"The Moon is brightly shining
In a dark night
The Owl is crying
Longing for the Moon"
The moon shone brightly outside the window. Decorated the Ubud sky in the dark night. The bright light streamed in through the bedroom window. Liked to say hello and accompanied her.
There was the sound of the wind blowing. Rustling of bamboo leaves. The rush of the river flows. Sending love and longing.
Sonata Andini laid on her bed staring at the white ceiling of her room. Staring blankly there. Closed her eyes and opened them again. Many times. Holding back the tears that were about to come out. She did not want to cry. Not for now or ever. But her heart did not want to be denied. Her heart said otherwise. She wanted to cry to lighten the burden in her heart. It was a very heavy burden she had carried for the past seven years. The burden of longing.
"Oh my God, how long have I been like this? Help me, Lord." Andini asked herself and prayed. Begging for strength from God.
She had long dreamed, hoped and held back her longing. Holding back her tears, she knelt down, begging God to see him again.
" I want to see him. I want to be with him. Will everything happen? Will everything come true? When? How long will I be like this? "
She had lived thousands of days. She had passed hundreds of full moons. And during that time Andini only remembered one name in every breath she takes.
This was the seventh year after that night. It was a night she would never forget for the rest of her life. No matter how hard she tried to forget it, in the end all that effort would be turn to zero.
No matter how many times she tried to fall in love again it would eventually return to zero.
How often she met and she was in a relationship with another man, it would eventually return to zero. Whatever she was done to forget the man it would be in vain in the end. Because deep down in her heart she rejected every man who tries to enter her life.
In the end Andini could only look down and cry. She let the tears fell down on her cheeks. That was all she could do. Nothing else.
In her heart she kept hoping, one day... one day she would meet him again. Because she believed all of this was her destiny, the destiny that had brought her to Masaki Ichiro.
Andini believed that the universe had arranged it. And brought her to the man. To meet the man. The universe did not allow Andini to forget that man. She had to remember that man for the rest of her life. The universe let the man put half of his life into her. So Andini was unable to escape and let her life be filled with the new breath of life from the man. A part of the man.
A man she had only met once in her life. Just one night. A man she didn't know at all. The man who helped her to let go of all her desires that night.
Andini still clearly remembered all the details about that night. Everything that happened that night. Every second that passed that night. Andini remembered it. In details.
The Japanese man. His towering body, his face, his skin, the way he touched her, the way he kissed her, the way he breathed, and the way the man called her name.
His thin face, sharp nose, slanted eyes that always stared intently. His big and strong hands. His long fingers that touched her body gently.
The dragon tattoo that adorned the back of his neck continued to the curve of his shoulders and descended on his arms.
The dragon's head was around his neck, its body and tail wrapped around his shoulders and arms and its legs and claws were attached to his wrists.
It was all she remembered about Masaki Ichiro. The first man who filled her heart. The first man who touched her. The first man who made her given up everything she has to him. The first man who took her to the peak of nirvana. The first man she fell in love with. Made her heart flutter even if they only met once. The first man who made her happy. But ... at the same time, that man made her cry and suffer all her life because Andini had to longing for him.
And for seven years, all she knew was she love him.
"I love you so much and miss you so much. One day, I will find you.... I will find you. We will meet again. I will find the way. I don't care what I will do. I will find you Masaki Ichiro..." Andini said to herself.
Andini had determined the story of her own life. Follow her heart. Follow her destiny. She had decided to stick with her current state. Until one day, when she will meet again with the person she loves. She believed it.
There was a saying and she believed in what it says : " Not everything that we cannot see means they don't exist. Like our beliefs, our wishes, and the past. "
Andini took her note book on the table and opened it. She took the pen and her fingers started to dance. Writing.
" Blue.
The day was quiet and passed slowly.
A song reminds me of memories
You, my beloved one who is far away on the other side of the earth
I wish the day would go by faster and erase all memories.
What a sad heart that misses.
But my blood doesn't want to understand
Flowing and the current is still roaring in memory of him"
The night was getting late. The sound of an owl echoed through the dark night. Lulls Andini's ears. Liked a sad song for Andini. Took her to dreamland. Dreamt about Masaki Ichiro. The one she loved.