I woke up this morning feeling like always. I wanted to smile the instant I saw the morning sun but I remembered yester night
instant my heart skipped and remembered what happened yesterday. I remembered you said that I shouldn't call you again. That you don't want to have anything to do with me and that you don't want to ever see my face.
ouch.. those hurtful words
This time tears didn't flow out but I felt dead deep inside. Instead of the butterflies that used to fill my stomach it was deep darkness. This deep sadness. deep bitterness that I could even taste in my tongue
Since I was born I have never felt this way because all I feel now is emptiness.
I feel so empty. My mind is not even making a sound. It's like everything has gone to silence.
How I wanted all these things to be but a dream. I wish to pinch myself awake from this nightmare. No
I stood up and the very first person to greet me was my aunty. This time she was all smiles. I wonder what could make her so happy.
Aunty, Good morning Mimi how are you?
Me: ( saying the opposite of what I feel)
I'm doing great aunty.
Aunty: Good! See forget about bubu. He isn't the one for you. I know you will do better without him
Me: ( pretending everything is alright)
Ofcourse aunty. Hahaha I'm okay...
Aunty:( looking at me intently) I know you will do better without him. see you now... It did not even hurt you. get him out of your mind
Me: ofcourse I did not even take him seriously I lied.
Aunty: Good. Make sure to meet me at the market by six o'clock. Let's make money... you know you are the one that sells more than the rest, so don't keep me waiting. she said smiling and walking away.
I swear I saw a smirk on her face.
I just nodded.
5:30 am
Mary: Mimi What are you still doing here? Be fast and go to market now.
my sister called and said you are taking her time.
I don't even know why you are so lazy. You are still dressing up.
I kept mute because I know she was looking for a way to throw insults at me.
Mary: Hehe, I heard bubu has left you.
Hehe, that's good but I don't how he managed to cope with a clumsy person like you. Idiot!
By the time I was done my ears was already blazing. Won't you guys just let me rest? Just please let me cope with my heartache before trying to redicule me?
I walked off to the bust stop and took a bike to the market.
Now I don't know how to sell today knowing that the person who broke my heart is sitting not far away from our shop.
But it's not like I can run away. Let me face my life...
The day was going as usual.
I avoided making an eye contact with you. I was terrified of how your face would look like if I eventually see it.
will you be happy or sad? I guess it's the later...
The day is already going towards the evening and I could say that I did very good at avoiding you but it was like you who avoided me the most.
I went to collect money from all our customers but I caught sight of you smiling with another girl just the way you used to smile to me.
Now it sank. I trusted you so much that I was blind to your actions.
I have seen you with that girl for so long. The way you talk to her... whoa! You have been dating her
I was really a fool!
Here am I thinking that I did something wrong. That maybe I did something...
at that moment I taught the flood of tears where trying to break through my eyelids.
No I mustn't cry. I must not show that I'm weak in front of you. I wouldn't let you have the satisfaction of seeing me cry.
I held the tears with all the strength I have left in me and walked out of the market.
I felt like a fool. I was here crying for someone who has already moved on.
Come on it's been one day since he broke up with me. I taught he would be down or remorseful but No! he already moved on for long..
I was really an idiot.
I went straight to the kitchen and washed everything I needed to. Add my salary to the money I was holding and gave it to aunty as I used to call her.
She was happy that I sold so much even when she knew the money was more than I sold.
We packed everything and went home for the day.