im back at my house, i live alone, not because im an orphan or anything but my parents are drunks that never wanted me. maybe i should kill them. probably not, not yet at least. in one hour im meeting jeiku, kazuya, and fuya to leave on our mission, i told them to be prepared to die and they understood the risk. i understand the risk and am ready to die. i am going to kill shadow and then im going to kill butcher and then lastly ill kill king. after that my mission will be complete. I'll have avenged yoritomo, akira, and mayumi. i try to tie mayumis headband around my forehead but with only one arm thats impossible so i give up, i put it back in my pocket, pull my jacket over my shirt and slip into my boots. the right side of my jacket looks dead, theres no arm in it so it looks just sad. maybe i shouldve accepted the prosthetic the hokage offered. i pick up my sword, its fairly old but since my other one broke this will have to do.
im the first one at the village entrance, i wait for the rest of my team to show up and they do one by one until all 4 of us are here
"before we leave theres something i have to make clear" everyone must know that i will be the one to kill shadow "i will be the one to kill shadow and if anyone tries to stop me i will not hesitate to kill you. is that understood" everyone nods nervously, of course i wouldnt actually kill them... i dont think i would at least.
the first day of travel is uneventful, we trek through all sorts of terrain, we began when the sun rose and we wont stop until it sets. theres been little conversation all day aside from an occasional asking how much longer we'll be going or a im hungry.
"the suns beginning to set we should make a camp for the night."
"ill catch a rabbit or something for us to eat" kazuya yawns
"fuya can you get a fire started" she nods. the two head off to complete their respective tasks
"ibuki" jeiku says in a confrontational tone "whats wrong with you"
"i dont know what youre talking about jeiku" but i do know
"youve been cold since mayumis death, not like you were a ray of sunshine before but you aren't good at concealing your bloodlust"
"nothing is wrong" i say coldly. i lean in close to jeiku and say softly "if you try to get in my way i will kill you without a second of thought" this time i mean it. my hatred is consuming me but i dont fight it, i feel more powerful than ever.
kazuya catches several rabbits and a squirrel and fuya has a fire started, jeiku made silverware and plates for us to eat with. the 3 of them laugh and converse and i just stare at them. i want more than anything in this moment to kill all of them but i restrain myself, it would be so easy and i could blame it on an ambush by shadow. their voices pierce my ears like daggers and then it goes to ringing, i start to breathe heavily, i want to kill them. i want to kill them so badly so i can end this torture on my ears. but i dont.
"i have to pee" i say and then walk away swiftly, im now a couple hundred yards away, i walked until i was out of their sight and then i ran. i need to kill something. anything. theyre such easy targets but i cant. i punch the closest tree with all of my strength i can muster. and then i punch it again, and again, and again, until my knuckles are bleeding and i feel like i mightve broken something. i try to make a fist but my hand is numb from pain.
"what took you so long i was worried" fuya says to me after i eventually return nearly 2 hours later. jeiku and kazuya are asleep and fuya is keeping watch.
"its nothing" i mutter.
"whats wrong with your hand?" i try hiding it by putting it in my pocket "hey cmon let me see" i begrudgingly show her "wow you messed that up pretty badly, i know some basic healing jutsus would you like me to try and fix it"
"if you want to" fuya smiles and performs a jutsu and my hand feels better, its still bloody but the swelling has gone down and the pain subsides. "thank you"
"no problem buki" buki? mayumi used to call me that. i dont want to kill fuya anymore at least not at the moment.
"tomorrow we should arrive at the village shadow is supposed to be at" i say and then sit down "you should get some rest"
"goodnight buki" she smiles and walks off to where the others are sleeping.
i sit there lost in my thoughts. memories of mayumi take control of my brain and i want to cry.
"im going to kill them for you" i say under my breath. every step i take im one step closer to taking my revenge.