Kat was thinking about the Uber charges, if she was to be moving to work like that she might lack the funds to. If only she had cash, she would have moved closer to the firm and saved every penny she had.
Her expenses were calculated beforehand, that's why she is so much better in budgeting and money related problems. Soon enough she will be living above her living standards, . maybe Uber was just too expensive- a luxury item. She should have included it on the luxury category of her budget.
As long as there was carbon flowing out of her she was going to make it, maybe she would consider taking the public transport in no time. Saves cash in expense of time, comfort and security. She had her share of horror taking a public bus too. Hates to remember that,like all the bad things in her life.
Although calculative on her way, she had to pay for her ride. Last thing she wanted was bitter middle-aged guy shouting at her for some cash as if she was needy, her case was far from there. Maybe in the middle of the month they can try that road.
Two bedroom apartment, nothing too flashy. A couch, 32 inch TV, and a tiny kitchen area. Not all, the walls conjoining the two bedrooms are too thin that she can hear her roommate snore throughout the nights, making it a sh!t ton hard to sleep.
She's a very light sleeper when under pressure. With her current situation it could not be described as sleeping rather than closing her eyes. Everything that happened in the little apartment couldn't escape her – even the wind from the open window.
She has a demanding job now, if she doesn't have the minimal four hours of sleep then she would be f!cked. Coming from sex vegan like her, that doesn't mean anything good. Maybe if she wasn't that uptight.
She's not celibate at all, just that her life had been too messy to have enough oxytocin to raise her sexual desires. She is like a nature's own natural celibate, she hopes to change that one day.
Ana- her roommate - wanted to score her some d!ck, as she said. Kat declined citing that she was not that needy, she wanted to do it herself. Only if she knew what her friend was up to.
She can't use the word abstinence. That is reserved for the sexual beings who said 'no' to sex, it just never have came her way. She has never dated.
Time for the greatest nap was right. Some fake raindrops on the speaker might work the miracles, it had helped her sleep before. Thirty minutes later, the sound is over and still her eyes are wide open.
Maybe it's because of the hot air in the room, she kicks the sheets to try it that way. A couple of minutes later she has to drink some coffee then a cold shower. When all is against her she sets to watch later night news .
Maybe the horrors kept out of daytime news might make her fall asleep. She hated insomnia, it's a cold b!tch. But not as much as she hated sleeping, she never have anything good to dream about.
It's 2:14 AM, she has to find a way to squeeze four hours of sleep before work.
She had been in bed since ten, maybe there was something keeping her away from the dream land. Most people use it to see the great life that could have been but to her it's just another nightmare, shittier than her life. A dreaming hell perhaps.
She hardly remembers a day she was up smiling or with a happy thought. She wakes up screaming, sweating, shocked and jumping. Trying to escape from whatever she saw there. Mainly her past.
She thought about her new job, Priya – her first new friend- and what to expect from it. Worse, she thought about Jen. That cold perfect b!tch was all over her thoughts, she needed to find a way to defeat her.
Being more productive and closer to Gunn meant more money, better life and maybe a nicer apartment. She would kill to sleep one night with no snores waking her up. Her roommate is the worst of them all, she even talks about her day. That is the only thing Kat likes about her night. She gets to hear Ana's dirty thoughts.
Ana- her roommate – was late today. Night out with her friends perhaps, she thought. Finally! She had the room all to herself to get the adequate sleep she had been missing. Only that it was not coming her way.
Since she started looking for the new job, insomnia was her pal, they reminded each other of the pitiful life and how she would be kicked out of the apartment. When it let her go she hoped to never close her eyes ever again because of her horrible nightmares. Today was her day, to have revenge sleep.
Around eleven, she was gathering some sleep . That's when Ana tiptoed in on fours, she guessed it was her beta . At least someone in the room had a life going on. Ana went straight to bed.
She had to suffer for three minutes listening to then get into it, she tried covering her ears. Ana makes noise a lot doing that, Kat let her ears go then waited for the quick race to be over. Maybe the Flash-kind of love they make could make her fall asleep. She hopes to have a better sex life, although not sure how long the act should last .
They slept leaving her awake, who said rich and busy people don't sleep? She wasn't either of those.
After she was fed up with shocking late night news she gave it a last shot. Some smooth tracks would transfer her soul to the dream world. As she thought, it work.
×××××××××}
Kat have spent years asleep but as far as she can remember she hardly have a normal REM sleep and waking up. There is always something pushing her out of the dream, as if it despised her presence.
Today's morning was not different, she was being shouted at. They all were reminding her that money was not hers, there was Jen's face to it as prove of ownership- just like the modern day notes. She tore it apart before waking up, Jen gave her a good b!tch slap. It felt real.
What money were they fighting about? Was it really all about money? She had to let it go, she hardly cares about the nightmares. They are a part of her, without them she would have forgotten about her past, where she comes from.
Ana was up as well. She and her mate took a long shower making Kat more pissed. She knew what the chances were that the two were getting hardy. She never admits her admiration and jealousy towards Ana because of her sex life. She never agrees that she needs the D as much and only keeps thinking of the prince charming who will give her his attention.
Ana would have helped her find a body. She works at the depot of sex- the bar. Maybe she already was finding her one . She had to wait for him to ask her out.
About fifty minutes later, she was on her way, she did her day's routine like magic. It was already a quarter past seven , she got her four hours and some sloppy minutes added to it. It's as good as it gets in her world.
Although walking like a zombie, she was awake right on time. There was just so much she wanted to accomplish in her second day to make it to the top and nothing would stop it, not even insomnia.
If there was time she could have boarded the public bus but she needed to be in the office as early as it gets, dedication works wonders.
××××
Jen goes to bed by nine each night. Before that she does night routine like any other girl. She also texts friends of her friends to make sure Gunn is home or at least safe. If he isn't she can sleep after she had made sure he was. No matter how many hours it may steal from her routine.
Tonight, she was up thinking about something. She had done a terrible mistake once again. If Gunn was to know about it he would feel betrayed. It started two months ago and ran it's course.
It is a reputation of something she had done before. When it happened, Gunn almost had a mental breakdown. It really took a toll on him, his company and their relationship. She ended it tonight, only after it had gotten too far. She could smell the danger, maybe even craves the thrill of it. Why else would she repeat this?
She thought hard about it. If to tell Gunn or hope for him to never know. She knew he knows everything about her life, as she does with his. There was no way of stopping what was going to happen - only hope for it to be delayed.
Her heart was hurting, a feeling she would rather have than have numbness. It makes her feel alive, without the threat maybe she would be gone by now. Gunn will never understand that. She doesn't wish for him to understand anything.
She felt his range from afar. His concerns too. Only that it was hard to filter out what he had wanted her to do. She was human also, he tends to forget that bit. She closed her eyes and let pain strike her heart. By morning she was to act as if nothing ever happened.
,××××
Jen's alarm went off around five. She took a shower and minutes of meditation. She had been doing that since childhood, tried to recruit Gunn to that but he fell. Even now he can lie about it if asked.
She has outfit for each day ready for the entire week in advance. Only to pick something new each day. She looked at the mirror and whoever behind that was beautiful. She picked a diamond necklace to complete the look.
Her breakfast was brought in. She works on a tight timetable. Her breakfast is brought in exactly six and she leaves around six thirty for a ten minutes drive. She hardly changes anything.