I stood there, speechless, lost and confused. I was still trying to figure out if this was an illusion or real?
"Jocelyn,are you okay?"Milo asked
"Huh? Yeah. I'll be right back"I said, excusing myself
I went towards Xavier's direction and saw him with a bevy of ladies.
"I told the cashier,I had no gun on me. It just a corn dog"He said
The ladies laughed at Xavier's joke.
"Um, Xavier?"I said, calling his name softly
"Hey Jocelyn. Excuse me ladies,I'll be right back"He said
He pulled me by the wrist and took to the corner of the room.
"It looks like you've fully recovered. Your ankle looks perfectly fine to me"I said
"You look amazing. Your dress looks good on you. It actually brings out those beautiful eyes of yours"He said, holding my shoulder
I quickly removed his hands with anger and looked at him furiously. He was trying to change the subject.
"You know I kind of felt bad for you tonight. I had wished we would come together like the couple we are but since you have a sprained ankle,I came alone. Feeling pitiful"I said
"Jocelyn,I can explain"He said
"Okay. Go on. I'm listening"I said, waiting for his explanation
"I...I...I..."He stammered
"You what? Aren't you ashamed of yourself?"I said,not withholding my anger
"Look who's talking?"He said
His response shocked me and left me speechless. His tone towards me changed.
"Just because you're my girlfriend,you think can boss me around like you want. You thought I'm like those guys girls like you can boss around but you thought wrong. Besides,who will be dumb enough to fall for a girl like you? You are not even as pretty as the others girls have been with"He said proudly,not caring if his words hurt my feelings
"If I'm not as pretty as you say I'm,then why did you lie to me? Why did you play with my emotions? Eh Xavier? Answer me!"I said
He didn't say a word and turned his head to another direction.
"Tell me Xavier! Why did you do it?"I said angrily, demanding an answer from him
"Because Brianna paid me to do it. There,I said it! Are you happy now? Does that answer your question?"He said
I was shocked, speechless and confused. I was processing a lot emotions but they all got jammed. I didn't know what to say.
"You what? You only pretended to love because Brianna told you to? This is unbelievable!"I said
"What choice did I have? I didn't want to ruin our deal"He said
"Deal? What deal?"I asked,eager to know the business he had with Brianna
He remained silent again and buried his hands in his pocket. His silence was making more angry than I'm already.
"What deal did you have with her? Answer me!"I said
"She hired me to be your boyfriend so that she could get revenge for what you did to her"He said, hitting the nail on the head
I was completely shattered. My heart fell from my rib cage and broke into a million pieces. Am I dreaming? Was I stuck in a nightmare or something? I couldn't breathe. Tears ran down my cheeks, flowing non stop. It was accompanied by the mascara I applied earlier.
"So...all this time our love was based on a lie? Is this real or am l dreaming? I can't believe you would do something like this to me. Brianna,yes but you? And to think you were in love with me the whole damn time. You made me fall for your tricks. You made me believe you were different from the other players. I was blinded by your lies. I didn't want to believe what other said about you, hoping that one day you will change and be a better person. But it looks like I was wrong. Claudia was right about you. Once a player, always a player. You're just like the rest; deceitful; vicious: cunning; heartless..."I said, pouring out the anger in my heart
"I'm not a saint missy. I was only doing my job"He said
"And what about that note you wrote for me? Was it Brianna's idea? The blindfold,art studio, detention,were they all her ideas too?"I said
He remained silent and didn't say a word. His silence confirm my suspicions were true.
"You must have spent hours online, searching up those words. You know,everytime I remember that note I always had a smile on my face. I cherished it dearly. But knowing what it really meant makes me despise it. I gave you my heart,my time and love and threw it down the drain because of money. You finally helped her succeed. I thought you were on my side,not knowing you were working for the devil this whole time"I said, filling my heart with hate
"Well I'm sorry if that hurt you. But what I can say? You can't teach a dog new tricks"He said without any sign of remorse
"I hate you Xavier Martinez! I hate you! And will never forgive you for what you did to me. Never!"I said, breaking down in tears again
"Oh Xavier,I've been looking all over for you"Brianna said as she approached him
"I didn't know you had company. Otherwise I wouldn't have bother to come"She said, happy to see the state I was
"I told you, didn't I? That I'll have my revenge and surely pay you back where it hurts the most. I didn't want to you to find out like this. I was expecting it in with a large audience but this will do fine. Now you know that no one messes with me and goes away with it easily. What's mine is mine and can never be yours. You can enjoy yourself now. I already got what I wanted. C'mon babe, let's go and take some pictures"She said, locking her arm with his
I left them, trying hard to control my tears. My world was completely shattered by Xavier's betrayal. The light inside of me turned off, forcing me to stay in darkness. I became lifeless. I wished the earth had opened up and swallowed me. I left the auditorium without informing Owen or Claudia about my departure. I strolled home, reliving the awful moment I had with Xavier. Just then,it began to rain. People ran for shelter while I remained under the rain. I sat down on the wet sidewalk, alone, reliving Xavier's exact words and crying my heart out. I didn't mind the crash of thunder or the flash of lightning. I was too sad to be afraid. I couldn't feel any emotions except for hate,anger and sadness. I became numb. I used to know love but now,I no longer do.