kicking my running shoes at the side of the door, I charged inside the room, breathing heavily from the long run.
I grabbed a bottle from the refrigerator and gulped it all at one stance, I squeezed and tossed it into the bin.
I took a morning walk earlier but didn't even last long before I returned back to the dorm, I slept late last night and that was having a big effect on my system.
" What the actual fuck __" I yelled, my hands splayed on my chest, there she was sitting on her bed.
How come I didn't see her when I came in? She frickin' scared heaven out of me.
Laurie looked a total mess with tear streaked face, her eyes were blotched with her hair sticking in different angles.
Logically, she had been crying all night. I plopped down next to her and took her hands.
"You don't look so good,where were you last night, I was so concerned, I couldn't even figure out what to do" I said, leaving no space between every words.
She chuckled with no humor, I could feel the pain in her monotone voice.
" Why are you been this way all of a sudden, are you paid or something, did Ethan come over and lure you to do all these?
" She said in a slurred voice, laying her back on the bed, she picked up her phone and began to text.
" But.. "
" You've got piles of books to deal with, stop wasting you time on me" she said, interrupting me halfway. That hurt my pride but I feigned ignorance, I could save that for later.
" Of course but the last thing I wanna do is ignore you in this situation" I said, sounding worried.
I walked to my bedside when she didn't respond and settled down to go through my blogs, I wasn't even concentrating on it, I wanted Laurie to be okay but she wouldn't take a hint.
The next second, Laurie was off to the bathroom throwing up while I held her hair and soothe her hunched back.
" You okay?" I asked, helping her up. She gave me a wry smile and washed her mouth, Laurie was having a hangover from drinking so much last night.
" Have you got some extra tissues, I ran out" Laurie said, suppressing a sneeze, she's had cold from walking in the rain last night.
" Sure" I tossed it to her, I didn't know if asking about what happened last night was right so I kept quiet.
" Thanks__" Laurie paused, fiddling with the tissue paper like an anxious girl about to spill her secrets.
I nibbled on my lips, fighting the urge to say something I might end up regretting.
" I broke up with winter, I didn't know what else to do..." She sniffed and looked into space to hide her tears. " He was one of the best thing that.... happ.. he suddenly just turned dark and wouldn't even pay me attention, Lance just payed me a wrong attention and I made the move, I'm so .. " she stuttered but eventually broke down crying.
I sat next to her and pulled her into a hug while she sobbed silently, Laurie sobs were dying down when the door busted open.
I couldn't help but wonder why on earth would Ethan be in our room. He wore the same expression as mine, shocked.
I broke our stare when Laurie noticed, I could still sense his eyes bore holes inside me.
" Hey Ethan" I muttered, giving him a timid wave.
"Chelsea" He smirked, returning the wave. He shook his head and said to Laurie " you're a total mess, snicker doodle"
" Yeah I know" she said, through gritted teeth" So it seems you know this fuck boy who's my cousin too" she said, looking at me.
" Not really but.... " I paused, wondering if I should give full details on how we met.
" It's alright " Laurie nodded,
I headed back to writing my blogs, I didn't want to pry on them, my heart broke when I sighted a mail.
I had determined to ignore every hateful mail or comments but this was just out of bounds.
If you suck at writing, you can always try something else. Your writing makes me really sick.
I clicked delete and shut my laptop.
I stole a glance at Laurie and Ethan, he truly felt sorry for her. Who wouldn't with the way she looked?
" It's all round that you broke up with that dude, I knew you would need your incredible Ethan next to you, don't you" that was Ethan talking.
I lied on the bed, staring at the ceiling. I cut them both off everytime they included me in a conversation, I just needed space, I was so down.
I could say Ethan and Laurie were really close due to the way she laughed along with him, I barely see her do that. I got off my bed and pulled on my oversized Versace hoodie
" I think I'm gonna head out for a second" I said, sauntering towards the door.
" Uhm... do you wanna grab some food with us, Chelsea" Laurie asked after a hour of chatting with Ethan.
I would have loved to but I don't eat ....
" We're not going to an Italian restaurant so you've got less to worry about " was she reading my mind or something
I had my first Italian meal when I was eighteen, I developed nausea that lasted a week, been scared of having another since then.
What if they wouldn't allow me to pay for the meal? Maybe I should just find an excuse and eat alone in the nearest cafe but turning her down...
" Chelsea" a voice, I recognized to be Laurie called and gave me a weird stare.
" Huh sure, that would be nice" I rushed my words.
" You kinda blanked out, yunno " Laurie scoffed and headed to the bathroom to clean up her mess.
The atmosphere was so tensed, Ethan was on his phone texting, his eyes not leaving it for a second.
Was he ghosting me or maybe I got the wrong light?