Chapter 42 - Can I Kiss you Again

Finishing up lunch I sat and listened to everyone talk" Although everyone was trying to include me in the conversations I just didn't feel like I was a part of the little group. They all sat and talked about the past and telling stories about how some of Jacob West fans , how they threw themselves at Brandon and I looked at him while they talked . The staff talked about how women would sneak into Jacob West dressing room and try to talk selfies and how some would just hide and throw themselves at Jacob while he was undressing. How they would mail there underwear to Jacob with cell numbers pinned to them and even pictures of the wearing the panties they mail. They was laughing at some of the stunts his fans would pull to get closer to Jacob West. And I sit there thinking if he liked when that happened " or did he keep the panties and the cell numbers. Although they only know Brandon as Jacob West I can't help thinking who else he has told his real identity to. If we hadn't met on the plane would he have left me believe he was just Jacob West. Would he keep thst from me like he hasn't told me about some of the things his staff was talking. Brandon kept looking at me and I him" he new my mind was wondering about what his staff was talking or maybe he new what I was thinking . Brandon clears his throat and speaks up okay everyone since lunch is over let's get back to work. We all head back into his studio and pick up where we left off. The Day went even faster after lunch Brandon pretty much got all his tracks don't for his new album. We head to a room so we all could sit and talk about his upcoming appearances, he has a couple concerts coming up and acoupke public appearances. Then he would take a two month break "and finish his album and cut a new record of a song he was working on. Then he would travel almost the entire summer for concerts in twenty five states. We all listened to his itinerary and I hoped that my training would be done before the summer so I didn't have to follow along. Jaxson said that this was just training and then I could go back and manage Stage Revolution full time again. I know that there is alot I don't know and need to learn so I didn't argue with Jaxson for putting me in the lions den. But of course Jaxson had no idea what happened between Brandon and I on the date we went on. And I wasn't going to tell him since they was best friends" I'm sure Brandon had told him anyways. But I hope he didn't that was between he and I. I was stuck in my head with my thoughts when I hear my name being called " yes I'm sorry my thoughts was elsewhere , Brandon looks at me and rises a eyebrow and I ask what was he saying. He repeats what he said and then he tells everyone they can go and thanks everyone for putting in a long day and giving up their weekend. And Brandon assured everyone that the day would reflect a special bonus in the next pay check" and everyone cheers and we get up to leave and I hear Brandon say not you Miss Hughe's I have something to talk to you about. Everyone left the room I stood waiting for Brandon to speak. Nitika you seem off since lunch so be honest with me "tell me what's wrong. Brandon I'm sorry I just been lost in my thoughts " I know he says so please tell me what's wrong. I sigh and rub my forehead and look at him. Is that all true is that what happens to you when you play live concerts I ask" I mean I know women throw themselves at you but do they really hind in your dressing room send you pictures of themselves in the nude or with the panties they send. Yes it's true Nitika it's the life of a rock star Jacob West" and the numbers , the pictures and the numbers do you keep them. Brandon sits down rubs the back of his neck and looks down toward the floor and doesn't say anything for a couple minutes. And I of course think the worst" and start getting discussed with my thoughts. Finally Brandon looks up at me and our eyes meet " Nitika do you really think I would call any of them women or keep the pictures and the panties they send me" I don't know Brandon that's why I'm asking I say with my head down feeling guilty for asking. Nitika he says look at me and he gets up and stands in front of me " he takes his finger and lifts my chin softly to look up at him. Do you think the worst of me Nitika I mean you got to know me I hope a little do you really I would do that" I look into his eyes , Brandon I would hope not and knowing Brandon and not Jacob West no I don't. But I can't help thinking about it " let me put you mind at ease first of all I have told you I am nothing like people say or the tabloids report right " and second I never see any of my fan mail my staff is ordeto throw all that shit away. And thirdly I have told you I only want one girl and that's you. I feel like shit making Brandon explain everything and I even thought any of it was true my thoughts got the best of me. He still has my chin lifted with his finger and I look in his eyes I see hurt and I know he's telling the truth. I'm sorry I say and he hugs me and he tells me I'm forgiven. He holds me close and I can feel his body close to mine , he sent drives me crazy . We stay in the hug for about a minute yhen I try to move away and his hands stay around my waste " Brandon can you let me go I ask and he pulls me closer I look up at him he leans in" I want to kiss you again can I he says. And before I could answer his lips was on mine. I melted in his arms and then I put my arms around his neck and kissed him just as hard back. We break the kiss and I remain in his arms trying to catch my breath" Brandon we can't keep doing this I can't do this I say " and then his lips come done on my lips again wish him whispering shhh. I just stand there in his arms and let him kiss me again" I break the kiss and push him away and I run to the door and I turned to tell him I can't do this Brandon I cant.Then I run out of his mansion and head for the street to get away from him as quick as I can. Brandon sits down in the nearest chair dazed at how Nitika just ran out" i need to go after her I can't loose her. I think I just messed up with her and I may have pushed her away I moved to Fast I shouldn't of kissed her " but I couldn't help myself if I didn't know it before I know it now I'm in love with Nitika.