Coming back from work that day. it has really been a very stressful day, just like always.
Entering the House....
me: Good evening aunty
Aunty: Good evening mimi. You are welcome.
I went in to pick my clothes to go take my bath.
Aunty: I have a news for you.
Me: Go on aunt, I'm all ears.
Aunty: It's from bubu.
Me: ( Immediately becoming delighted at the mention of my lovers name) okay I said looking up expectedly.
Aunty: ( going straight to the point)He said that should tell you that's over between you two and that he doesn't want to have anything to do with you again.
Immediately all colours drain away from my face. I was choked because not even in my dreams was I expecting this.
For a moment I think my heart stopped beating, the earth stopped rotating and I didn't breath.
It seems as if I heard it wrong. yes I did.
I touched my ears and certainly I knew something was wrong with my ears. so, I lifted my head and said...
Me: aunty please I didn't hear you.
she replied
Aunty: Bubu said it's over between you two.
This time I was sure I heard it right just that I don't know how to digest it.
No no no this was a dream. My hands were shaking and the only words that came out of my mouth was..
Okay.
Suddenly the house was heating up and it feels like I'm going to choke inside
so, I ran outside.
Sat down outside. How did this happened?
No this must be a joke. yes he must kidding me. so I called and it rang many times and he didn't pick. But I'm a very patient person. I have waited many times, this time I will wait like before.
Soon my phone rang and behold it's my Love calling. A smile crept it's way into my face. What was I thinking just now? He will never leave me. I told my self.
My hands were shaking as I picked and said hello with excitement ringing in my voice
But alas he shouted to my hearing and called me all sorts of names. He said it was over.
Just then all the walls of happiness I built come crashing on me.
I know he has treated me I'll and said many awful words but I know this time he was serious and deadly serious!
I tried to calm down but couldn't. All the future I hoped for. The dreams I hoped for, all the things I wanted to do with you.
I tried to hold myself but the tears come choking down and I ran away.
Closer to a well I went. My legs gave way and I landed on my knees. Tears flooded like a river.
All I could remember was your face, your voice and I knew that they were going to hunt me forever.
This was the man I loved. The one I gave my my everything. The only one that makes my heart to flutter.
I swear I love you, that with all my heart. All my dreams, all my hope are you. You are everything I wanted.
We never fought, we never had a problem. Why did you just say those things?
I could not measure the way I love you but just now I realized how deep it was.
I was there for God knows how long. I tried to stop the tears but they never did. It seems as if they had the will of their on. So I sobbed and sobbed.
You may not know why I cry so much. He was my dream, the reason why I breath, he was the only inspiration. He was my everything.
Maybe you needed me to show you how much I did loved you and though I couldn't tell you it was more than words could say because I loved you more than my life.
I could have taken bullet for you.
I cried for long and God knows I have never cried for anyone like that.
it was because of you. You were my everything 💔💔
It took me time before I got up and when I did all strength has left me.
You may not know what he meant to me.
He was the only one I had. The only one that has ever believed in me. The only one who didn't reject me.
I swear my Life was miserable and totally messed up.
He was the apple of my eyes.
Have you ever been rejected by the whole world? Have you felt that you are all alone? Have anyone ever told you that you are not important?
Well that has been my life. Don't ask me about family because they don't care. No one will believe but I know it's.
I have been wounded. I taught that he will never leave me. But now it seems as if the only strength I have has finally let go and I have to go back to who I formally was.
Now there will be no more songs or sun.
It will be boring as it was and breathing will be so hard to do.
But I vowed in my heart that I'm not going to be this way forever. one day I will be a person you wished you have.
In our Love story all I have was an endless love and though it was useless to you but that's my everything. That love was priceless but I swear that I don't know if anyone has ever loved do deeply.
I could have given you my life if you demanded.
When I wanted to go in and I looked at the sky that used to make me glad when you were with me all I could see now was darkness.
I taught you would be here forever.
I taught you would never let go but now you did. letting my greatest fear come through. you are everything I prayed for and every morning when I open my eyes and remember that you are here it brightens my mood.
Who would know that a sucidal person like me can love to live.
Who would know that I will smile again.
Who would know that I will believe in my self?
For the very first time in my life I actually felt that I was important. You are the reason I lift up my head and walk with courage. I felt like a princess.
Just because I taught you loved me.
I taught you would never let go but now you did.