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Chapter 3 - The Indescribable Pain ...

In just two days after their Wedding,Stephen didn't expect the fall out of everything he taught would be perfect,he was hopeless,sitting outside the I.C.U of St.John Medical Hospital,As he was looking blankly at the corridor,emotionless and he's not eating for two days,it's only water or coffee he rely on to get an extra energy,he still needs to be as brave as a soldier because he needs to take care of his wife as what he promised after their wedding.Mr and Mrs.Peterson and their other child,Jeffrey or Jeddah's younger brother are also waiting for the doctor's next update of their beloved jeddah.Mr Peterson's reminiscing her daughter as a baby girl they took care of and they even don't want her got bitten by a single mosquito,but now they can't even done something to ease their daughter's Sufferings,it brought so much pain to a Parents seeing their own child fighting her own life or death battles.

It's already afternoon when the doctor finally distracted them who waits patiently outside the I.C.U,"For the Family of Mrs.Jeddah Tyler,I just want to inform you that,she is in very critical condition and now unconscious,she lacks oxygen in her body,making lots of her body organs fail to function.I can only assure you of 30% chance of life,I will not advice you to lose hope but it is through a prayer a miracle possibly could happen",the doctor shows sympathy to Jeddah's loveones.Stephen let out a sigh after the doctor had left,still getting weaker upon hearing his wife unconscious condition,he wanted to go inside the I.C.U and talk to his wife,he wanted to hold her hand,kiss her on forehead down to her lips,hug her and to tell her how much he loves her and how he misses every smile from her.

At 8:06 in the evening,Stephen can't control his drowsiness and suddenly falls into sleep.he's tired,he don't want to close his eyes but his body can't take it anymore.he was sleeping for 20 minutes when the door of the I.C.U opens with nurses very busy and he heard for emergency calling for a doctor, that's why he got up and ask the nurse what's happening inside."Sir,you are Mr.Stephen Tyler right?and the husband of our cancer patient?"one of the nurse ask.he was so nervous at that time,"Yes I am,may I know my Wife's Condition as of this moment".The nurse look at stephen seriously,"She's having a seizures repeatedly, that's why we need to call doc.immediately"."What do you mean, seizures repeatedly happening to her,is this serious?can I go inside?I need to see her!".dragging the nurse of the doorway,Stephen manages to go inside the I.C.U,seeing his wife suffers inside had been tearing him apart,he hope of being in that situation rather than his wife.he is in a dilemma when he heard "tot tot tooooooooooot",the doctor finally came,"revived her",Stephen was in a shocked when the nurses are reviving his wife when it's heartbeat stops.but after so many try of reviving her,they unluckily failed and realizes Jeddah's time is already done."time of death,8:31 pm.A loud bang!Stephen throw the chair on the wall,he's now out of his mind,"No!you can't let her die! what's the use of your profession if you can't apply what you learn!"Stephen approaches his lifeless wife and hug her,kiss her and cried so much in pain of losing her."You can't just leave me!I can't lose you babe!I love you,please come back!I need you,I can't imagine life without you babe",he cried so loud so then Jeddah's Family,they were all crying,sadness had fill the I.C.U, Stephen's Family suddenly received the bad news so they went to the hospital.then Jeddah's body been moved into the morgue.

Full of frustration,anger and disappointment Stephen don't want her wife be taken away from him but they still moved her on the morgue, it is a rules in a hospital so he can't do anything so he just walk up the hospital's roof top.thinking of ending his life,he wanted to be with Jeddah forever, what's the use of being alive if his only source of happiness are now gone.he is ready,reaching through the tip of the building roof,he chased the blue sky sadly,close his eyes and few more step,they will be together...

"Hey,are you out of your mind?",someone at his back speak,but he don't care,nobody can't really tell how much he was hurting losing a very special person in his life,the only woman that catches him,he never been so much in love before,it was only Jeddah that understands him because others really find it hard to estimate his attitude even his own family.he was like his dad,cold and arrogant but he changed by the way because of jeddah,his woman's smile is unforgettable,her cheerful and funny moments with her is still fresh and creating so much heartbreak."Well,if you want to die,you can go,jump faster!"it was a girl talking behind him,someone who doesn't know his real struggle."My mom passed away today,here in this hospital also,I was late because of my work,she is the only family left to me,We are not wealthy,I used to work 24 or even 48 hours just to sustain all her medication,I wanted her to be cured,I almost shouted, questioned all the nurses or even doctors in this hospital because i want them to do everything to save my mom's life but I guess she was too weak, I was selfish of not giving up with my mother's condition even if she already told me that she need to rest,and leave everything on God's hand.I refused to listen,I told her to fight,and not to leave me but now,I came rushing here but i am too late..."then Stephen hears the girl cry out so loud."still,he doesn't want to turn his head to the girl though she had that sweet voice similar to his wife,she's somehow calm to hear."So,if you ever think,you are the only person going through a tough battles,you are very wrong,you don't know how many are we,Even I don't know how to start without anyone beside me,My mother is the only person left to me,she raised me with her own,she is a single mother,my relatives remain unknown because she is an orphan way back then.so before you jump on this building,try to think a million times,if it's really the best option and answer to your problem,I almost jump there earlier,but i choose to be brave somehow,healing may take sometime,you don't need to rush,even the person you love the most and the reason of your emotional suffering is not happy that you are choosing to end your life rather than going on,that person might get disappointed seeing you being so weak when the fact,he/she done the bravest thing to fight,you just don't appreciate that,she can still stay in your heart forever,you might not feel the presence of that person,but believe me,just feel him/her beside you always,that person will not leave you and will forever be guiding you in whatever you are going through,if you surrender him/her to god,then you are such a a brave one too,that person is now in good hands,we may question God why things like this happen to us,but remember that everything happens for reason,leaving all our worries to God is somehow a good feeling,trust the process it might hurt now, tomorrow,we don't know how long it will,but you'll soon realize the importance of life,so think carefully before jumping,"Stephen's mind are puzzled, whether he's thinking right or what.he hears the footstep of that girl going away, that's when he turned to look.the figure already fading away of his sight,looking at the girl back image,she was tall with long wavy hair,just like jeddah,this girl is also thin but perfectly shape.in one blink,the girl already disappeared.Stephen step back,and his senses back to reality,where he is facing so much pain.