"Are you also a wolf dog?"
The moment Jayden took a step into the university dorm, since his a fourth year student he decide against having roommates and focus on getting used to living alone. Shit, now he sounds like a sad sack.
"Werewolf but most prefer the term shifter. And yes I am." - Jayden
Shifter… Werewolf… What in the Twilight fuck? If he knew that team Jacob was an option he would have tried to manifest that shit decades ago… What the fuck is this? Is he really considering a relationship fragmented with another being from another species group of sort? Okay his head hurt he need his thinking juice, going to his tiny refrigerator and retreated four beers.
"Mmm. What about Leo and Gab?"
His best friend just nod and he took a large swig of his own beer, giving him time to process this whole messed up shit. If he didn't see Jack shift he was going to laugh at this insanity and moved on but his majestic wolf was still engraved in the useless part of his brain that hopped he come back.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"It's against pack policy. Jack got lucky he had a good reason to come out and tell you the truth."
"Which is?"
He was starting to feel the buzz… and Jayden is dangling information he desperately needed to know for weeks now, his so tipsy to he reach for it he might fall but he didn't care.
"You are his fated mate, it is an honor bestowed upon us. It is something my kind value as a triumphant gift from the goddess herself, blessing us with our fated mates. Uh, you are his one and true love in a way. I love you as a brother but humans have always failed to understand this type bond, so I did expect it to fail in one way or another."
It only failed because he left! Is it insane and unbelievable, of course!? But there was a time he loved Jack more than the breath he took. The ass left and gave him the greatest gift ever… He taught him how to live without him. He took a long swig drowning what he wanted to say.
"Ouch, that was deep… Moving on… Why did he leave?"
He joked but his mind was as sober and his need for an answers opened his ears for reason.
"I do not know. I guess you will have to ask him that question. *Sigh* I guess he was not ready to bring you into our world. I guess you were both too young to understand the commitment involved in these type of bonds. In a way I guess he was depriving himself from true happiness to allow you to live your human life. Leam… we were all too young to know what settling down actually means, hell he was sixteen… I am sure you understand how very selfish he could have been, right?"
*****
Yeah right… There was that too… It wouldn't have changed anything they already had sex… it was on his birthday. Jack celebrated his birthday on the beach, Leam got hammered to the point he could ignore the very wrong feeling he had for his handsome junior. He got drunk to the point he couldn't walk any more, he was at that stage where the only surroundings he could pay attention to was around him…
That night was the night he understood the consequences of drinking alcohol… poor decision making. That night Jack took him home as he did he spoke a whole lot of gibberish. He took him to his family home and for three nights his parents were out of town for some business meeting wherever, it happened years back he forgot some details. The point is Jack took him home, to his bedroom, his bed and one thing led to another and he ended up bottoming for the kid. Crazy right? No, what was crazier is that he didn't hate it. Sure he freaked out a whole lot but he didn't hate the entire experience.
He remembers waking up violently sick… Remember the consequences he was taking about? The alcohol was the worst consequence, he woke up but he did not realise that he was not alone on his bed. Bile stirred and his stomach cramped up, he quickly got up and winced in fuckin pain. Fortunately his reflex system did not give him the luxury of evaluating where he hopes the sting did not come from. Hauling in the bathroom, he hauled until there was nothing to vomit. A hand offered him some green concoction and rubbed his back, he flushed the toilet before taking the weird looking thing.
'What is this?'
'Trust me… You don't want to know, just drink it at once and your hangover will feel better.'
He studied the drink given by the stranger with a beautiful voice and he drank the mixture that weirdly tasted like nothing but nothing he wanted to drink.
'Ew… That tastes off… Thank-"
He faced the handsome boy who was half naked. Leam immediately got up and winced annoyed once more… What the fuck is this pain?! He looked down at himself… Why the hell is he just wearing boxers?! His eyes widened and he crossed his arms taking painful steps back, praying in vain nothing happened between them. That is his best friends little brother, although he is almost two years older than the kid he still felt like some kind of pedophile.
'Leam.'
Thankfully his head was no longer swarming, his body hurts but his hurt wasn't really unpleasant. What the actual fuck, he actually let his crush have sex with him? Damn all he has to remember his first is snip bit of his intoxicated memory. Leam focus! This is Jayden's little brother, this has to be some sort of friendship violation.
'Leam… Leam."
Argh his so confused… He didn't hate this. Leam collected his toiletries and slowly stumbled to the bathroom, running the shower. He numbly closed the door on his best friend's brother, honestly he remembers going through the motions. He remembers Jack still being there downstairs with a table of food and a beautiful innocent smile on his face. They were both drunk, a mistake happened and no one got hurt. He reasoned, desperately trying to console his guilt ridden soul and the worst part was the fact he still wanted him.
'Go shower… I left everything you will need by the guest bathroom.'
Without a second glace he sat down still trying to process everything. It didn't help that he felt kinda giddy to know that his crush is in his house and his here because they had sex. Common focus. His actions could have led to him losing a good friend, was it really his fault though? Yes, his older he should have done something… What, ask for more? He likes Jack so he would have probably asked for more… Argh his thoughts are so wrong…
'Leam, why are you crying?'
Is he crying? What the fuck is wrong with him? He touched his check and felt his tears and instantly wiped every sign of weakness. It is enough vulnerability that he let his junior fuck him, his not going to cry in front of him too.
'Leam…'
'Don't touch me… I'm fine. Eat.'
'I want to talk about what happened yesterday.'
Oh shit did he hate it? Does he hate him? He would have totally understood because he in a way took advantage of junior… Shit Jayden is going to hate him for taking advantage of his younger brother, hell he hates himself for that.
'No need I was wrong and I do sincerely apologies. I will take full responsibility for last night, if it is not too much to ask… Please don't hate me.'
'No need to apologies, last night I was at fault too… I wanted you.'
Whaaat? His attention flew back to the handsome features that did not hate him for what happened but instead confessed he wanted what happened, to have happened.
'I am in love with you and have been since I saw you, last night with you confessed you have the same feelings I was over joyed.'
Shit this is worse than he imagined, he confessed to this handsome soul and had sex with him. Now he was crying, his such an idiot… Wait did Jack just say his in love with him?
'All I ask is for permission to pursue you, I love and want you to be in my life forever.'
Right there, a lie. Of course they only dated down the line but that's when his 'forever' lie started. They gazed into each other's eyes and all he remembers thinking is that… He lost his heart the night before and with that realization he cried. Fuck he despised this weakness, he hated the fact he will have disappoint a lot of people. What he despised more was he lost the first day met… oh, does he miss those years of asexuality.
*****
"Why did he leave? After everything, why did he not trust me?"
"Leam hears a harsh fact, it is not just about you. Understand the significance in the story, Jack shifted for the first time and that transformation is not the easiest process. That's when a wolf awakens for the first time. Let me give you examples to understand this more… when you wake up after a long nap, you wake up hungry right (he nods)? Good. Now say for example there is a plate of universal food in front of you but the person that prepared the food does not understand the hunger gives you a portion that will never be enough. Now I have a morality question for you… Do you steal the dish regardless of the knowledge?"
Leam did not really understand where Jayden was going with using food as example but if he were put in such a situation…
"No. I wouldn't steal the food especially not after they gave me a portion. What is the point of this story?"
"My point is… The first thing his wolf must have wanted after awakening, is you. He must have been overwhelmed by the deep, dark and draining urges to mark you, fuck you and keep you. You had already given him your heart, love that he decided it best to protect you from himself. I am not trying being biased because his my brother, in fact I tried my very best to not evolve myself in your relationship until now. Leam, I am literally going through what he went through."
"With Leo?"
"No Gab. His mine in a sense, all three of us are in a trail relationship but my wolf wants more. But I am lucky I am mated with one that can tame my urges.
"How?"
"My wolf is likes to please his mates… I am not going to get into the details here but my point is if you want to know Jack's reasons, you going to have to ask Jack."
"Mmm. That still sounds insane, you know?"
"Yeah. Stop drinking, we are getting up early tomorrow."
"I feel awful (because of Jayden's story), I guess drinking paralyzes that feeling. I don't know... I do not want to sound emotional or anything... Yeah… Whatever this is my last bit."
"I apologize you hurt when he left, you hurt now and probably will hurt till it drives you insane. To prevent that I think you should clear the air with my idiot brother. Common get some rest I will take the couch."
"Mmm."