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Chapter 4 - Sad Goodbye...

Going back to where Jeddah's body is,she is now in morgue and they all decided to cremate her.Mr and Mrs Peterson are in deep pain and the saddest part of being a Parent is seeing their own child passes away just before them,they were all grieving and acceptance is still hard to say.Stephen will be the one to keep her ashes since he is the husband.For the last time before the cremation,Stephen kiss  his wife,a farewell kiss,the last time he will have a chance to touch his wife's body.'oh God,I give up everything on you,please take good care of my wife,so when we met on the other life,she is still the person i had love all my life with,I love you babe,please always guide me through this painful suffering of losing you, I can't promise that i will be the same person like you used to know me,because I am now Incomplete without you so I might be different person now,im so sorry".Stephen closes his eyes while praying that god graces him with courage to go on.

After 2 months..

Stephen woke up late,looking at the alarm, it's already 11:00 Am, it's been two months since he locked himself at his room.He will go out rarely just to drink beers at the night club.he used to be a sweet son to his mom,but because of recent happenings in his life,he changed a lot.he doesn't allow his family members to go inside his room, doesn't talk to anyone unless it's emergency,he didn't go to his work for almost 2 month,he had his own house, he bought it before their Wedding,and planned to move there after honeymoon.but it's useless now, it was left unvisited after the death of his wife.he even not planning to go there,not now that he was lost in the darkness.

Looking at his Laptop on the table,Stephen open it to look at Jeddah's pictures,way back then she was always blooming and a happy person,why didn't he notice his wife condition,maybe he could do something to save her from death.after looking at their pictures together he open the video gallery,and it seems he doesn't notice the existence of unopened video uploaded just two months ago,it was new for him since he just look at their picture,not videos because it might just add loneliness to him.For his shocked,Stephen open the video,it was Jeddah's recording her own video with message,hi there babe,Today was a nice day since God gave me another day to cherished,to be with you and with my family.tomorrow will be our Wedding day and just can't explain how lucky and happy I am to be your soon to be wife.But you know babe,Im getting weaker this past few days,Im gonna tell you something,that my health is not okay,but you don't need to worry about me,you must stay positive and happy as what i have known you since before we became official couple.Well you might be wondering why i made this video but,i know the time you will open it,you are still searching for reasons,why?what if?but remember this,God doesn't put us on a situation just because he doesn't love us or because we commit lots of sin,we should not question God for every failures,lost disappointment or whatever negative circumstances in life but we must accept it and take it as a challenge that will make us more stronger,I don't have hate or regret in life because I love God in every way he gave me wonderful moments to be cherished,and it's to be with you,I thank Him for allowing to live so I can show you how much i love and care for you,even if it's not going to be forever that I'll be on your side but remember babe we have the most wonderful moments together,just remember our Wedding,I will reserve all my left energy for that day,because I don't want to miss it.Babe if soon you'll gonna lose me in your life,i don't want you to feel hopeless i dont want you to suffer from emotional breakdown,i want you to be happy as we were before,go find another happiness that will make you complete again,im not saying you do that as soon as im gone but atleast try,I love you and I don't want you to lose your life because of me,you must keep on going,i'll be forever staying in your heart until you find someone that can replace me there,just don't forget me but please be happy okay?Im looking forward to see you better again,I may not be around but im just right there,up there..so cheer up babe,have a wonderdul day,I miss you.",the video ended but tears rolled down Stephen's deep eyes.he felt relieved after watching the video but still no sign of healing or recovery,not now or the coming months,he don't know until when,in his mind it was still a sad goodbye from jeddah.even in her last words,it was still Stephen's feelings she was worried with.it was unfair, because she doesn't tell the truth earlier,but she pretended everything's fine and going well,She doesn't even try to give her husband a single hint that she's sick or even dying,but Jeddah's courage of fighting until they both got married is something to be proud of and even in her remaining life she follows what her heart wanted,and it is to be a wife to the person she really love even in just few hours of. her Life,it is indeed to be called as True love❤️.