I want you to know something...
Sometimes.. leaving someone, neglecting someone, pushing them away to a place where even your Hate can't reach..
Doesn't always fix your broken heart, your traumatized soul, your overtaking anxiety, and it truly doesn't stop you from hurting.
The moment you may let go, is the moment that will break you more than anything,
Your broken heart, shatters at ever thought of them. Your traumatized soul misses the warmth and care their soul provided. Your overtaking anxiety, makes you over think upon every bit of them left. your hurting evolves to internal silence.
And you still haven't made up with them?
It gets better. Trust me.. it may hurt but not everything is everlasting the pain and so on will wrap around your heart and slowly sink until your heart is fixed it won't be the same as the old one but it will be something. you'll again feel love and hate, pain and sorrow, heal and be you!!
please bear with your self, it's gonna be fine, trust the creator of this life:)
take care:)