Liar. They're all liars. And then she called me a liar. Why did I lie about? I didn't do anything. I never do anything and yet I'm always in trouble.
It doesn't even make any sense how a picture I just thought was cute got me in this much trouble. And then my dad came up to us and said something like "no matter how sweet, naive and innocent you see it, it's not like that". So he was admitting that he knew we didn't see what was wrong with it. We weren't showing any skin. Just in a pose we thought was cute and he said it was inappropriate mainly because our faces weren't in it. …. Ok whatever. But when I got in trouble and she wouldn't even let me go change the privacy to just me because she didn't want any to see it doesn't make any sense. Its fucking stupid how you don't want anyone to see it but won't let me make sure no one we sees it.
I miss him. Why can't I have a boyfriend? I'm 16. You were off having sex at my age. And all I want to do is like a boy. You don't like that I'm sending him pictures of me? They're not inappropriate so I don't see what's wrong with it. He wants to see me and I want to see him.
Sometimes I feel like I would've been better off with my mom but I know thats a lie. I just would be allowed to talk to this boy but if I had stayed with her I would've never met him. So I don't regret coming here. I just wish I had a bit of freedom. I can't do anything. I'm not allowed to do anything. Not even text people. Or play games on my phone. They even restrict what YouTubers I watch. I can't do ANYTHING. Every time I think of how much I can't do it feels like I can't breathe but I can't cry. I can't cry. I cry so easily but when I want to, nothing comes out.
I miss Miguel. I want to spend the rest of my life with him.