someone said to me,
"if it hurts, let it hurt, it's meant to. don't try to act strong.."
"but if I let it hurt it eats me up, I won't be me! will I?"
I replied.
they spoke.
"you will be a stronger version of you, what happens is meant to happen. Don't fight the feeling, you'll only sink deeper."
that's when I realized it's okay to feel this way and it's okay to cry laugh and not act accordingly to the circumstances, at the end patience is what a strong human holds.
Embrace this feeling get used to it. Play the game and crash it.
:)