What happened? Didn't I fall off college's roof? Was it suicide? No, that's not it. I never thought about committing suicide, I could never do that. Was there someone else out on the roof who pushed me off ? or did I slip? I can't remember anything but why aren't I dead. Was I saved by someone? Or am I in journey to Afterworld? I feel very weak. Why do I feel wet on my cheek? Is it blood or am I crying? Ah... I don't want to die. Why has my life always been fu*ked up. Nothing goes right in my life. I can't remember any happy moments except some from my family.
It seems I'm dying. You are asking why do I know this. Isn't it obvious? I'm seeing flash of events of my life. Isn't is something that happens when death is at your doorstep. I'm feeling cold, looks like time's up for me. My hope that I was saved has been crushed.
Why do I feel warm, wasn't death supposed to be cold, lonely and empty. Am I being tortured or something? Don't give me hope which would be taken from me. Just give me peace at my death. No, I don't want to die. I have many regrets. I want one more chance at my life. Oh, God can you hear me, please give me your grace. I don't want to die.