No, I lied to him. Why do I keep lying to the people that matter to me, a lot? The same set of people that left their lives just to be in my life?
"Oh! I see. You shouldn't have done that, I would be mad at you too if I were her." Raymond said.
"You still don't understand, do you? You already know, she can't eat my kind of meat." I said.
"Oh, that's true. I almost forgot." He said and grinned at me.
"Yeah. It's true." I said and laughed softly.
"So, how is it going?" He asked.
Was he teasing me?
"As usual, there is nothing special about it," I replied to him, shrugged and shook my head at the same time.
"Have J.J and Genevieve learnt about it?" He asked.
"No," I replied and shook my head at the same time.
"So, when are you planning on telling them the truth?" Raymond asked, concerned.
"I would love to tell them tomorrow, but I am still scared. I am not scared to tell them, I am only scared of them getting scared of me." I said sadly.
"What do you mean? I do not understand." Raymond said with a frown, he was obviously confused.
"Actually, I am scared that they will become scared of me. What if they start seeing me as a monster?" I asked as I bowed my head in despair.
"As a monster?" Raymond asked and chuckled.
What's making him laugh now?
Ugh! I hate today.
"What's funny? Did I say something funny" I asked as I raised my head to see his face.
I was a bit angry and confused, what's funny?
"No, you didn't." He replied, shaking his head at the same time as he laughed softly again.
I glared at him as if I was going to eat him up, my eyes were burning, were they turning red, actually, I don't care.
I don't mind if I eat him up immediately, like right now.
He just keeps getting annoying.
"So, what's funny?" I asked as my fangs came out with blood gushing out my gum.
"You." He blurted.
"Me?" I asked as my eyes cooled down and my fangs went back in.
"Were you getting mad at me?" He asked as he seemed a bit terrified.
"Uh?.....I ... I…." I just couldn't find the right words to say so I gave up and sighed very deeply.
"I am sorry if I provoked you. Are you vexed?" He asked as he reached for my hands and held my palm, gently stroking the back of my palm.
I sighed very deeply before replying,
"I was, no I almost became. It's fine."
"Thanks. Do you mind?" He asked as he stretched out his arms for a hug.
I didn't reply to him, I just accepted and hugged him as tight as I could, almost suffocating him.
I don't know how he knew about it. It was just what I needed at the moment. A warm hug from a warm-blooded creature, a human since I became cold-blooded.
"Thanks," I whispered behind his ears.
"For what?" He asked as he started to stroke my hair, strand by strand.
"For…. Everything." I replied to him as a tear rolled down my cheek.
I didn't want him to know that I had begun crying, but just then I sniffed.
"Are you crying?" He asked as he stopped stroking my hair and placed his big but comforting palm at the back of my head and held me even tighter.
I shook my head and lied,
"No."
I tried to stop crying but I sniffed more causing me to whimper and cry more as more tears began to roll down my cheeks.
I just had mixed feelings. I couldn't tell if I was crying as a human or as a vampire, maybe it was both.
On one hand, I want to be a human, while on the other hand, I want to become a vampire.
Being a vampire is the only way to protect my family and friends, that's why I must stick with Veronica until the very end of time.
I am going to be a vampire for them, for the people that love me the most and for the people that I love the most.
"So, what are you doing?" Raymond's voice brought me back to reality.
"I am crying," I said as I began to sob too.
"It's okay. I am here for you, anytime, any day, always. I will always be by your side until my very last breath." He assured me as he tried to cool down my cry at the same time by patting me on my back, rubbing my head and kissing me on my cheeks at the same time.
I nodded and sobbed more but managed to mutter some words of appreciation.
"Thank you, Raymond."
"It's okay honey," Raymond whispered back to me as he brought my face closer to his and pressed a kiss on my lips as swiftly as possible.
It was so short that I wanted more.
What had come over me?
I had never felt this way before.
It was as if my heart skipped a bit and was beating very fast at the same time. It was beating as if it was going to burst out of my chest and enter his.
His lips were so warm that I wanted more, I was longing for more.
I didn't know or realize it when I held my head still and opened my mouth a bit.
He drew his face closer to mine as our noses brushed against each other.
His heart was beating very fast, like mine.
We were both swallowing multiple times.
He tilted his head so that his nose brushed against my right cheek and brought his lips closer to mine and then I closed my eyes, so tight that I could see the reflection of my blood vessels.
He brought his lips even closer so that I could feel the warm air coming out from his nostrils on my cheek when he exhaled.
He brought his lips even closer so that our lips were very few inches away.
It was time to close my eyes and feel the pleasure, to know how sweet his mouth was.
I closed my eyes as he gently slid his mouth into mine and our lips got locked tightly in a memorial kiss.
It was the best and still the best moment of my life. In fact, it was my first kiss.
Yeah, remember, I have always wanted J.J and not anyone else, but now, but for some reason that was even unknown to me, I had changed my mind between seconds and kissed someone else.
We were locked in this kiss for some seconds that we couldn't breathe and had to withdraw from each other to catch some hair.
We grasped for some air, he gently pushed me backwards with one of his hands around my waist and the other on the back of my head.
I was lying on the bed with him on top but he was making sure and being careful not to rest his weight on me.
I had the second round of a lovely kisses. It was long and awesome with our tongues rolling around and between one another.
We locked our mouths to each other until we became satisfied.
We withdrew ourselves again to catch some air, while I bit my lower lip and waited for him to bring his lips closer for a third and maybe final round.
He did and we had the third round, it was the best and the sweetest experience I have ever had throughout my lifetime.
He withdrew his mouth from mine and pushed himself up a bit to kiss my forehead.
He helped me to sit up too with a big smile on his face as he kept swallowing which continued attracting me to look at his Adam's apple.
He licked his lips, reached for my hand and kissed the back of my palm.
Neither of us spoke, as we were both shy to say anything.
I then decided to break the silence by clearing my throat and then asking,
"Is this your way of comforting people?"
"Uh?" That was the only thing he said as he was staring straight into my eyes.
"I wonder how many girls you must have comforted by this means," I said and rolled my eyes, avoiding eye contact with him.
"Girls? None." I said as he shifted to face me properly.
I laughed softly and said,
"Lier."
"Lying? I am not lying. How can I lie to a superhuman?" He asked as he laughed softly too.
"How should I believe you?" I asked.
"My heart." He said with a cute smile displaying his fine set of teeth.
"Your heart?" I asked with a frown and quickly changed my expression as I remembered that we just kissed.
"Yes, you heard right." He said as he lifted one of my hands and placed it on the left side of his chest.
"What does this have to do with lying?" I asked with a smile.
"Feel the rhythm of my heartbeat and tell me if I am lying." He said as he pressed my palm against his chest.
"How should I do that?" I asked.
"You are a superhuman." He dropped my hand, removed his shirt and reached for my hand again and placed it on his bare chest.
"I know what you want, but it's by stages. I haven't learnt that one yet. Why do I feel like you are avoiding my question?" I asked as I rolled my eyes and withdrew my hand from his chest.
He reached for one of my hands again, grabbed it and placed it between his hand and drew his upper body towards me and said,
"Trust me, I have never lied to you before and I will never do that."
I sighed very deeply, rolled my eyes and shook my head without saying anything.
"You are the first girl I have kissed." He blurted as he began to stroke my hand that was between his hands, both the back and front of my palm.
"I don't believe you," I said.
"I am serious. All my life, I have been watching over my sister that I didn't have time for other girls until we met again, on that rainy day. You carried my sister as if she was your daughter and I fell in love with you." He said and kissed the back of my palm that he was still holding.
I tried removing my head from his tight grip, but he just wouldn't let go, no matter how hard I tried and I eventually gave up.
What to do, he was stronger, maybe for now that I am sure that I am more human.
I opened my mouth in disbelief, he was saying the truth.
I could feel it.
I just felt something inside me that made me believe that he was telling the truth.
"Are you serious?" I asked without knowing why.
Is this why I kissed him?
My heart began beating very fast again, I don't know if it was human anymore.
It was beating faster than I had ever felt before.
What's happening to me?
"You are in love." Veronica's voice responded to me.
'Ahh!'
'What are you doing?'
'Can you please give me some privacy?'
"Okay." She said and giggled but strangely, I didn't feel any sharp pain at all.
'Wait!' I am feeling strange.'
"What do you mean?" She asked.
'It's my heart, it is beating very fast and the headache I was feeling earlier today is gone too.'
I was smiling for myself, while Raymond smiled back at me, thinking he was the reason I was smiling.
"Oh, that. You are welcome. You just started using your vampire's heartbeat." Veronica said with a grin.
'What do you mean?'
'Do vampires have a different heartbeat from humans?'
Wow!
Just wow.