As the bright sun rays of the mid-time shined through the room, the psychologist stared blankly at the young teenager who seemed to be like a wilted flower meant to bloom. She grabbed her forehead roughly with both her hands as she sobbed heavily on her on the chair, tears running down her cheeks. She sighed and closed the file which held the report about the young girl's case and shook her head. "Miss Luo, please calm down and tell me what exactly happened that night. I need to know in order for me to help you."
The young girl continued to cry, even hiccuping periodically with her lips trembling as she responded in anguish and guilt. "I-Its all my fault, I shouldn't have told them where he was. I s-shouldn't have...b-betrayed him like that!"
All those broken words weren't the only things she wanted to say but she didn't have the heart to relieve all the memories of that night but the feelings haunted her day and night. She wished to tell this woman to help her but each time she moved her lips, tears fell down her eyes at the sight of the boy's face which she could never forget. Her deep hatred for that person drove him to his death and now she had just discovered a week ago that he had never been the villain in her story.
She let her head fall on the chair with a thud, the vibrations eeing how foolish she had been in the past made her want to end her life as soon as possible. How could she be so blind not to see that she had been in the wrong all these time? What kind of fate was this? Why hadn't she not known this sooner?!
"Take a deep breath and relax, Miss Luo. Close your eyes and do the following. Inhale and exhale, inhale and exhale." The psychologist placed the incense burner on the table and allowed the incense circulate throughout the room as she watched the girl relax under its sedative effect. She reached for a paper and a pen and tapped the girl with drowsy eyes to stop her from sleeping as she said in a low voice. "Now, I am going to give a paper to write all your regrets and intentions so that you can finally get everything that you want to say off your mind. Do not hold back and take your time. Tell me what you would want to say to me."
The young girl struggled to keep her heavy eyes open and took the sheet of paper and pen from her hands, adjusting her body posture to write. The psychologist returned to her seat and looked out through the window, observing the celestial signs of the sky as a little hobby of hers while sitting in silence with the teenager who was totally engrossed in her task at hand. She could see how much pain and sorrow the young girl was in and it made her wonder what had happened to her to make her so regretful and guilty.
Half an hour later, the teenager stood up and touched the absent minded psychologist who was busy looking outside the window startling her a little. The teenager took a step back and apologized to her before giving her the paper and returning to her seat. The psychologist shook her head slightly to clear her thoughts before she paused to read and saw that it had been written in a form of a letter. She began to read carefully.
Tian Kuo,
I really don't know how to face you. I don't know if there is a part of you that can even bear to forgive me from the other side. I can only blame my ignorant and cold heart for not accepting you and protecting you better. Please forgive me for hurting you the most and taking your life away. My hatred for you caused me to betray you the moment you needed me the most and I didn't save you when I should have.
I should have realized your true intentions behind your actions towards me. Although on the surface you seemed to be hostile and vicious towards me, you always had my best interest at heart to protect me. You never meant me any harm and only wanted to take care of me and my family. Sometimes, I can't help but wonder what made you choose me as the woman worthy to give up your life for. Three years, you stayed by my side. Why didn't you say anything? Why did you choose to keep making me hate you instead of confessing to me?
I now know I am not a good person. I do not deserve this great sacrifice you have done for me and I cannot continue to bear it. I deeply regret and I now know my mistakes.....if only the heavens would grant me a wish, I would..."
The psychologist stopped reading when she spotted a faint letter that seemed to be written hesitantly and looked up to look at the young woman who was nervously biting her fingers staring back at her. She asked her calmly as she looked into the pitiful girl's eyes and asked her. "Change....if the heavens were to really give you a chance to change, what would you change?"
The young girl seemed a little startled by her question, pausing midway with her intention to wipe the tears off her face with her sleeve but instead sniffled a little to say in a small yet firm tone. "I would change everything, Ma'am. From the beginning to the end, I would change everything between us back then."
The psychologist looked at the sky through the window once again, her fingers moving in a counting movement for a long while before she stopped abruptly and leaned against her chair, revealing a bright and wide smile for the first time since the session has started. "Consider it done, Miss Luo."