LILY
For the longest time I have lied to myself that I can actually just end things with River when the time comes.
But now that it's here, a few moments before we go back home from the islands, I suddenly realize that I can't.
And it freaks me out! So much so that my breathe comes out short and my head and vision begin to swim.
I stare at my hands as I try to make myself calm but nothing helps.
The only thing I want most is for him to hold me in his arms and assure me that he is right here if I need him.
But I can't.
We are in public and in front of a million cameras and I have shied away to the farthest corner of the airport to give him space with the media.
When a familiar itch on my eye lids starts, I quickly duck into the bathroom stall a few feet away from where I'm stood. This is where I told River I'd be anyway.
