Jas's POV
I told Sanhyul that Clare is here and if he wants, I can bring her here.
"Yeah Sure, bring her in," he replied.
I was about to leave, when he held my hand and pulled me towards himself. I was so close to his face that I could even feel his breath on my face. He smells like mint, intoxicating and fresh. He held my cheek and made me look at him.
What am I doing here? Why is he doing this and most importantly, why do not I want to leave from his grip. I like the way he was holding me, so careful, so soft. Everything seems hazy and he is the only one I could see. I have never seen Sanhyul like this.
"By the way, did you enjoy the view?" I could see a mischievous grin on his face.
This is the same expression he always has when he teases me. Yes, I get annoyed when he teases me but I miss him when he doesn't.
Oh God! I can feel my heart beating like crazy. I don't even know what is happening with me. Sanhyul has never affected me like this before but recently, he makes me feel different. I swear the way he is staring into my eyes, I could feel my heart jump out of my chest. Can he hear my heartbeat too? I was so embarrassed, so I just pushed him a little to get away from his embrace and went to call Clare. He is handsome. He always was but I have never thought Sanhyul more than my friend. But this was something different. This feeling is something different. And I don't think this is only about today. Something has changed between us since the day we were walking in that park. This feeling is new for me. I don't know what this is and I don't know if I want to figure this out now.
I like that finally Sanhyul is opening up now, trying to share his feelings, smiling, happy. His happiness and our friendship is important for me and I don't want anything to mess that up. I like the way things are now.
"Let's not think about it now", I said to myself.
So, I took a long breath, assembled all my thoughts and put them somewhere in the back corner of my mind.
"Clare, let's go. He is in the music room".
We went to the music room.
He asked me to sit on the couch and he sat in front of us, precisely 'in front of me'. Our toes were almost touching. I sat there without saying anything. What has happened to him? Why is he doing this?
Leaning a little forward, Sanhyul asked, "Do you guys want to drink something?"
"I will have a Coke," Clare replied.
He was about to stand up. I held his hand, "You sit, I will get the drinks".
I went quickly to bring the beverages. I bought 2 cokes for us and water for Sanhyul. I just wanted to leave from there to breathe some air. Seriously, has he gone crazy? But, I can't deny that I don't like this attention from him. Atleast, I should be true to myself.
I went back and sat in the same place. But, this time he didn't try to touch my feet with his toes.
"Clare, what do you want to listen to? It's your first time listening to Sanhyul play." I asked Clare and Sanhyul was fine with it.
I guess maybe it would be better if Sanhyul and Clare can be friends.
"Okay, Can you play 'Something like this' by The Chainsmokers. I love them" Clare said excitedly.
Sanhyul didn't say anything, he just nodded, tuned his guitar and played whatever song Clare and I requested. In between, he would look into my eyes and I could feel that tingling sensation again. His voice, his eyes, his fingers strumming the guitar so gracefully, I am never going to get bored of this even if I have been his audience since we were children. I always get mesmerized by this view.
At the end, he played 'Perfect by ed sheeran', my favorite and all that time he was looking at me without losing our eye contact. I felt as if there was no one between us, around us and no one else even matter. I missed this, I missed those times when I used to listen to him live for hours. He has always played PERFECT for me only and this makes me feel special somehow. We left after having some conversations and I am happy that Sanhyul and Clare could get along now. Actually, I am glad they can be in the same room without killing each other.
Clare was staying over as usual.
"Hey Jas, do you like Sanhyul?" She suddenly asked.
"It's like you were so mesmerized when he was singing and I wouldn't blame you for that. He looked kind of hot then and I am not denying that", she added.
"Shut up. There is nothing like that Clare. It's just that since we were kids, I have always been mesmerized by his voice and let me tell you, I was his first audience. He played his first song in front of me only. He was so adorable back then. So, shut up, we are just close friends and I cherish our friendship more than anything", I replied Clare thinking about those days when Sanhyul was so cute. He used to be grumpy all the time but he looked so adorable as well.
She didn't ask anything anymore, just nodded,"hmm".
But, something changed between me and Sanhyul. Why do my heart beats faster whenever I think about him.