Naura POV.
Every human being has hope, one of which is the joy of life, I never believed that God existed, even until this moment, I don't know who I ask who the God I worship is, but my tears can't answer it either.
My ears are ringing to hear the chanting of the verses they are echoing, the hands that don't stop looking up, even the floor that is constantly a tool to prostrate for Them.
My eyes flashed wildly to see how the name of Allah SWT they called, You are the most merciful and You are the most merciful.
I just answered everything with the word "Amen", it is said that it is the final request of all kinds of prayers.
If He exists, where are all the miracles that they have been asking for? Why has He not once granted them?
Various kinds of people believe with each thing in their heart, but not even one can get me involved in it.
The grip on my hand suddenly became calming, just like its name, Bunga, Bunda Fanya Andara.
She is like a red rose that is beautiful and fragrant, but her thorns are able to protect everyone in her arms.
I don't know what good he has done so far, until he gets a lot of good.
"The patient is awake, thankfully the patient can pass her critical period. "
Prostrations and words familiar to me filled the room, Bella was born into a devout Muslim family, and more or less Nau followed her best friend's habit of speech.
"Mama, will Naura be able to visit Bella later?"
"Oh yes of course Nau. "
"Will Bella be mad at me later?"
I swear, for whatever reason I don't see hatred in his eyeballs, this sincere human is able to make a comfortable home for those around him, no matter if it's just trash like me that will get into it or even diamonds, He treats everyone the same.
"No, she will not continue to harm her, Mama forgot to call you to remind you to eat. she is very angry, that's how much she takes care of you Naura, how could Bella want to be angry with you?"
Suddenly my body felt all the pain, my knees suddenly hurt as well as in my stomach, where it was already bruised like before.
"Nau?"
"huh yes. "
"Anyone sick?"
It feels different, more painful than I've ever felt before.
"i'm fine mom. "
"Really?"
"Hmm. "
My attention was diverted when Bella's gurney was moved. She seemed to have been in a fully conscious state, because her sharp gaze was directed at me from the start. She came out of the ICU.
"Patients can be visited, but if possible, at most two people, yes, sir. "
"Okay, thank you sir. "
Mom and Dad seem to know who is more important to Bella, even though this is the first time I'm afraid of one thing in my life, but I have to keep going in there.
My footsteps trembled, still recording clearly how the breath caught in her throat, my first tears flowed at that time for her, but look who is more panicked by my current condition if not Her.
"Nau, are you okay?" His words are weak, but I'm sure those eyeballs demand that I tell you how I feel.
"Knees, stomach, hands, this hurts. "
"Sorry, because of me, we had an accident. "
"No, it was me who took me, so it was me who was wrong. "
"It's still my fault, awww. "
My spontaneous steps towards the bed where Bella was lying, this rash child tested my patience, but look at how her confused face made my guilt soar again.
"Your hand is broken Bell. "
"It's okay to be sick, " she said as if nothing had happened.
My brow furrowed, is this okay with her?, I'm not a psychic who can guess what's in his head.
"That's all?"
"So?"
"Aren't you angry?"
"Angry? What do you do?"
"Yes, do it all. "
"Who with?"
"Me or God. "
She chuckled, is it foolish for me to tell her God? what She knows I never believed in Religion.
"God is not wrong, I am wrong, it means this is a warning for me, there are many negligence that I allow, that's why God wants to bring me again to remember Him. "
"Tsk? God never existed. "
"In your mind, try to ask your heart. "
"I have no religion, you know that. "
"Religion is belief, God is included in it, so why don't you believe that God exists?"
"Yeah, because it doesn't look like it. "
"For example, there are people who have long hair, long beards, just ugly, then there are people who have short hair, their facial hair is clean and neat. "
"I'm not in the mood to talk about your parable. "
Bella laughed while grimacing, She understood exactly that answer.
"Why do you think?"
"What the hell?"
"They are different?"
"Yes, one cut hair so it's neat, the other doesn't. "
"That's the point. "
"What do you mean?"
"One believes that if I cut my hair it will be neat and clean, one doesn't, one is looking for a barber shop, one is resigned and doesn't want to try. "
"Then?"
"God is like a barber shop for his people, Nau, you have to look for Him, if you believe your life will be much calmer and happier, when will you prostrate to the ground but be heard by the sky. "
My body stiffened, I was silent for a moment, all this time I never cared anything about what other people always say about God, about all his powers, I don't care, but today, there was a big slap to my heart, about the meaning of God's existence in life My.
"I don't want to add members, if you want to believe in another God, please, as long as you don't leave your heart empty Nau. "
She pointed to his chest, where all the peace she had grown up to.
My logic takes over my conscience, confused and empty makes me confused, I don't know whether I should find her within me, or let her disappear completely for the rest of my life.
"Nau. "
"Hmm. "
"Sorry about my curiosity about you and the wounds on your body, earlier I saw that the bruises were really big so I was confused. "
"Ah? Tsk you don't have to worry. "
"How long have we been friends?"
"5 years. "
"You know my family?"
"yes i know them. "
"Even my brother in Holland, you know that too, right?"
"I know. "
"Why don't I know anyone from your family?"
Once again my tongue is mute, I always don't have an answer to this simple question, always choose to lie to keep Bella by my side, because I'm not that good as a friend.
"I'll meet you later. "
"Are you afraid we can't be friends anymore if I meet them?"
"No. "
"So what?"
"You should sleep, I...
"Because I'm Muslim?"
"Not Bell, because I'm a child from a family that works in a dirty world" I thought.