"Uhhh ! Should've known ! " Rita says as I tell them about Jessie and her mother.
" Bianca Scott .... Jessica Scott I can't believe we didn't notice the resemblance ." Lilly adds .
" Things get more complicated everyday don't they ?" I say and bite my apple . Things have been twisting and changing in bits of seconds . I don't know if they always do . But I only noticed them after she's gone. I mentally slap my self for thinking about her right now . I need a distraction .
We sit in silence for moments and my insides start burning , I fidget with my fingers my hands roaming on the wounds on my wrist until Rita speaks " Guys Let's just forget about it ... We have to spend more time together . I'm gonna miss you guys so much ." Me and Lilly look at each other both of us sharing the "Aww!" Expression .
Right then I came up with an idea .
I nudge Lilly's side and ask
" Sleep over ?"
" oh my God ! Yes ! Please ?" My sister jumped pleading Lilly .
" Can't today , But I promise I will come tomorrow and I will stay for the weekend too." She answers .
I raise my eye brow ( gosh I really need to stop doing this ) out of curiosity to what she was up to tonight. She caught my eye and noticed my curiosity.
" Okay , I'll tell you .Umm..." She says searching for words
Me and Rita wait anxiously to what this was about . " I have a date ." She blurts .
" Start talking ! I .Want . Every .Detail ! " my sister demands . " It's Matt he finally asked me out ." she tells us . Without thinking I yell " Hallelujah ! praise the Lord ! That dude finally found the guts to ask the girl out ! " when I stop all eyes were on me .
I shrink in my seat but I was still giddy and exited .
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Third person POV
I was eating my home made lunch when I heard a loud "
Hallelujah ! praise the Lord ! That dude finally found the guts to ask the girl out ! "
I laugh to myself turning around to find Rosaline Bloom leaning back on her chair , her head tilted back and her eyes closed yelling upwards . Her twin and best friend laugh uncontrollably and I itch to hear what it's all about . Rose ( as everybody calls her ) opens her eyes to find us staring at her . She shrinks back in her seat turning her back to us . After a second I hear tables crashing and screeching followed by screaming people . I turn to that direction which was where the football player guys usually eat . Students rush towards them and I step on my chair to see what this was all about . First thing I see is Marcus Remories's fist collide with Nathan Harrison's face .
ROSE'S POV
Saying that I was pissed was an understatement . I grabbed Mark my his arm and yanked him out of the cafeteria .
"What the fuck was that !" I whisper yell . Judging from the look on his face this was my first time saying 'fuck' in front of him .
"It was nothing ! Don't worry . We just had an argument on something ." His eyes were looking every where but mine . He was avoiding my gaze .
And this only meant something .
He was lying .
" Mark tell me the truth ." I fold my arms .
" I told you we had an argument ." He says getting back to the cafeteria because our principal was calling him .
I sigh and get back to my friends .
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" Rose are you okay ? " Lilly asks warily . " Have you .. Have you taken your pills ?"
I sit straight and look at Rita .
We dumped all my pills last week mainly because I was feeling fine and also because looking at them caused another pain .
I was given those pills about nine years ago ...when Mama passed away . I was going through post traumatic stress and severe depression . I took therapy and some pills . I was finished with my therapy (kind of )but I still had to take those damn pills .
Looking at them every morning caused another depression by itself .
We had to get rid of them .
I was there the night she died , I was the last person to look into her lifeless eyes , I was the last person to touch her cold skin . I was the last person to...
Stop it rose !
Stop thinking about that day !
I focus on Lilly's question . " Yeah , of course ." I smile at her . I turn to face Rita but she was staring at something behind me with knitted eyebrows .
I turn around and see principal James speaking with the boys . And Jessie was there with them .
I change my focus to my friends as the bell goes .
The three of us grab our bags to head for class fortunately we had literature together . ( Not because they were interested but because I forced them to join me . I couldn't take this class alone . )
I stop by Mark's house the next Saturday on my way to Lilly's house . I stop by the door wondering if I should text him or not .
I just knock at the door hoping there was someone home .
I'm met with Mrs. Peterson's puffy eyes and red cheeks .
Was she crying ?
" Good afternoon Mrs Peterson ?" I say not knowing what to say at this moment.
" Hello dear , How are you ? " She says leading me in .
" I'm fine Mrs Peterson . Is there something wrong ? " I finally ask . " No . No dear , it's nothing you should worry about . " She tells me " And how many times have I told you to call me Carla ? " She adds attempting to smile . I smile my brightest and rub her arms . " Is Mark home ?"
She stays silent . And then she opens as if she was going to say something .But she clamps it shut right away . She hesitates " I think he's in his room ."
I nod and climb up the stairs " Thank you ... Mrs pet_ I mean Carla ." I correct myself .
She mumbles something I couldn't hear but I let it pas hoping it wasn't a question.
I knock on his door " Mark ?"
Nothing .
" Mark ? " I try the door knob but it's locked .
He never locks his room .
I knock again . " Marcus ?"
" Be right there !"
Okay what's wrong with these people today ?
" Is this a bad time ? " I couldn't help but ask . " No it's fine .I'm coming ." I hear doors banging and shuffling for a while before the door is opened .
Hey? "
"You didn't text? " He says opening the door further. "Sorry." I say sitting on the edge of his messed up bed" I just thought you'd be home."
"What if I wasn't? I told you to text me before you dropped by. " He breathes"Several times Rose! Now what do you want! ?Why the fuck are you even here! ?"
why is he yelling at me?
What have I done wrong?
I stay silent staring at his carpet pinching my hands to avoid crying.
Own up Rose, never cry for a guy.
"Well you're here aren't you? I just came here to see you and ask you about the fight Mark! But since you don't look like you're ready to have a normal conversation with anyone, I'll be leaving. We'll talk when you can. Have a nice week end. " I stomp to his door and open it.
I leave but a tight grip captures my wrist.
I hiss at the pressure on my wound. I cut that last night when thoughts of my mother invaded my mind. The pain eases the guilt, the sight of my blood instead of hers feels like justice.
He looks me straight in the eyes and growls into my ears"Don't you ever talk to me like that. Ever. Now get out and call me on Monday . "
I gulp and free myself from his grip.... maybe this was just bad timing. He was upset. He doesn't want to hurt me.
I chant this in my mind climbing down the stairs.
Carla waits for me by the hall way "you're leaving? "
"Yeah... He doesn't seem like he's in a good mood. " I rub my hand at the spot it hurts. "He had a fight on Friday... He got suspended, He's just upset. He will come around though. "
She glances at me touching my hand and wincing "Did he hurt you? "She yanks my arm and pulls my sweater up. I take it back "No! He didn't I just fell on my hand at home. "I lie.
"Are you sure? " She looks at me intently.
"Yes. " I sigh " Well I have to get to my friends house in a few. Good Day. " she kisses me on the cheek and bids me farewell.
I quickly walk away to Lilly's house a few blocks further.
Did he just yell at me because he got suspended?
When I had nothing to do with it?
What's happening?