Valeria's POV šš
What the hell is going on here!", was the statement I whispered when I entered a room that looked like his study to find a plumb lady in his arms behind his desk towered over her. I didn't miss that fact that the lady's arms was wrapped around his neck. I mean, not that I'm bothered with what I'm seeing. Jevan's free to do whatever he wants.
SMH! Like I care.
He immediately connected eyes with me as soon as he heard the door open, looking surprised just as I am. As if realizing what is going on, I saw him immediately unwrapĀ the lady's hand from his neck as the lady turned to give me a look in annoyance.
"Val, I...", He was about to say but I put a hand interrupting him then spoke.
"My bad, I interrupted..", I said not missing the look on his face like he's disturbed and the look on his lady's face.
The hell ! Is she smirking at me!.
Slightly disappointed, I looked between them one last timeĀ and left, closing the door behind.
*Pretend you saw nothing!
I kept on saying repeatedly as I head towards our room to freshen up then came down for breakfast.
"Dear, are you okay?", I heard someone say bringing me what of my reverie.
"Huh?", I said turning my head towards the direction where I heard the voice, then Grandma came into sight.
"You sure you are okay dear? ",She asked again.
"Ahha..
"You zoned out,if anything's the matter ,let me know ohk?",she said concerned.
I gave her a reassuring smile and said "ok" which only came out as a whisper.
I hurriedly ate what was left on my plate and was about to head upstairs when Grandma caught my attention.
"How did your jogging go?",she said.
"Reviving. It's been awhile since I went for yoga", I told her.
"One of these days, I'll join you so we can go jogging and then yoga to revive this old bones", she said laughing of which I joined too.
"Uh.. where's Lil? ", I asked
"She left off to work after you left dropping her son at school", she said.
"Speaking of Lil, did you see Jevan on your way down here? I left in his study since he had a guest,you know, not just his guest but his PA",she said smiling.
I was about to respond but I saw him dressed up in his business suit with his lady trolling behind from the top heading downstairs.
Speak of the devil.
"Oh,there he is", Grandma said as she saw them approaching.
Jevan tried to catch my attention but I ignored him as I stood by.
"What took you so long son? I pack your breakfast so you can take along", GrandmaĀ told him handing the waffles and pancakes she had packed up for him .
"Thanks Gran,uh..",he said but Grandma interrupted him by introducing his PA to me
"Val, meet Miss Paulina Mundo , Jevan's personal assistant",she introduced. Paulina stretched her hand towards me for a handshake, smirking all along at me but I just stared at her outstretched hand uninterested in her offer .
"Um, Grandma I've got to go take a rest, my feet are killing me", I told her sparing Jevan a little glance then averted my gaze. I knew he wants my attention but I'm not giving him the chance for now. I don't want an explanation from him whatsoever.
I was about to turn back and head upstairs when he spoke up.
"You went out without my permission", he said in a calm tone but I didn't stop. I wanted to ignore him,then he finally stopped me.
"I'm talking to you Val", he slightly raised his voice.
This time I stopped then turned my attention towards him scrutinized my eyes allowing him to read my expression .
"Don't push me,I'm not your property". Giving him a final once-over, I quickly head upstairs because if I had stayed for a second , I'd have done more than an outburst letting down my emotions in front of all at the moment. I didn't want it that way.
I cried my eyes out annoyed by myself and for the fact that I'm this way.
I slid down the door to sit on the floor once I shut it close.
I really miss Sylvia and Bennie. They're the ones to console me in whenever I'm caught up in a situation that's similar to heartbreak.
Heartbreak?! Seriously?. Don't tell me you had fallen in love with Jevan. *Gasps
Fallen in love or not, I don't know....yet. It's weird the way my heart races so fast whenever I see him and whenever he's near. He hasn't even touched me yet but he intrigues me in a way I can't explain.
Then why do you keep pushing him away. Who knows? He might feel the same way you do. Val, do something!.
No, this is an odd feeling. I must kill this feeling. He's not my type.
Is that all you are going to say?. Then who's your type of man? You used to say your type of man is Caleb..rich..talented..sculptured and then what did you get?? He almost ruined your life! Don't you just get it?. "My subconscious mind accused me.
Suddenly, my mind drifts off to the night Caleb drugged me and wanted to take advantage of me and with me pleading.
Please!! Stop! I beg you don't do this to me!.
"Shut the fuck up bitch!, he said strangling me and beating the hell out of me. He held on my neck pressing down on my throat ,choking me.
"I'll slice off your throat if you make this hard for me girl, let's enjoy this together whiles there privacy. I swear no one's here to hear us", recalling Caleb say as he pulled down his pants grinding on my center in the process.
"I'm not ready for this please just stop it! I'm begging you to just....", I recall myself struggling to get out of his strong hold and me begging him to let go of me .
Sitting behind the door,down on the floor, I find myself shaking , crying and hyperventilating as if the air wasn't enough. I wanted to stand up and be on my feet and at least go to the bed to just lie down. But, I'm starting to feel drowsy, cold and shaky.
Oh God I can't breathe.Ā Breathe through your mouth Val.
I'm drenched with sweat all over as I tried to catch some breathe in and out but I just can't.
Bang! bang bang bang!
I heard the sound ofĀ a consistent knocking on the door.
"Open the door ,Val ! Open the door!
Realizing his voice,Ā I became more frightened and that sped up my already pathetic situation.
"Please o-open the door ! It's me Apple, open the door.Ā I heard him again. The knob kept shaking only to realize it's locked.
I didn't realize I locked the door.
Then I heard a bang on the door again.
"Shit! Damnit! ", I heard him curse .
"Open the door Val, I promise I won't hurt you, please . "Please open up Val.
"Je-je- Jev-an", I whispered in stutters shakily .
Still hyperventilating and drowsy, I managed to use my shaky hands to touch the knob . It took a minute or two with Jevan's reassuring words from the background before I was able to unlock it . I pushed away from my current position behind the door to sit asideĀ still sitting on the floor.
I saw Jevan quickly open the door and upon seeing me seated on the floor, he came to my side kneeling close to me and for all I know, encaged me in his arms with my head on his chest in an embrace. At once, I felt a sense of warmness in me.
"Easy..easy..It's ok , It's ok...now breathe slowly. "Follow the rhythm of my breathe and heartbeat ". "Can you hear me Val , just follow and try to take in air slowly and exhale smoothly",he encouraged.
"I-i can't", I whispered still hyperventilating.
The next thing I knew, he took me in his arms bridal style to the bed. He made me sit upright and guided me while consoling me saying sweet nothings in my ear until I was able to catch my breath. I laid down quietly right after closing my eyes shut.
"I'm gonna get you a bottle of water alright?",he said while I nodded "yes" getting off the bed hurriedly to grab a bottle of water from downstairs.
He came right back shortly with a bottle , a pack of medicines, a bowl of ice and a jar of warm milk.
"This will deal with the panic attack",he said as he poured water into the glass and headed it over to me. He helped me sit upright then spilled two capsules in my hand and helped me take it.
My heart which was beating faster than normal was back to normal .
I sipped a little bit of the warm glass of milk a laid my head down on the pillow.
"Are you okay now?", He said looking down at me as he perched the side on the bed right next to me.
"I'm sorry.. I'm sorry you saw 'that' from earlier. " It wasn't what it looked like", he trailed off looking at me concerned.
His expression told me all what he meant to say.
I felt him use his thumb to wipe a tear away from my cheek.
"When are you going to see Mom and Dad?", I asked realizing my voice going steady.
"Probably this weekend, I'll fly to Mexico",he said.
"Can I go with you?". "Can I?, I asked looking up at him with pleading eyes so he wouldn't leave me behind.
"Sure , you are going with me. " I just want to say I'm sorry for everything",he said again taking my hands in his large ones, feeling a sense of warmness.
"Do you want to go see a therapist?You know... the one who can help you out with your panic attacks",he asked .
"No, I already have a therapist". "He's here..
"Then, why don't we call him over to check on you.
"He is now", I said and he seems to understand who I was referring at the moment .
"I'm not a therapist ",he said and placed the back of his hand on my forehead to check my temperature. I was experiencing some headache here on there.
"Shit, your fever had fled up",he said as he reached the bowl of ice water,dug in a towel and dubbed it on my head, neck to my arms until he felt the temperatureĀ come back to normal. I felt strong again.
"Take a picture, it'll last longer",he said after he had caught me staring.
"Please don't pick up that cheesy line on me, it won't work", I grimacedĀ still studying him. He had strong arms and biceps I hadn't realized before. I wonder if he has a great body under his shirt.
I don't what triggered my lust, but I wanted himĀ at the minute ,this moment.
All this while my focus was on his red lips,plum, small ,cute and kissable.
"You sure you're alright?",he asked.
I want you
Bringing me out of my reverie, I nodded in response .
"I'm good."
"Ok, are you hungry?", he asked ,his deep blue orbs staring into mine.
"No,yes.. I mean yes", I whispered.
"What would you like to eat?", He asked but I didn't know of any meal that comes to mind.
You .
"Right, then let me go make you my favorite, hope you'll love it too", he was about to stand up but before he could, my hand held his tightly not letting him go.
My body's strange reaction.
He turned to look down at me with a confused expression .
"I....", I began to say but couldn't bring myself to say it.
He sat next to me as I swallowed contemplating whether to say it or not.
He raised a brow questioning then his eyes widening looking at something but not on my face. I followed where his eyes was situated to to find my hand on hisĀ hand whichĀ laid on one of my boobs.
He exhaled shakily as he tried to retreat back his hand but couldn't.
I swear I wasn't in control. It's the power of my body.
"Please don't leave me, kiss me", I found the courage to speak.
"Is that what you want?",he askedĀ .
"Yes ", I whispered eager to feel his lips on mine in my lying position.
He removed a tendril of my wavy hair away from my face behind then came close to me.
He laid down beside me facingĀ as he placed his hand on the side of my face,then I felt the heat of his lips getting closer to mine. I have no idea what triggered but as soon as he touched me on the face something like that of a magnetic attraction propelled me to initiate the kiss. I quickly connected lips with him hearing him groan at the back on his throat .Ā My tongue eagerly wanted access to his mouth of which I gained access . He was slow to respond to my kisses but he caught up with me later dominating over.
It wasĀ passionate feeling each other. I run my hands in his thick jet black hair when he kissed me on the neck while I tilted me head to give him more access. I squirmed his fingers brushed past my nipples.
I run my handsĀ on his chest as I began unbuttoning his shirt. I wanted to feel him ,all of him.
I moaned when he kissed me behind my ear touching my sensitive spot .
I opened my legs as heĀ came on top staying in between.
He paused and look at me connecting his blue orbs with my brown ones,then he smirked with his lips plum and swollen.
"I see..someone's in a haste",he said grinning.
My cheeks burned with embarrassment as I averted my gaze feeling shy to look him in the eye as he stared down at me.
"I've longed to do this with you the moment I set my eyes on you ",he said making me wet than I had already been.
Gosh! I can't believe I'm doing this now. Is he worth my virginity?",was the thoughts running in my mind.
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