'Why are you helping her? She's a monster?'
'They were only using you.'
'He doesn't see a future with you.'
'Why would they help someone like you?'
'They wish they never met you'
'You disappoint them.'
'Your useless.'
All these voices were running around in her head. 'I'm scared, scared that he's going to see me in the same way I see myself.' She was weeping on her bed. Soft barely audible sounds coming from her mouth, showing signs of distress. Her shaky hands picked up her phone and dialed her boyfriend. When he picked up she didn't say anything. "Hello?" He asked confused. "I-it's me" she said with her voice shaking. "What's wrong you sound terrible?" He asked worried "c-can you c-come over please?" She asked almost in a begging tone. "I'll be right there, wait for me. Don't do anything okay?"
"Okay" she whispered.
After she hung up she cuddled up and hugged her legs. Some time later he finally came and he hurried to her room. She was in a really pitiful state. Her eyes were red, she was trembling and cuddled up in a corner. This made his heart sting. He had a pained expression on his face but still went towards her. He started to comfort her; "it's okay, I'm here. Everything is okay. You'll be alright, I'll stay here okay? Just breathe." However his warm comfort made her start crying again. She said through her crying "I'm a monster"
"No your not" he responded
"You deserve someone better than me"
"Stop lying"
He held her shoulders which were trembling and told her "listen, you are a amazing and whoever said this to you is mental! You are such an angel and I will not listen to any if, ands, or buts. You deserve the best, everything and nothing less." She looked at him with tears spilling from her eyes. She had a blank expression on her face.
"…aid that" that was all he could hear coming out deform her mouth. "Hm?" He questioned what she said. "No one's ever said that." She repeated. To this he had no response. She looked at him with a bitter smile and said "when I was younger it was suffocating. I had people who loved me but I wasn't happy. I had a roof over my head but I wasn't happy. I had food but I still wasn't happy. Then someone told me 'you still want more? What right do you have? You should be great full!' But I wanted someone to tell me I deserved it. That I deserved happiness. That I could be greedy. I knew it was stupid, because no one would ever say that nor think it."