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Chapter 37 - Realization

WILLIAM'S POV

I forgot the last time I had a moment alone when I took care of my duties as an estate manager. Alphonso's situation isn't getting good, either. I could hear Sarah cry whenever I brought food for her to eat. Alex and Philip aren't doing much great either; both of them are stubborn like a bull. I know Alex is just a kid, but Philip's coping mechanism is to either fuck me, go to work, and, lastly, smoke which I already told him that I don't like one bit.

My words were in vain, and he continuously enquired about when I would get to the doctor and get my blood check-up done. My aunt came around to help me a few times when the house was packed with visitors like friends and family.

Mrs. Harrison also gave me a few pointers as to how to manage the estate. It's Sunday, and I know the house will be more filled than yesterday.

"Is Philip up yet?" I asked the servant.

"No, ma'am," He replied.

"Oh, for God's sake,"

I was in the Garden giving instructions to the Gardner on what to plant this summer. Mrs. Harrison gave beautiful flower seeds to plant that'll bloom in springtime.

After everything was done to my liking, I decided to wake Philip myself because it was 1:00 pm.

"Ma'am, the delivery of fresh fruits and vegetables is here," A servant said from behind me.

I stopped in my tracks, "Place them in the freezer."

Doctors have put Alphonso on a ventilator for 30 days; according to his Will, they'll take out his life support if he doesn't wake up in 30 days.

The upper portion of the mansion where my room is, it's mostly a living space rather than the lower portion, which was mainly comprised of a dining and drawing area.

I opened my room door to find Philip fully naked, sleeping on his stomach. The whole room was a mess and needed a thorough cleaning, and that could only happen when he woke up.

"Philip, wake up," I told him, taping his shoulder.

He turned around and opened his eyes, "I'm tired. Let me sleep."

"Philip, don't be a child. People might start coming at any moment." I said to him.

He grabbed my wrist and pulled me into the bed with him.

"I'll wake up when I fuck you," said Philip.

I can feel his hard cock against my back, "Philip, don't be a child. Wake up; there are many things to do."

"Forget about everything; remember your utmost important duty is to me," He said.

Philip lifted my skirt and took down my panties. He took out the plug he had put in last night when he came home from work.

"You say that you don't like it, but your pheromones tell me a different story," Philip said, rubbing his cock on my hole.

He entered his finger inside me, and I moaned; Philip said, "Your hole is filled with juices."

Philip's mouth was on my neck, kissing and licking my skin. He entered his second finger inside, and I came.

"Your hole is twitching. I want to fuck it so hard," Philip said, constantly digging my hole through his finger.

He took my hand and put it over his cock, and his girth was more significant than my hands. "Put it inside your hole," Philip commanded.

He took out his fingers and told me to put his cock inside my hole.

I grabbed his cock and struggled to take it by myself. Philip saw me flounder and guided my hand. I could feel his tip on my pink hole.

"Philip, you put it in," I said to him, embarrassed and frustrated by this predicament.

And in a moment, Philip thrusts his cock deep inside of me. I couldn't help but moan in the pleasure and pain that I was feeling.

He put his hand on my mouth to lower my voice. He started to ram his cock faster with each thrust inside me.

I was getting used to him shoving his cock inside my stomach, and after a minute of thrusting, I started to feel his cock rubbing against my stomach.

"William, release your pheromones. I want to fuck you more," Philip said.

I released my pheromones, and Philip did the same. My mind couldn't help but moan in pleasure as Philip's rhythm became more prominent, stretching my hole.

...

"If you're done, go and wash up. I need to see if the lunch is ready," I said to Philip, hugging me from behind while I patched up my makeup.

"I love you so much," He said, burying his face in my neck.

"I love you too, sweetie," I replied, patting his head.

"Your uncle Boris is coming today," He said.

"I know Aunt Lily called me to inform me," I told him.

"Why can't you just spend the rest of the day with me on the bed," He asked.

"I'll spend the day when we'll have no visitors coming," I said to him, now facing him. "I know you don't want to talk about it, but I'll do anything for you to be okay."

"How did I get so lucky?" Philip asked.

"It wasn't luck, sweetheart; it was our fate," I told him. I was giving him a little kiss on the lips.

He held my hand and stared at them for a minute, and said, "When I first saw you cry, my heart was filled with guilt, and I wanted to make you mine even if I had to control and put a restraint on myself. Eventually, I succeeded in making you love me and be with me for the rest of my life, and on the day we got married, I decided to give you my heart. Now my heart is yours to break."

"When I put on the ring you gave me, I was sad that I would be only your wife and nothing else, but that all changed when I decided to go on our first date, and I didn't know that I was falling in love with you. I look back and laugh at how naive I was about love because the love you gave me became superior to other loves, and now seeing you like this makes me worry that our love might fade." I said to him and left the room.

A tear dropped from my eye, and my heart filled my sorrow because it was confirmed that after learning about Honeymoon, his behavior had changed significantly, and I didn't know how to change it. He is my everything now; I must serve him for the rest of my life. I hope he gets back to normal.

PHILIP'S POV

Hearing William say he made me realize how ignorant I have become after learning about my father's condition. I have to pull myself together for him and my siblings and show them I am there for them if they need anything.

I am Philip Harald, and I have the responsibility my father has given me, like his father before, to care for everyone. I couldn't just let William take all the burden by himself.

I looked at the mirror and decided what needed to be done. I got in the shower to clean myself and put on the clothes William had taken out for me.

I wore denim jeans and a cream shirt and threw a dark blue sweater on top of that. I did my hair and put on a friendly smile for my wife.

I walked downstairs and saw William arranging the flowers. He saw me and smiled. I could see that he had cried earlier.

William stopped working and looked at me with admiration. I also couldn't help but smile at him because of my love for him.

I opened my arms and held them out. William walked to me and hugged me.

"I'll be a better husband from now on," I told him.

"Thank you," He replied.

"You don't have to say thank you. Thank you for making me realize what I was doing was wrong," I said, cupping his cheeks to kiss him.

He blushed and pulled away in embarrassment because all the servants and workers were waiting for him to give the order.

"Is there any work for me?" I asked.

"Yes, why don't you see how Sarah is doing?" He said.

"What about Alex?" I asked him.

"Alex is already busy, and I'll take care of him. Why don't you go and see how Sarah is doing?" He replied.

"Okay, Ma'am," I said to him and kissed him before seeing how Sarah was doing.

I arrived at her room and knocked on the door.

"Go away. I don't want to eat anything," her voice came from the room.

"It's my kiddo," I said, awaiting her response.

After some time, she opened the door. She was dirty and peeking behind her, and I can say that her room was also not cleaned for a few days.

"Can I come in?" I asked her.

"If you want to." She said that and left the door open.

She lay on the bed with her phone and scrolling around on her mobile. I opened the light, and she growled in discomfort.

"So, what are you doing?" I asked her.

"Nothing, just taking a vacation," she replied.

She is still not sitting or standing, just lying down and using her mobile.

"Even if Father were not here, I'd be here for you, right?" I asked her.

"You weren't there for me when I needed you," she said, still not looking at me.

I sat beside her and put my hands on her shoulder. She shrugged my hand, and I knew I was responsible for that.

"I knew I wasn't being a good brother or anything at all, but I can promise you now that I'll do anything in my power to do right by your side..."

To be continued.