It was a bright day everything was going nicely when it seemed like something was wrong with my partner it was solo he was a very frightened by presence so I eased him with ignorance my words will have a suspicious effect which I didn't want.
It was all well until break when I returned from PE and I saw a guy manhandling solo.
I barged in and put solo behind me and told the guy to fuck off he didn't so gave him a bit of my fist 👊 it kinda felt good.
I turned to solo and asked him if he was okay he was relived and took my hand and cried on chest it woke something in me but at that moment Adam came and punched it was not the punch but his expression that broke it was disgust but I have had this look from my father.
It was painful ,Gero had Adam but I had benn broken again I made a promise never to ever trust anyone anymore nor to feel this despair again so I just held my feeling and tears back.
I just left without giving any explanation I went to search for places I would want after such incidents and where I would feel safe and where I heart could be kept and no would find it.
I took to the most deserted places and made up a place in a forest place and bought some essentials and nowbi sat down and used my will power to make it unreachable by any means.
I took large amount of energy but managed to do it I hated the magic becoz it belongs to my family.And anything that comes from that place is not acceptable to me. But here I am forced to use it .
I felt a very powerful pain shoot up in my waist so I went to bathroom to check it was my old wound that broken open and was bleeding and had stained my shirt so I cleaned it and then quietly on the rooftop I bandaged it but it was very bad I could sense sleepless night and painful day ahead.
I stayed there and I needed something sweet to fill the pain and my tears and my the void in my heart.
I cannot let this affect my career and my chances of freedom I took three painkillers and applied aesthetic gel on my waist area.
Then I took my bag and went to work when I came back the guys were sleeping but I knew I won't get sleep today so I took so wine and went to rooftop. I sat drinking and pondering over everything that happened so next time I was gonna ignore the person and I was going play safe.