POV: Rose Lancaster
It has been three months since my father told me that Gabriel was dead. I have been feeling depressed, angry, sad, and guilty.
I feel like it's all my fault. If I had just listened to my mother none of this would have happened. I cried.
When I asked him if they could find a body, he said that the car exploded with him inside because of a gas leak.
I have not stepped foot outside of the house since my parents brought me back. I barely even see them, I only see the doctor, Maggie, and a few maids.
I have been recovering well I still have my neck brace and leg cast still on. The doctor said I could remove in a week or two so that's good.
Recently I have been feeling nauseous, and been having weird cravings. But I just ignore it.
I was laying in bed when Maggie walked into my room with a sad smile on her face.
"How are you feeling today?"
I just sighed and looked away I haven't really been talking to anyone since I was brought back.
She sighed and came and sat down, at the foot of my bed.
"I'm really sorry Rose that this happened to you..... but you can't keep doing this to yourself, you barely eat, you don't even try to get out of bed, and you don't even talk to anyone. Do you think this is what Gabriel would want?" She said with frustration clear in her voice.
When she did not get any response she sighed and started walking towards the door again.
"I feel guilty and I miss him," I said with a sniffle and tears in my eyes. Maggie sighed and came and lay down next to me and hugged me while stroking my hair.
"Shhhh," she cooed.
I just started crying even more, while she just sat there stroking my hair.
We sat there for awhile before my tummy started growling. She chuckled.
"What do you want to eat?" She asked.
I sniffled and said.
"Can I just get some Mac and cheese?" I asked.
"Ok I will be back in a few. Ok?"
I nodded, as she left the room.
She came back with a warm plate of my favorite food.
As she brought the plate towards me, I could smell it normally I would be happy with the smell, but not this time.
When I smelled the food, I got up as fast as I could, went to the bathroom, and puked my guts out.
A few seconds later Maggie came in worried, as she held my hair out of my face.
"Isn't Mac and cheese your favorite meal?" She asked looking confused.
"It is." I said.
"Then what's wrong why did you puke when you smelled it does it not smell good?" She asked.
I felt a little guilty.
"No it smells fine it's just that I have been feeling his way for quit some time now." I said.
She looked at me for few minutes in confusion, then her eyes widened like saucers.
"What?" I asked her, feeling a little annoyed.
"When was the last time you had your period?" She asked smiling a bit while I was so confused as to why she was asking about this.
"Three months ago, so like in January, why?"
She looked at me with a cheeky smile and asked again.
"Did you sleep with Gabriel, Rose?" My eyes widened when I finally understood where this was going. I nearly fainted at the thought.
"I'm assuming you did by your reaction." She said a little amused.
"Rose I think you might be pregnant." She said.
I sat on the bathroom floor feeling lost and confused, and most of all shocked. Well not really, we had both forgotten to get the plan B pills.
Maggie sat next to me on the bathroom floor after flushing the toilet.
"I have a few pregnancy tests in my room,... I can go get some so we can see if you actually are. Ok?" I nodded and she left.
She came back a few minutes later with a small box in her hand.
I was so nervous thinking about me being pregnant. When I took the test we sat on the floor in the bathroom waiting for the results.
After a few minutes, Maggie's alarm went off, signaling us that it was time to look.
I sighed heavily, before getting up and checking the test on the counter. I looked at it, and almost fainted from the results.
It was positive.
I started panicking and pulling at my hair while pacing around the bathroom and my room. Maggie was trying to calm me down but I couldn't.
"My mom is going to kill me and my baby," I said trying to breath in but I felt like my lungs were constricted.
I turned to to Maggie saying.
"You can't tell anyone... please." I said with sadness in my voice.
"I would never do that to you." She said, as she came over and hugged me, I sighed in relief.
She pulled back and asked.
" Your belly is going to be showing soon though so what are you going to do about that?" She asked
"I don't see my parents that much anyways, but I will try to hide it." I said.
She sighed and said.
"Ok, but I am here if you need anything ok?" I nodded as she started leaving.
I sighed and laid back on my bed as my arms instinctively wrapped around my little bump as I thought about Gabriel, he would be so happy, he loves kids.
I started crying again thinking about him.
Time Skip
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It has been 4 months since I found out about my pregnancy. My belly is now fully showing, I have been a little happier, knowing that the baby is mine and Gabriel's.
I have been eating more, and talking more, and I have been walking around when I know my parents aren't home.
I have only seen my parents twice, any time they come to my room though I act like I am sleeping so I don't have to get up so they would not see my belly.
I have finally removed my neck brace and cast which felt so good, even though my foot smelled so bad after they removed the cast.
I was in my room reading a book when Maggie came into my room looking panicked.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"Rose, I over heard your mother on the phone with Mrs. Hill saying that she was going to come over so that you guys could start planning the wedding together." She said with a panicked voice.
I looked at her with wide eyes panicking as well.
"What am I going to do, what am I going to do, what am I going to do." I said while pulling at my hair and pacing in my room.
"I can just act like I'm sleeping again." I said.
"I don't think that's going to work Rose, we are in the middle of the day." She said.
"I know, I just don't know what to-." Before I could even finish my sentence my mom walked into my room with a smile on her face.
She looked at me and said.
"Sweet heart, Mrs. Hill is on her way right now, to come so that we can-." She looked down at my belly and my heart dropped.
She looked at my belly for a long minute not believing what she was seeing. She came towards and lifted my dress up to confirm what she was seeing.
I instantly pulled back but she had already seen it.
"You fucking bitch!" She said with a hard slap on my face, which caused my head to turn.
"You leave the house for one day and you come back pregnant." She said with another slap to my other cheek.
"What do I even tell Mrs. Hill, you stupid bitch." She said, as one of the maids came in saying that Mrs. Hill was here.
My mom turned around and started walking out reciting curses under her breath. I started crying knowing that something bad is going to happen to either me or my baby.
Maggie came and wrapped her hands around me hugging me tightly. We stayed like that for a few minutes before we heard foot steps whispers coming towards my door.
My door was then swung open revealing Mrs. Hill, and my panicked mother. Mrs. Hill looked at me then my belly and then turned to my mother.
My mother looked like she was going to shit her pants.
"What are you planning on doing with that Brittany?" Mrs. Hill asked looking very pissed.
"We are going to get rid of it." My mother said without hesitation while my eyes widened.
"I do not want an illegitimate child in my family, it goes against our rules so after our little meeting we are going together to get that.... Thing out of her." She said with disgust, while pointing to my belly.
"No!" I screamed.
They both looked at me.
"This is all I have left of him, please don't take it away from me please." I said pleading with the two demons that were in front of me.
They looked at me like I had not just pleaded with them.
"Shall we start the meeting?" My mother said ignoring what I had just said.
They both sat at my desk in my room. I sighed knowing they were not going to change their mind. I just laid in my bed silently crying.
"Rose?" Mrs. Hill called.
"Yes?" I said turning my head towards her while sniffing.
"What are your favorite colors?" She asked.
"You can just choose any color I really don't care at this point." I said. She looked at me.
"My son said that he wants the wedding to be the way you want it. " she said.
I was a little confused at her statement but I let it go.
"Gold, white , and gray." I said while laying back down.
After the meeting, it was finally time for us to go to the hospital. I started protesting, kicking, biting, scratching and yelling at anyone who tried to touch me. My mother then gave a syringe to one of her guards. They ganged up on me and poked me as I fainted.
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I later woke up in a room tied to a table like bed. I started struggling, trying to get up but I was too week and felt dizzy so I just layer there and cried.
The door then opened revealing my mother, Mrs. Hill, and a doctor who I did not know. My mother and Mrs. Hill sat on the chairs that were next to the table like bed I was strapped on. My mother then spoke and said.
"She wants an abortion." My mother said so casually like I wasn't there.
"No sir. Please I don't want one please don't do this." My mother then glared at me telling me to shut up.
The doctor sighed and said.
"The abortion is not a good idea but it can be done." He said.
"But I advise not to. From the scan I did the baby is pretty much developed, and this abortion could also cause your daughter to not have children ever again, so I advise not to do this operation." The doctor said which caused me to let out a breath I did not know I was holding.
The doctor looked at me while my mom and Mrs. Hill were talking to each other.
"My names is William Gray." He said with a sad smile.
"Rose Lancaster." I said.
The women stopped talking and turned to us saying.
"We will do as you say, we will bring her here when it is time for her to deliver." He nodded and started for the door before he went out he turned and gave ma a sad smile before walking out.
A few of my mom guards walked in and started untying me. They then carried me to the car and drove us back home.