The day my parents had been waiting for had come. But not me, when I don't wait for the day, it comes fast.
Wearing a stunning gown, put on make-up and well-arranged hair. I look at myself without emotion in front of the mirror. It's only a few minutes, and we're leaving for church. I didn't feel any excitement, I just felt like I was going. I feel so heavy at these times. I feel back to myself because of the knocking of the outside.
“Czes! Come out now, we're heading to church!” Daddy shouted from outside. I let out a deep sigh before standing up and heading for the door. When I opened, Daddy was waiting, wearing his black tuxedo. He was very handsome, elegant standing and waiting for me. If it's really just my marriage, to the person I love and love me. I would have praised Daddy, that's all… It's like I'm waiting for this wedding to take place.
He helps me down the stairs until I get in the car. They were in front of Mommy, we were just quiet the whole trip. No one spoke until they got out of the church. Daddy helped me get out of the car, I held his arm until we reached the opposite door. Gradually the door opened, and the people inside opened up to me. Most are Steve’s family and my family, there are also some from the business world.
I walked slowly while my parents were on either side of me. With each step, I put more weight on my chest. At the end of my walk, he was standing in the altar and waiting next to his older brother. There was just no emotion on his face looking at my behavior.
The priest's ceremony began until the end when we both smiled. Even when kissed the bride, he only kissed me on the cheek. With people's applause, we looked at them all.
There, I saw Nicole slowly clapping to the side while looking at us. She was smiling, but her tears were visible.
Nicole …
I was as if I had been stabbed again because of the pain I was feeling for Nicole. I looked at Steve, there I also saw him staring at Nicole while there were tears on the side of his eyes.
Their eyes were both longing for each other.
Any woman who witnesses the wedding of the person she loves, will be hurt terribly. Especially if the wedding she was watching, was the wedding that was promised to her before.
The pain … The pain of hurting my fellow woman, the pain of seeing her trying to be happy for the person she loves.
Nicole slowly turned away, even before she finally left, she whispered.
I love you …
She mouthed to Steve before she finally turned herself out of the church. When Nicole said that, Steve's tears kept falling. Her fists clenched, restraining herself from following Nicole. I just bent down so that people would not see my warning tears.
I'm sorry…
Until the reception, Steve and I were just quiet. Everything the emcee says we do but just force everything. The joy on the faces of the people here, is the destruction of the two people who sacrificed their love.
“I'm sorry ….” I said softly to the person next to me. He looked at me without emotion.
“It won't change the facts that you ruined my life. Nicole is my life, but she left me because of this stupid wedding. “ He said weakly but with emphasis.
“You know that it's not my intention...”
“You are.” He seriously answer that shock me. “You like me, right?” he smirked.
How?
“Now, you are married to your long-time crush. How is it felt?” He sarcastic question.
How did he know? Shit!
“It's not what you think-”
“Think what? That you planned all of this because you like me?” He smirked, “Regardless of what you do, I will never like you. I will never love you. You can't replace Nicole. Because you're nothing compare to her. You will never be Nicole, you will remember that. You're. Not. Nicole.” He presses as its eyes glaze over at me. “So I'll never like you, even with my last breath. I'll make your life hell!” At once, he leaves.
I was left stunned by where he had been sitting before. Fortunately, the others were just having fun and the program was over. Suddenly, my friend approached me.
“Hey … Are you okay?” She asked.
“A …” I called her. She turned to the guests before I was pulled out of the reception hall. She took me to a garden with a fountain and a big tree. She faced me again with a worried face.
“What happened?”
“Nicole …”
“Nicole? Steve's ex?” I nodded.
“She watched the wedding earlier, and she's crying…” Suddenly, there were tears in my eyes, so my friend hugged me immediately.
“Shh… It's not your fault, it wouldn't be nice if your heart was so soft. How can I be convinced that you can be with your husband?”
“It's hurt A … She's watching the person she loves marrying someone else. She was even able to clap while tears in her eyes, but her lips were smiling. How strong she is … I admired her … She really doesn't deserve this…” I said to Amirah in tears.
I am so hurt for both of them. I won't wonder why Steve is so mad at me.
“But don't always blame yourself. You didn't want it, you didn't plan it. It's not your fault, you're just a victim.” She looked at me again and wiped away my tears. I was about to speak when we stopped at the woman who spoke.
“Can I talk to you?” Amirah and I looked at each other, but eventually, I motioned for A to leave us. Though hesitant, she also followed.
“Why?” I ask.
“I just want to say goodbye properly. I just want to say that … Congratulations.” I looked at her in amazement, she was smiling, but I could see the sadness in her eyes. “I hope you'll be good to each other. I hope… You'll make her happy, even if … I dreamed of that thing with him before. Take care of him. Please don't give in to him, I'm not angry with you. Promise. I understand your situation. But now that you're married, please don't give in to him… He will be able to love you too… Thank you.” She turned around and started walking. I can't speak yet. We were both stunned because of the man watching us.
Nicole looked up and was stunned by what was in front of her. Steve stared at her, later he suddenly hugged her.
“Baby… Sorry… Please … Don't leave me …” Steve pleaded.
“Steve… You're married … Congrats . Promise you'll be a good husband to her, don't make her cry.” Nicole's voice broke at the last word. Steve shook his head as he hugged Nicole tightly.
“No… You are the only one I want . You are the only one … Baby please … That girl and I are only married on paper. But you are the one I love … Baby please .” I was just swallowed up by what I heard and saw.
“You can also learn to love her …” Nicole tried to remove Steve's hug and faced him. Steve's teary face lit up. Nicole touched his face and wiped it with her thumb.
"I want you to be happy, even if I'm no longer with you. I want you to fulfill the promises we made to each other, even if you don't keep mine anymore. I want you to be happy…” she said to Steve as she wiped away her tears.
“But I'm only happy with you … Because you're the one I love … Because you're the one I want to be with for life … Please … Don't let me go right away …” Steve begged.
“I'm the one you love, I know. But, that's all. Be happy, even if it's not as fun as when we were together.” Suddenly, their smiles entered my mind when the two of them were together. “Love her, even if it's not like the way you love me. I'm happy for you… I love you … So much … But everything has a limit… We're done, Steve." She released Steve, whose eyes widened at what he heard. Nicole walked away before Steve realized.
“Nicole!!!” He's shouting at running Nicole. “Baby !!! No, please .” He just got on his knees because of what happened.
I was held to my chest as I watched Steve cry because of his last encounter with Nicole. She really ended her relationship with Steve. I know she made a difficult decision, I know she was hurt. But she faced all of that bravely.
Nicole… I hope I'm just as brave as her… Even though I'm hurt, I'm still facing the problem… Thanks for the tolerance … And I'm sorry … Sorry for the pain … I'm sorry too because I can't promise you what you want because I know Steve can't fulfill what you want either. To love and be happy with each other.