barkada namin at close na din sila ni Irene.
"Irene, ano ba? ba't ang bad mood mo today?" I asked as we were having our nails done. It's saturday and Tristan is with the boys playing basketball. "Oo nga!" Rose said looking at Irene. She sighed and ran her hands through her hair making a mess. "Wala, okay lang ako." She replied and hindi talaga ako convinced pero hindi ko sya pipilitin dahil magsasabi din naman to' eh. I turned to rose who was just reading a magazine and not having her nails done. "Rose, have your nails done na nga!" I said once again dahil kanina ko pa sya pinipilit pero ayaw nya dahil mahal daw masyado. "Ayoko nga, mauubos pera ko para jan!" She replied pouting and I laughed at her. "Okay nga lang sabi eh, ako ang bahala sayo, okay? Ate, please do her nails." I replied and calling out the attention of the other manicurista and finally napilit ko rin si Rose.
"Nag text ba sayo si James?" Irene whispered to me all of a sudden. Kumunot ang noo ko sa tanong nya. I put down the magazine that I was reading and stared at her.
"Huh? Hindi. Ba't naman mag titext boyfriend mo sakin?" I replied confused and yes, sila na ni james. Kahit ako din nagulat na gusto pala nila ang isa't isa. "Wala." she replied nawawala nanaman sa sarili nya. Nag aaway nanaman siguro tong dalawang to.
After having our nails done kumain na kami at hinatid si Rose sa kanila. Last ko ihahatid si Irene sa kanila dahil kakausapin ko pa to'. Maybe hindi sya comfortable na mag open up while rose is still here, well, I understand. Friend namin si Rose but hindi pa masyadong malalim yung bond.
"Ano ba talaga ang problema mo, irene? Pag usapan natin. Nag away ba kayo ni james? Wala naman syang sinasabi sakin o kay Tristan." I started when we were outside her house already. All of a sudden she started crying and I panicked dahil bihirang umiyak tong babaeng to'.
"Omg! Irene may masakit ba sayo?! Ano ba ang problema?" I asked comforting her and she just cried and cried hanggang sa tumigil na sya. I gave her a tissue and she took a deep breath before saying anything.
"Shan, delayed ako. 3 months na akong hindi nagkaka period." She caught me off guard. Wala akong masabi, natulala ako. My mouth wide open and I'm shaking like I'm the one who's in her shoes.
"What?! Pano nangyari yun? Hindi ba kayo nag iingat ni James?!" I asked now panicking also. "Nag pregnancy test ka na ba?" I asked and she looked at me.
"Gago ka ba? Syempre, hindi pa." She replied and looked down. "Pero may signs, eh. Nasusuka ako palagi. Mapapatay ako ng parents ko nito, shan." She cried even more.
"Look, calm down okay? Tsaka mas gago ka! Mag PT ka kaya para matahimik yang kaluluwa mo! Pero hindi pa sure, bibili tayo ng pregnancy test ngayon. Ako ang bibili, wag kang mag-alala." I replied and drove to a pharmacy to get the pregnancy test.
Ito yung reason, eh! Ito yung reason kung bakit hindi pa namin nagagawa ni Tristan yang bagay na yan dahil natatakot akong mabuntis. Everytime we try to do it, napaparanoid ako kaya hindi na namin tinutuloy and we have tried many times already!
Nag park ako kaagad at lumabas na patungo sa pharmacy. Irene stayed in my car dahil maloloka na talaga sya pag sumama pa sya. Kaya aakoin ko lahat ng hiya para sa pregnancy test na yan.
"Good evening, ma'am." The guard greeted opening the door for me and I just gave him a small smile and proceeded to the counter. "Yes ma'am?" The pharmacist asked smiling at me and I am just lost for words. Hindi naman sakin to' pero bakit parang ako yung natatakot. "Uhm, Miss, uhm, Can I get three pregnancy test kit?" I asked slowly and she smiled at me and nodded her head and typed in her computer. I took my wallet from my pocket and gave her a one thousand bill. I tapped my fingers impatiently while waiting for the kits and when she came back it was fully packed making sure that no one sees it. She handed it to me and smiled and I just smiled back taking it. "Thank you, miss." I thanked her before turning around to go out.
Hay nako, akala ko mahihimatay ako sa hiya buti nalang professional talaga yung nag handle sakin.
"Okay, I got it na." I said when I entered the car and Irene was just silent. "So, bahay nyo or my house?" I asked starting the car. "Sa inyo nalang, shan. Nandun kasi sila mommy sa bahay baka maka halata sila." She replied super anxious and I just nodded and drove to my house.
Pagdating namin sa bahay dumiretso na kami sa kwarto ko at binasa na namin kaagad ang instructions.
"Ah, so iihi ka dito. Sige pasok ka na sa cr. Itong tatlo yung gamitin mo ha kasi may nabasa ako na hindi accurate pag isang pregnancy test lang ang gagamitin." I instructed and Irene was just shaking as she nodded her head and entered my bathroom.
I waited patiently outside my walk in closet that was connected to my bathroom when the door opened and Irene went out. I know we still have to wait for a couple of minutes to get the results.
"Shan, ikaw na tumingin please. Hindi ko talaga kaya." Irene said as she sat down on one of my couches in my walk in closet. "Okay, sige. Pasok na ako dun ha." I replied and went inside my bathroom.
I waited and waited until results were finally visible and damn, I am so nervous. I looked at it slowly not knowing how to react. I walked towards it taking a deep breath before looking at it fully.
Without second thoughts, I looked at it and the 3 pregnancy test only showed one line. Meaning?
It was negative.
"Yes!!!" I yelled in relief and ran fast to irene and she was already standing outside the door nervous biting her nails. "What is it?" She asked still shaking. I smiled and hugged her tight.
"Relax, it's negative. All three of it were negative." I said as she finally relaxed in my arms. "Thank God! Pero ba't ako nasusuka?" She asked looking at me and I shrugged. "Hindi ko rin alam but probably because you ate something na nakasira ng tyan mo. Look, don't worry na. Hindi ka buntis." I replied smiling at her and she just nodded and hugged me as she thanked me.
Nakakaloka.