08/07/2022 - 8:16 PM
Who knows when I might leave this world permanently, according to a note I keep under my bed:
You are the best friend I have ever had, and it is so unfortunate that I had to make you feel so hurt. You are an inseparable part of me that I have never once thought of as just a buddy. Always keep in mind how much you meant to me and how much you occupy a special place in my heart.
Now it's time for me to go, I am running out of words to write, and yes, I have lost and given up the fight. But please my friend, hold on; I am watching over you from the clouds above.
It's going to be hard to hold onto the memories of our days; I am sure you will find better friends who will be ready to stay. I love you, and that will never change. I am so happy for you that you found your forever half. I hope he takes care of you better than I ever did. Unfortunately, I had to be so selfish to leave you behind in this rotten world.
When you read this note, I will be gone, out of sight, beyond your reach to the stars above. I want you to know that you were the best thing that ever happened to me, but sometimes I must let go of the people I love to see them in a better place.
I love you and will always do. Now we are adults, not children anymore. Although, I miss the times you made me laugh until I became contagious. Now all I feel is alone and broken.
You might be wondering, where am I?
I will be ending my life at the place where it all began. I know I sound harsh to ruin a memory so beautiful. But I want you to know that I have tried. I am glad to see you here with a future, but some people like me don't have one; I have envied and been jealous all along, I have to admit.
You four made me feel at home, thus you will always hold a particular place in my heart.
I wish I could express my feelings to you, but I didn't want to make you frown since your grin makes the whole family smile.
One day, we'll run into each other again, whether it's in paradise or hell.
I will always love you, but I don't want to stay alive on this battlefield.
I know you have a wonderful future, unlike me, so be safe, love. Things will change eventually, and I know you will too.
Just keep in mind that I am always there for you even when I am invisible.