A few months passed and he told me the news about how his father stopped being abusive and is now recovering. I also realized how he got himself together and is now happier than ever. Of course he then got a new girlfriend.
I really am so confused. I want to know what I'm feeling. Am I hurt? Sad? Guilty? Still in love? This is not love. Love is trusting a single person with your life. I'm scared to even risk our friendship with another unsure side of me. Unsure if I really still do love him or if I just want to make it up to him. Is it too late? Does he hate me already? Is he just pretending to be my friend? All these thoughts are crossing through my mind as I feel him drift away from me. He seems so far away, so far that I'm sure I can't even catch up even if I run as fast as I can. I was probably just oblivious and just stood idly by as he ran away from my life. Please don't leave. I'll do everything I can to give you the happiness you deserve, even if it's my misery.