I am extremely glad that you became more confident and happier, Liam. I really am grateful that you're happy. Ever since my realization I could not think straight and just could not find a way to help you become happier. But I'll pray that your new partner will make you happier and treat you better than I did. I don't deserve you, yet you deserve the world. I'm truly grateful for your happiness and would pray that when sadness will come your way, you would not get hurt but even if you did, I pray that you would be able to stand back up again.
I know I'm wrong but it's hard and draining to be in a relationship while fighting off my mental illnesses. I suddenly get mad, sad, and tired but couldn't help get irritated with his every single move, that resulted to me making him miserable. I regret my actions deeply and wished that I treated him better. But no one could change the past. We could only learn from it. I vow to myself that I would never treat someone the way I treated you, and would treat people the way they deserve to be treated.