I drummed my fingers on the table absentmindedly, I was sitting across Ethan and Laurie who were both engaged in a conversation, I wondered how quick it was for Laurie to get back being her normal self after the break up.
She wasn't like the girls I would encounter crying in the bathroom after getting dumped, back in highschool.
It wasn't natural but that I have never been in a real relationship even now that I'm 19. Well except a one time thing I had on a dating app, I freaked out when the guy asked about meeting up with him and ended up deleting my account.
It wasn't like I don't get letters and flowers from guys and some secret admirers that were probably scared of getting turned down. I just wasn't attracted to guys and probably not girls, I was just who I was, a verified loner
My mind drifted off to the night I had my first kiss, it wasn't intentional but now that I think of it, it's really gross and unthoughtful of me.
Well, that night was the first time I went to a party, kissed and got drunk. It was a day after dad got diagnosed with cancer, I just wanted to get over the fact that my best person was dying, I didn't have a second thought before slipping on my shoes and going to the party with Leo, our neighbors son who I eventually kissed on our way back home. I couldn't look at him afterwards, I guess he was hoping for more but no, I'm really not down
I snapped out of my trance when the waiter dropped our orders, I was fast to dig into the cannelloni pasta and in a brief I was done. I wiped off the sauce smeared on my lips with the back of my hand, then I met his eyes.
Was he staring at me all while or I just wasn't thinking straight?
He glanced away, shoveling forkfuls of scrambled eggs into his mouth, I noticed he wasn't wearing his braces,it made him really cute but even without it, I didn't fail to notice how great he looked, with freckles scattered across his face and his perfectly tanned skin made me feel a sensation.
Ethan jerked his head uprightly, as if noticing someone staring at him. I broke the stare awkwardly, stealing a glance at the clock hanging in the restaurant.
" It was your fault" Ethan defended, he fake pouted at Laurie while I stifled a laugh, we were done with our food but stayed back for some cappuccino.
" Woah, you still never accept the fact" Laurie groaned and raised an eyebrow at me. "Now you tell who's faulty"
I groaned internally, how was I supposed to answer that when she was obviously the mean one, she locked her Ethan in the live- in closet to have all the chocolate by herself but ended up losing the keys.
Uhm, Ethan was at fault. That was what I wanted to say but ended up saying something totally different
" how on earth would you lock him in a closet " I tsk when the words came out, I swear amusement was vivid in his eyes, it reminded me of how it captivated me last night while we talked, it felt like ages but it was just few hours ago.
" Really, are you charmed by his looks ... Fine, but I was just six" Laurie grumbled sleepily.
" But old enough to try an attempted murder on your lovely cousin"
" I misplaced the keys okay, now stop talking before I kill you for real this time plus you are no where close to being lovely, you are a pain in the butt and need I tell you,I'll do anything to toss you into hell right away" Laurie glared, she better not mean that.
" Terrifying " Ethan said, blowing a wisp of hair from his face, the morning sun settled on his face highlighted his thick cheekbones. Truly, he was the epitome of summer.
Just right, my cellphone rang. It was a call for Beatrice, the owner of the that I work as a part time waitress
I picked up my bag immediately she ended the call, my co- worker was sick and she asked if I could gracefully fill in. I would have loved to spend more time with them but I needed the money, so bad.
" I'm sorry but I have to go, it was a call from my boss" I said, pulling the tote bag over my shoulder.
" Beatrice, that old grumpy lady" Laurie snickered with distaste, I must have accidentally spilled about Beatrice mean nature to her.
" We can drop you off " Ethan suggested, that was the first time he actually spoke to me, maintaining a normal eye contact.
" No, you don't have to. It's just down the road" I lied, I just didn't want to after he ignored me the whole time, I mean we ignored each other.
Why was it taking a huge toll on me by the way?
"Okay" he shrugged, sipping his coffee. I waved at Laurie, who wore a confused look before I headed out.
I had only taken few steps from the restaurant, I turned back when he called my name.
What now?
He stopped right in front of me, his hands in his pocket.
" Did I leave anything behind?" I asked.
God, was the sarcasm really necessary.
"No, it's just.. I'm sorry for ignoring you, I just didn't want you to feel weird talking to me in front of Laurie so I .. " he trailed off, rubbing his temple.
" It's fine " I waved him off with a smile. I wasn't the type to worry about silly things but I just didn't like the way he wasn't paying me a bit of attention, pretending we never actually talked.
" Thanks" He said, squinting his eyes a little.
" Yeah" I muttered, staring at his auburn hair, how I wanted to run my hands through it, it was getting really weird about how I was interested in every bit of him, I finally spilled out of the blue " can I touch your hair, please"
" Are you being for real, uuhm .. sure" He smirked, I was fast to run my hands through it, amazed by how fluffy it felt, It felt weird afterwards.
Get a grip of yourself, girl. I chanted repeatedly in my head, my eyes lingered longer than necessary on his lips, before I glanced up to catch him also staring, with an undivided attention.
Just staring at each other,it hit me when his face came near and the next thing, I was locking lips with Ethan like it was what I had yearned for in a thousand years. It was more of a french kiss and definitely was unexpected.
We pulled away, both out of breath. I stared down to hide the blush that crept up to my face, fiddling with my hands.
It wasn't like my first kiss, the butterflies and sparks were real this time.
" I've gotta go before Laurie gets worried" Ethan muttered, pulling me closer and placing a peck on my lips before heading off.
I could feel my face heat up when I thought of what just happened. Never had I ever imagined making out in the middle of the road with a guy I barely knew.
Funnily, I didn't regret it not even in a tiny bit but what if he did regret kissing me back.