It felt like the back of my neck was going to be torn off. Fernan, who opened his eyes, picked up the glass of water on the side table.
But the dangerously trembling hand quickly dropped the glass. A cracking, sharp cracking sound filled the room.
Fernan, who stood up completely, placed a hand on his forehead with a bulging hand.
I looked around and saw an unfamiliar bedroom I had never seen before. She couldn't even remember when she was here.
Perhaps, the knights would have moved it down like a nerd.
Fernando couldn't figure out how many days he had not slept.
It's been months since I've been looking for Julia like a crazy person. Now I could only vaguely feel that spring was over.
It's been half a year since Julia disappeared. Summer has now arrived on the continent.
However, Fernan's time was still stuck in the winter when Julia disappeared.
Fernan rubbed his pale lips and stood up.
As he casually stepped on the broken pieces of glass, his face was as dim as if he felt no pain.
When I opened the door, I saw a small lobby over the hallway and under the railing. It seemed to be the inn of the village where the search was being carried out.
"Sir, are you awake? How is your body?"
A knight standing in front of the door suddenly approached him. Then he saw the bloodstains on the spot he had passed and widened his eyes.
"I, Your Majesty, I have a wound on my foot… ."
"How many days have I been asleep?"
Fernan, who intercepted the knight's words, asked. The hesitant knight answered with his head bowed.
"It is three days. But, my lord, even that is not enough. You need a little more rest."
Fernanh gently closed and opened his eyes that seemed to go out, and leaned against the wall. Her head was throbbing hot as if someone was throwing a stone at her.
He let out a deep, boiling sigh and gave the command in a harsh voice.
"Bring your clothes. I will leave right away."
"However… ."
The knight hurriedly tried to dry it, but he was unable to speak as he immediately closed the door and turned around.
In the end, the knight let out a silent sigh and disappeared over the hallway.
It had been less than two hours for Fernando to leave the inn.
Throwing away all the knights drying up, he headed straight for the stable and got on his horse.
Without hesitation, he drove the horse and ran.
Contrary to the dry jaw line and darkened eyes, the still overbearing body was barely supporting his mind.
The knights quickly followed him, who left first. Soon the procession entered the mountain road. It was a ridge leading to another country.
Fernan ran for a while, staring only at the front. There was nothing in the empty vision.
'majesty… .'
Then, suddenly, someone's voice appeared in his empty mind.
As if urging him to not stop, a delicate voice continued to pass through his ears.
'… My name is Julia.'
Fernan's dark gaze returned to focus for the first time. It was Julia's voice.
He twitched his lips slightly, trying to figure out when the voice had come.
Yes, it must have been the banquet room in the Imperial Palace where I first met her. A luncheon where you meet your partner for the first time.
'Do you remember me? I met you a long time ago... .'
On the way home from lunch, Julia asked me that. Did he remember himself.
And Fernando just stared at her as if he was looking at something worthless, then quietly shuddered. she doesn't remember
All the trivial memories before the war had long since been erased.
Eight years of standing, trampling on the hills of death and killing and blood tombs. Because during those years he gave up all the acknowledgment.
And at that time, Yulia, who lowered her gaze bitterly, tilted her lips slightly as if it was still good.
I thought that little smile was annoying. For the rest of my life with that woman, I thought seeing that smile would be insanely annoying.
Fernann gripped the reins again. So, he hurt Julia that much.
Because I don't want to see you smile. Hoping to get away from him with my feet.
You're nothing to me, as if declaring that you shouldn't expect anything from me as a husband.
"… under."
Fernan instantly stopped talking. All the mistakes of the past that filled his head made it impossible for him to move forward.
My lips trembled spontaneously. He barely raised his gaze and gripped the reins, and suddenly something white entered his gaze.
Wild flowers blooming under the shade of a tree in a nook. It's white and thin, so it's hard to see.
It was the lily of the valley that Yulia said she liked.
"… Shit."
Fernan spit out abusive language as if vomiting.
There was no time for this. She had to move quickly. But when Julia's voice and her face filled her mind, she couldn't move her body.
Every moment that passed has crushed him mercilessly.
I was suffocating with the overflowing emotions. It felt like someone was strangling my neck without mercy.
* * *
around that time.
Long if long and short if short, Yulia perfectly adapted to her new life.
Unlike the past, where we lived each day as if we were to endure it, now there are days of calm every day.
Julia's daily life at the monastery was monotonous.
In the morning, I used to spend time with the children. After that, he gave an afternoon Mass, and after Mass he helped Gabriel prepare the meal.
Of course, even if I said help, it was at the level of a little help from the side.
"Aww, it's because you don't have to help each time."
Gabriel said while looking at Julia, who was diligently slicing the onion. She replied as Julia gently frowned at her stingy eyes.
"it's okay. There is nothing to do in the afternoon anyway."
Gabriel helped Julia easily adapt to monastic life.
Gabriel treated Julia like her daughter and gave her unstinting affection.
In that warmth, Julia melted away surprisingly quickly.
Being with her made me feel at ease for no reason.
"Oh, you said that Julia made the flower decorations in the chapel?"
Gabriel asked if he had suddenly thought of boiling the stew. Julia nodded her head without stopping her sword.
"Yes, I've made it once before, and Cedric said it would be good to decorate the chapel."
Recently, Julia has developed a hobby. She used to make ornaments from flowers that had bloomed in the garden.
Originally, I was only helping gardeners in caring for flower beds, but the flowers that were left and thrown away were a waste.
Although the branches protrude, the shape of the flower was intact, so I thought that I could use it somehow.
So, after asking for permission, I brought the disposed flowers and made these and other things. They were things like wreaths, corsages, and bouquets.
I tried making various things as I could, and the finished product was better than I expected.
"The chapel, which was still dark, became very bright. I didn't know you had such a talent."
"thank you. I will try to make it more often in the future."
Julia raised her lips with embarrassment but proudly.
It was fun to find things I wanted to do little by little.
Sometimes I cut my hand and got hurt, but that was all good.
After having dinner with Gabriel, I always went for a walk around the monastery.
It was because the meadows were very beautiful when the sunset was completely gone.
Knowing that she enjoys walking as a habit, Cedric would always accompany her at the same time.
As if they had promised, the two of them spent time together every evening.
"I think I will be away for a long time soon."
While we were walking while chatting, Cedric suddenly changed the topic. Julia tilted her head and asked.
"why?"
"The High Priest will be visiting the Temple of Illion soon. It is a major event that all priests of the temple must attend, so it seems inevitable."
Cedric, who had promised to stay with Julia until she adjusts to this place, stayed in the monastery for several months as if to keep her word.
However, he was still a priest belonging to the Temple of Illion, so it was difficult for him to leave for such a long time.
"okay. Come back safely. By the way, will you give my regards to Matthews?"
Julia looked up at him quietly and asked.
The Temple of Illion was located close to the Empire, so it had been a long time since I had not met Matthew.
It was because it was difficult to find someone who recklessly visited and recognized their faces.
"Yes I will."
Cedric nodded politely. After those words, the two walked in silence for a while.
The front yard, which was bright with the sunset light, suddenly fell asleep.
After such a short walk, they went back to their dorms.
Just as they entered the doorway, Cedric suddenly opened his mouth again.
"Yulia, and if it's okay… ."
Cedric, who was about to ask something, stopped for a moment.
When I turned around, Yulia, who had been standing a couple of steps behind, frowned and pressed her chest to her chest.
"Yulia?"
At the same time as Cedric's call, Yulia sat down on the spot as if she was torn apart.
"Why, why? Where are you sick?"
Surprised, Cedric quickly approached and supported Julia.
However, Yulia, who had a frown on her face, did not even respond, and only trembled.
Suddenly, my heart felt like it was about to be ripped apart.
"ah… ."
Yulia crouched tight as if it was difficult to even breathe. Her power was beating her heart like crazy.
For a moment, Cedric, whose head went white, hurriedly grabbed her by the shoulder.
He tried to heal himself by raising his stamina, but to no avail.
The light that did not penetrate into Julia's body and bounced straight out disappeared into the air.
Meanwhile, Julia's pain was getting worse and worse. Without realizing it, she grabbed Cedric's collar tightly.
It felt like something hot was welling up in my chest, and I couldn't stand it.
"town… ."
Yulia, who covered her mouth with the earthenware that suddenly came from the danjeon, bowed her head.
Red blood gushed out from the cracks in his hand.