'He is human too and anytime he could change.'
I stand up and walk away from Tiffany. "What do you mean lost? Yarrow, what do you mean?"
"Sam, she hasn't been home since mom gave birth." I frown absorbing that little information. It's been three days actually since mom gave birth on Friday and now it's Monday. Three days, three days and my sister has not been home.
"Does no one know where she is? I mean she could be with some of her friends, she could be with family."
"Sam, no." I feel his voice break and it occurs to me that he has probably been crying.
"Nobody knows, not even families, not also her friends. Nothing." I can feel my skull turning red from the migraine I can feel breaking in.
"Okay, okay Yarrow calm down."
"No Sam do not tell me to calm down okay, you are out there enjoying life with your boyfriend. Our family is now like a broken glass, you know I do not recognize anybody here anymore, why would you leave us anyway?" I gulp feeling a lump in my throat.
"Yarrow, am sorry," I say to him trying to hold back my tears realizing how everything that went down must have been hard on him.
I wait for him to answer but I do not get a reply, I pull my phone from my ear to only find Yarrow hanging up on me.
I gulp wanting to swallow my tears but I can't. Lord, I raise my hands up to my eyes and let the tears fall down as I stand in the kitchen.
"Samantha." I feel Tiffany coming to me and hugging me.
"Shhh, shhh. Everything will be just fine." Having her arms around me makes me break even more.
Why would God let something like this happen to my family? What did we do to him? Yes we did not go to church every other Sunday but we also did not sin intentionally.
I sob in Tiffany's arms for some time before I feel like tears are no longer there in my eyes. I pull back sniffling. "Sorry," I say embarrassingly. Well, way to go and show yourself to your boyfriend's family.
"Do you want a glass of water?" I just nod my head not being able to look into her eyes.
I hear her withdraw her arms that were around me and step away. I wipe the rest of the tears knowing pretty well, that it's not the time nor the place but it only leaves me with one question.
Where is Sav?
It's three days something to be panicked about? Definitely yes? I mean three days without knowing where someone is and not having a clue about it, it's enough to get people worried.
But damn, I don't even know how the situation is back at home but from what Yarrow sounded like, it's not good there. And if Savannah also had to leave it means things aren't looking good at all.
But where would she go? Last I remembered she colored me the way she wanted. Was I being kicked out of our family not enough?
Or is she having remorse feelings about her actions? But why leave home if she is again?
I gasped realizing that maybe that was it. I unlock my phone and call her phone number but I do not get through either.
"Sam come and sit down." I nod my head and let Tiffany walk me to the living room where we were studying. She hands me a glass of water, I take it and nod my head thanking her.
"Thank you," I say to her but she shakes her head with closed eyes. "No need."
I take a few sips before I put the glass of water back on the coffee table. "I am sorry you had to see me like that." She smiles at me.
"Do you get shy being vulnerable in someone's presence?" I shrug my shoulders at her question.
"I don't know," I answered truthfully. "I…I don't know, you know it's awkward so I…I guess it makes me uncomfortable or probably I think it's the people witnessing getting uncomfortable." She smiles at me.
"Don't worry about it with me, I mean I cry a lot even myself." I quirk my eyebrows in surprise. "You do?"
"Yes," she says again with another smile making me frown in confusion as to what would make her cry. "Boyfriend issues?" I guess making her chuckle.
"No." It becomes a laugh and then suddenly we are laughing together.
"Seriously, what would make you cry?"
She smiles and then bites her lower lip looking anticipated to say anything.
"Okay, you don't have to say anything if you don't want it. Thank you for the water, could we go back to study." I say to her taking a long sip of water and looking at her.
Her smile glows shaking her head.
"I appreciate that and it's not that I don't want to say anything. It's just Mara had this conversation with someone long ago bad mouthing our stepmother and then it got out and all over the media so really the issues with her aren't talked about outside me and my sisters." I nod my head.
"So I got it like this, Amy Daniels is the reason behind your tears and not your boyfriend." She nods her head looking down probably regretting saying anything at all to me.
I look at her and realize I have to offer something if I want to make her feel even.
"Am here because my sister kicked me out of my family."
"What?" I smile at how surprised and so confused she looks.
"Oh, twin sister."
"Hold on, could you say that again." I smile. I took another sip of the water she poured for me.
"My sister kicked me out of my family. I don't know why or what, I just know she made these fake pictures of me having an affair with old men and how I was turning into a slut and had Dad kick me out because I disgraced the Adams family."
She gasps, holding her hands over her mouth. Her eyes wide gazed.
"Oh my God, she did what?" I chuckle at how surprised she still sounds.
"I can not believe you are cool about this, I would never forget it or get past it if my sisters did something like that to me."
"You get over it." She shakes her head vigorously, like she is so sure of herself, and like the idea of even moving past it is ridiculous and so absurd to her. "No, you don't. Have you?"
I feel cornered when she asks me that.
I don't know how I feel about my sister's doings. But just a moment ago when I was told that she got lost I think it's when I've got a change in me I guess.
"I don't know really if am being honest too. I mean I have cried about it ever since and it doesn't even help the situation not knowing her reasons. But when I received a call from my brother that she was lost, it's been three days and they don't know where she is and regardless of all that she has done I could not help but feel worried about her."
She looks at me and just nods her head after some time like she's realized something new. "Samantha you are a good girl." I smile again.
"You know what is funny?" I ask her but she just stares.
"I have always taken you as that good girl. When you came over with your family oh my God, apart from looking like triplets you look so different from the others."
"Really?" She asks chuckling making me chuckle with her too. "Yes, I mean your other sisters have this boogie girl attitude with themselves that you do not." She laughs at that.
"I have to say I a lot of people take us as triplets when we are all together but they do not have boogie girl attitude."
"Hardly to believe."
"You know if you want we can all go out together like us four." I don't hide the disbelief behind my widened eyes.
"Would they want to go out?" She nods her head smiling at me.
"Yes, they would Sam, they are not as bad as you took them. I could ask them what day they are available now and match with yours." I shrug my shoulders.
"Don't bother this quick, just go home and talk it with them there and you know my days are yours except for the weekends but I always don't have something special with them too."
"Okay, I will talk to them then hit you up too. So we go back to studying." I nod my head knowing we can't cover what is left on the curriculum with me always finding reasons to miss even though Tiffany always assures me that we are moving fast but it's better than going slow.
We go back to studying and take it up where we left off.
This time she leaves later than usual.
I do a little cleaning of where we made a mess and head up to take a shower.
It's when am done showering and walking down the stairs that I stop again remembering that my sister left home.
What happened to her? Where would she even go? Is the last semester of our senior year, and we should be starting college soon. My head hurts every time I think of her.
I tried her number one more time only getting the same response as before, I felt sad that my brother would tell me that I did not care, where would he start saying to me that I did not care?
For God's sake I did not leave my family on my will, dad disowned and kicked me out while they all stood there witnessing. I think if there is someone who has the right to be angry at them it should be me.
Me only.
I sigh because in this world I have learned that some things are just beyond our thinking.
I walk to the kitchen to make Kai and me something to have for dinner.
I feel depressed and so sad as I keep thinking about what is going on with me or my family?
I mean what is even the end of this?
What is next after being disowned by your family like mine did?
My family's situation left a hole in me that every time I try to move past it always finds a way of resurfacing and attacking me like now.
"Hello, darling." I turn feeling startled but calming down when I realize it's my beautiful man.
I try to offer him a small smile but I am surrounded by darkness, only the flashlight on my phone is what is providing me with lightness.
"Hey," I say in a small voice. Kai walks around me but not before switching on the lights.
"Are you okay Samantha? You are crying. What happened?" I feel confused.
I raise the back of my hand on my cheeks, it's when I feel tears on my face.
"Samantha what happened when I was away." I shake my head quickly feeling like I am caught doing something that I am not supposed to be doing but maybe.
How do I tell him that it's about my family again?
He must be getting tired of all the family dramas and of all my emotions of me and them.
I turn my head to look at his worried handsome face and just know that if he knows it's something regarding my family that is making me cry he would be annoyed.
I mean I would if it were me regarding his family but my, he is human too, and anytime he could change. If my twin sister was able to do that to me what would hold him back if one day he wanted to change?
I shake my head one last time before muttering in another small voice. "Nothing."
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