It had been a week and Atlas hadn't shown up on my window or give me any sign. Did I drive him away for good? I was being a complete nerd for having refused his advances that night.
After that night, I googled some porn but it appeared fake to me and I didn't have the guts to tell my gang all about it. Washing my hands in the restrooms, I saw Jillian struggling to hide her messed up skirt. She was on her menses.
"Hey, you need help?" I approched her.
"I'm fine." She muttered and entered one of the toilet blocks. Since I wasn't that despicable, I pulled some strings and got some sanitary pads for her.
"I practically don't need your help....who knows you might be faking it." She shunned me away after making an effort to help her out.
"I'm just trying to be nice here, don't forget it wasn't me who dropped you in the first place. I'll leave these here in case you change your mind." I placed the towels on top of the mirror countertop and left the washrooms.
"Adora! Did you finish the math assignment?" Macy asked.
"Duh!" I snapped my fingers.
"Lend me your book please, I don't want to get another scolding from Mr. Baldwin."
"In exchange, I need a favor from you...and this stays between us."
"Okay! Okay! Whatever that is I'll do it but right now, I need your math assignment." She nagged me.
"Sure thing Pinky, c'mon let's go to class." I stretched my arm and placed it on her shoulder.
****
Classes were over and I had to search for Macy, she owed me something, it was so crucial that I couldn't wait. Luckily, I spotted her in company of Jesse.
"Hey guys!"
"Finally I get to see ya, where have you been hiding?" Jesse teased.
"Someone got me under his armpits..."
"Whoa! Who's the lucky guy?" Jesse exclaimed.
"He calls me kiddo and I certainly know he's a douche. He's in campus around town." I revealed something I wasn't supposed to do whatsoever.
"So you did cum...no longer a virgin uh!" Macy gasped.
"There's nothing with any of that, I like it when my guy cums on my face." Jesse chortled.
"That random guy?" I suddenly asked.
"His name is Fraser and I love the energy... synergy he displays in bed." He praised him.
"Someone is educated." Macy pointed out.
"Guys....I haven't had my first cum yet because I don't think I'm ready. At least I did tell him but what good did I gain from it? The guy ghosted me, can you believe it?"
"Maybe is one of those guys who like fooling around. They get the peaches and you suffer a heartbreak for expecting more." Macy said.
"Look Buddy, if a guy is into you, you'll definitely feel it when he starts to notice small things that you never thought mattered. A guy with great sense of humor and most importantly, a mature person. Why the heck should he snub you for having given him your stand?" Jesse wondered.
"The thing is, he never dates and he's a straight forward guy. I know I shouldn't settle for less but I can't seem to get him out of my mind. First it was a fling then a crush and now I want a smash. Don't judge me but I don't know why there's this tension whenever he's so close to me."
"That's how it all started with Max, the guy I dumped after two weeks of great time together. Smashing me against the walls, on the table, in the shower and then one morning, he disappears with my unlimited black card. I was an idiot to let him fool me with his charms." Macy opened up.
"So what should I do guys?" I asked desperately.
"Don't fall hard for him and never let him change you to be the girl he wants you to be. It's that simple." Jesse warned.
"Yeah I got that one. Thanks guys and you'll give me forbidden tips when I ring the red code." I said before dashing out of school.
Getting back home in the evening, I found Dad helping out Mom in the kitchen. That was not the usual him. What kind of stunt was he pulling now?
"Hey baby, dinner is in five minutes. Get changed and come downstairs." He sounded all happy.
"You wish." I muttered under my breath and hurried upstairs to my room.
I changed quickly and walked to the window, hoping to see Atlas. That's what I had been doing for a week now. My mind was so much taken by him that I couldn't think of anyone else but him, the guy who suddenly showed up from nowhere, making my heart pound and my hear beat accelerate just by the thought of his sexy abs. I wanted another kiss from the fuck boy. Maybe more, maybe let him have his way with me. Didn't he say I wouldn't regret it? Jeez Atlas! He was damn hot and I couldn't wait for him to get in through the window and jerk me down, part my legs and f*ck me harder.
I was getting wet, probably dripping honey and feeling all naughty that I started touching my thighs. Atlas was driving me insane and he wasn't even around to cool the raging fire burning inside of me. I was kindling and exploding wishing he could just come and utter those beautiful seducing words.
"Adora! Honey, get down!" I heard mom's voice and my fantasies came to an end.
***
"Baby, how was school today?" Dad asked me.
"The usual...like you care." I snorted.
"Adora?" Teagan complained.
"What? I'm saying the truth, right Dad?"
"Can we just eat in peace." Mom urged.
"I lost my appetite...the food is all yours." I dropped the fork and spoon on the wooden table and walked out on everyone.
I went to the window yet again, I don't know why I kept waiting for him to show up. I know it sounded creepy but couldn't he just come?
"Adora! Open the door baby we need to talk." Dad banged the door.
"Go away Dad! Just leave me alone." I shouted back.
"Honey, c'mon open the door."
"Dad stop being so stub..."
"Look what I got you." He waved a black card in the air.
"Are you trying to buy my love?" I pretended not to be so happy about it.
"Don't give me that look baby. This is yours. You can go shopping with your friends whenever you like." He gave me the black card.
"Am I supposed to thank you or what?"
"You're my baby and providing all your needs is my bounden duty." He uttered happily.
"Dad, why are you being so nice all of a sudden? Are you finally coming back home?"
"Honey...."
"Right...as expected you choose your assholes over us. Goodbye Dad." I slammed the door so hard and locked it. Dad had no option but to leave. I roamed about the room throwing the bed sheets and pillows down in rage. I spotted something I never thought would be a stress reliever. My school masking tape.
I rolled it down and strained it on my thighs feeling hurt but hurting actually...it made me forget my woes that for a moment I didn't realize Atlas was climbing up the window.
"I can come in right?"
"Atlas? You? Why...."
"I know I kinda snubbed you for a week or so but now I'm here. Are you having an episode again? You've been seeing Dr. Baker right?"
"Yeah, but not anymore. I still wanna burn.... sorry I don't think you'd like to hear any of that." I blubbered out.
"You can tell me. What exactly do you burn when you get so angry?" He sat beside me on the bed. He was this close and inhaled every ounce of expensive perfume that lingered the air. Was I just feeling his love? It was so hard to understand the guy sitting next to me. Disappearing whenever he wanted and then coming back like we didn't even make sense not forgetting how I was openly explaining my shitty life to him.
"I used to burn my thighs before Mom made sure I had no access to lighters in this house. I don't know if I'm the only one who's hurting coz Teagan and mom are fine without Dad in their lives. He comes and goes and nothing kills me inside than seeing him all happy in other women's arms. It hurts....it...." My voice trailed off.
"Hey, I get you." He placed his hands on my cheeks and his warmth made me want to nudge even closer to his torso. How can a man be this cute and warm too? "I also come from a shitty family too. My mother abandoned my father and I for a rich man. So I was brought up my father alone until he was stable enough to remarry again. That's why I spent most of the times in my place rather than coming back home." He narrated.
"I'm sorry that you had to go through all that." I muttered.
"I'm sorry too that you're still trying to harm yourself." He said, his focus shifting to the tape on my thighs.
"I'll take it off...."
"Let me take it off for you. You can trust me." He offered and before I knew it, his hands were roaming about my thighs and it felt all ticklish. I wanted to flinch but I couldn't just let my guard down and be the weaker one.
"Too tight...stop holding your breath."
"In such an awkward position, it's so hard to act normal." I said.
"Can you just act normal when you're with me? Let yourself free, I hate it when you try to hide what you really feel." He took off the tape but his hands were still on my thighs.
"What do I feel?" I asked.
"I'll show you through actions," he smiled fondly at me as his hands travelled up to my inner thighs. I gasped and flinched trying not to feel anything but damn! I've longed to be touched like this, it felt super good that my p*ssy twitched burning for more.