I'm here right now in front of the sea watching the sunlight. I left there after eating. Maine is good in everything, she can do everything.
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I don't know what I'll do now, maybe I won't think about what's happening outside of this island. This is my chance to relax and think about myself first. Yanyan is right, that I shouldn't think about our enemies because it will only harm my children. And I don't want that to happen.
I sat on the sand while watching the sunrise. I smiled while looking at it. What a sight to behold.
I just watched it as it rose and rubbed my stomach. I couldn't get the smile off my lips. I felt like someone suddenly kicked my stomach so I immediately looked at it.
I laughed weakly because of so much fun. I couldn't take my eyes off my stomach as I felt them kick inside my stomach. I felt so happy even though they were still inside my stomach. I can't wait to see you, my children. When that happens I will probably be the happiest mother in the world.
I promise you that I will do everything I can to give you a quiet and peaceful life. I promise that to you children.
I laughed because I feel that they are very mischievous. I can't stop smiling because of my children. Maybe when they get out, they will be my strength and life.
After a while, they also stopped so I smiled while rubbing my stomach. I breathed a sigh of relief and got up to walk along the shore.
I fixed myself and started walking. I put my two hands behind me while looking at the sand.
I was just walking when someone suddenly spoke behind me so I stopped and looked at it. I saw Yanyan standing there smiling at me. I also smiled at him. He came to my side and walked with me.
"Good morning, were you here earlier?" he greeted me.
I didn't look at him and just answered while looking straight ahead.
"Good morning too, Brother. By the way, yes I thought about walking around alone," I answered.
He didn't speak and just walked with me. We arrived at a hut so we sat there first.
"Did you eat?" he asked in wonder.
I looked at him and shook my head at his question. He frowned and shook his head.
"Okay fine, do you want me to cook your food for you? what do you want to eat?" he asked.
I smiled and shook my head. I don't feel like eating now, maybe later.
"No need, it's okay. I'm still full," I said smiling.
I heard him sigh softly and sit next to me. I can see the sea here and the air is very fresh. The wind that touched my skin was also cold.
The two of us just watched the sea in silence. Neither of us tried to speak. I won't say anything to him and maybe he doesn't intend to tell me what his thinking is either.
I know Yanyan, when he knows he can solve it, he won't tell me because he doesn't want me to think about it anymore. They are all the same, they care about me so much. I love them even if I don't show it but I know that they feel my love.
I can't stop smiling and looking at the sky. If only grandfather and grandmother were here, maybe they would be happy because I will have children. And they are even more excited to see their grandchildren, just because they are gone. Yanyan and I lost our feelings early. If it wasn't for our enemies, that wouldn't have happened, I wouldn't have lost the two people most important to me. We would have been happy together. But they deprived my children of losing their grandfather and grandmother.
I will make sure they pay for everything they did to our family. But I will prioritize the people who made me miserable. Do they think I have forgotten what they did to me? I'm just resting, I'll let you have fun, just wait for my return.
I came back to myself when someone tapped my shoulder. I looked to see who it was and Yanyan's frowning face appeared in front of me.
"What are you thinking, it looks deep," he asked in wonder.
I smiled bitterly and looked at where the sea was. I felt his hand on my other shoulder so I leaned against his chest.
"I just remembered grandpa and grandma, how are they? I miss them so much," I whispered softly.
I heard him sigh softly and comb my hair with his hand.
"I'm sure they're happy now because we're together. And I also know that they are in a good condition now, so don't think about it because my nieces and nephews might still be sick," he said.
I looked up at him and our eyes met. He smiled while looking at me so I smiled too.
"I miss them too, but maybe we have to accept that they are really gone, but you will always remember that no matter what happens, I will be here with Black, Red, Dark, and Blue by your side," he added.
I smiled sweetly and looked at the sea. He is still doing what he is doing and combing my hair with his hand.
I felt joy in my heart because I knew for myself that they will not leave me no matter what happens. I am so happy because I have them who are willing to take care of me and love me more than themselves. Willing to risk their lives just for my safety. So I promise that the time will come when I will give my life for the people I love.
We were just looking at the sea with the same position. I felt comfortable next to Yanyan, that's not new to me because when he's with me I feel safe with me and my children.
I'm happy because I have a cousin like him. I am ready to please, take care of, and love. I'm so lucky to have him in my life.